What Happened & Why:

What Happened & Why:
Preface:
“The difference between me and others is that I have exited acting three times by myself whilst almost three decades later, others have not only NOT exited acting, they have NOT exited acting EVEN after they have been told in no uncertain terms what is meant by acting, even when they profess to be good and discerning.

Barely a year after I changed in 1978 I exited acting spontaneously (without knowing so then) to become ‘totally relaxed or incapable of suffering’ but under extreme duress everywhere, I gradually reverted to acting but in a world that has changed, only to again exit acting spontaneously briefly in 1986 and now in recent years I again gradually exited acting by working out by myself the nature of my daily stresses which inevitably meant working out precisely the nature of acting, to ensure that now finally understanding fully why, I will never revert back to acting.

In contrast, others even though they too changed, never exited acting by themselves in almost three decades that followed and even today, after much tutelage many who call themselves good and discerning still stubbornly manifest acting despite acting being stressful, mind warping and sinful. If actors are so good and discerning (as they delude themselves), how come they cannot see (even after being pointed out in no uncertain terms) that whatever they do or say, however they do or say is forced, not natural, stresses themselves and others, is exaggerated or faked, never letting their yes be yes only?

I am not jumping to conclusions and being unkind to others to exalt myself as unique because in the aftermath in 1978 I had underestimated the recalcitrance of ordinary people to foolishly believe then that everyone will drop out soon to become totally relaxed just like I did. This indicates I am not uncharitable or conceited, setting myself to be superior. That never eventuated nor in retrospect, was there any danger it would or any possibility it could. Notwithstanding, what I say that people everywhere have never exited acting is unemotional, clearly thinking and after exhaustive discerning observations.

The reason cannot be arbitrary but there may be or is a fundamental difference in my nature compared with the rest and suggests that given the chance ordinary people are unlikely to initiate this consciousness change and thereafter spontaneously exit tormenting acting.

That fundamental difference is that I have an implacable aversion for suffering (which is NEVER blameless as people still delude themselves but suffering ALWAYS stems from self sin & falsity and acting is an entire way of conduct of being TOTALLY IMMERSED in mutually reinforcing falsity and thence suffering) and allied to my disccernment, an uncommon ability to differentiate what is truly true from what is false but clothed as truth, it is unsurprising but inevitable that given the chance or a glimpse of an exit from suffering I never dreamt possible, I was never going to let it out of sight but I seized it to spontaneously exit false and suffering acting, not once but three times.
That the mass of ordinary people around (I foolishly expected in 1978 that they would drop out of acting to become totally calm just as I did in 1978) never exited acting even almost 3 decades after 1977 suggests they are not as truthful or good as they pretend to themselves and others to be; if they indeed are truthful and good, they would have discovered spontaneously by themselves what & how they say or do things ALL THE TIME is exaggerated and faked and how it is sinful and stressful.

When I changed, I directed my newfound forcefulness to eliminating the force of going against self until it was finally erased, causing me to become ‘totally calm’ but subsequent overwhelming duress from others reverted me back to shallow acting.

When others were forced to change by circumstances, they directed their newfound forcefulness to merely sharpen or make more direct their existing force of going against self together with their force of self preservation (both were strengthened) which is why they never exited acting to become ‘incapable of suffering’ and were never in danger of doing so” because they lack insight, were indifferent to suffering in themselves and others and harbored unresolvable ill will that they cannot confront but they disguised so well as acted goodness that they will not relinquish but instead emotionally, forcefully believe is beneficial for themselves and others.

WHAT ORDINARY PEOPLE STUBBORNLY INSIST IS “LOVE” OR ‘GOODNESS’ IS ALWAYS IN TRUTH FORCING THEMSELVES TO BE NICE TO EACH OTHER.

NICENESS IS NEVER GOODNESS OR LOVE BUT IT IS ALWAYS SUGAR LACED POISON FOR BOTH GIVER AND RECEIVER, DETAINS BOTH IN DECEIT & HARM CLOAKED AS TRUTH & GOOD. THIS IS A UNIVERSAL LAW AND WHOEVER IS UNKNOWINGLY NICE MUST SUFFER EVEN ENDLESSLY UNTIL HE WAKES UP FROM HIS DECEIT AND SELF & OTHER HARM.

WHAT ORDINARY PEOPLE WANT IS TO BE EMOTIONALLY, FORCEFULLY NICE TO OTHERS AND WHAT THEY WANT AND EXPECT IS THAT OTHERS BE EMOTIONALLY AND FORCEFULLY NICE TO THEM.

NICENESS, LIKE SEX, MAY BE IRRESISTIBLE AND ALLURING FOR AWHILE BUT IT IS ALWAYS UNDERTAKEN WITH EFFORT & STRESS AND AFTER HAVING BEEN NICE, YOU WILL GET SICK WITH YOURSELF, YOU MUST GET SICK WITH THE PERSON YOU HAVE JUST BEEN SO FALSELY, EVEN INTIMATELY NICE TO, WHICH YOU THEN CANNOT ACCEPT OR EXPRESS AND YOU MUST THEN TRY TO HIDE YOUR SICKNESS FROM HIM AND YOURSELF (DENY), REINFORCING A MINDSET OF PRETENSE AND PERPETUATING FUTURE NICENESS UNTIL IN OLD AGE, YOUR MIND SHATTERED, YOU BECOME TRULY MAD.

THERE IS AN ALTERNATIVE TO NICENESS CALLED BEING TRUE TO ONESELF AND OTHERS. IT IS EFFORTLESS, NEVER FORCED, NOT SMILING, NOT STRETCHING SYLLABLES, NOT EXAGGERATING OR FAKING TO PLEASE OR IMPRESS OTHERS, NOT INTIMIDATING OR DOMINATING OTHERS, SHEDDING ALL EMOTIONS (LUST, FEAR, GREED, AGGRESSION, PRIDE) TO ONLY LET YOUR YES BE YES PASSIVELY FEEL.
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As clear as day is distinguishable from night, I am (in my unemotional, impartial perception) today an unmistakably very different, permanently changed person compared to who I was prior to 1977 in terms of being now effortlessly free from stress, restlessness, conflict, silly thoughts, violent impulses and vulnerability to depression together with a concomitant reduction of defilements (lust, greed, anger, ill will, pride, jealousy, envy, presumption).

As clear as day is distinguishable from night, I detected after repeated objective observations that everyone in the world, including animals too have changed in appearance and behavior in the aftermath of the (momentous) conscious change in 1977 and even today, their appearances and behavior indicate ongoing change of an out of the ordinary behavioral and consciousness kind.

The person I am today, the effortless, permanent release from mental suffering that I now experience is unthinkable in the consciousness circumstances before 1977 and my present effortlessly woe free state is not achievable however one might try without there having occurred a revolutionary consciousness change. It was as if there was a quantum jump in the consciousness to a different level hitherto unknown to beings before 1977.

Immediately after I had established with confidence that I was not kidding myself but I had truly changed in 1977, I said to myself joyously without conceit that what I had just done or discovered or stumbled upon was unique, marvelous, how come nobody has discovered it before, is there a scientific basis for it? In my enthusiasm, I tried to encourage others to similarly change, not realizing then it was unnecessary because everyone would change as a matter of course later (although they still stubbornly continued to act even till this day, even despite non acting being bliss and acting being stress).

Barely a year after I changed in 1977 it was as if a bottom fell out of me or a ripening fruit finally fell when I became involuntarily calm without effort as if incapable of suffering. It was as if I had woken from a dream, things that I previously held as dear no longer applied, emotions that were previously intense became deflated and I now did or said things effortlessly as if walking on air, I could not believe anymore in the things people around me still believed as if asleep and I was now awake but at the same time life became very difficult because people appeared to find it difficult, even violently agitating to relate to me. I had wondered then why this had to cruelly happen to me like receiving a poisoned chalice; here I was effortlessly serene not worrying without having to force myself like before but engendering disruptive reactions everywhere I went which did not seem to happen to anyone else. How am I going to conduct my daily life in such a difficult circumstance beyond my control where I was effortlessly calm but it made me a pariah. What is the difference in me, why couldn’t I be ANONYMOUS like others or be accepted by others in my changed state?

A similar recurrence in milder form happened in 1986 when I again became involuntarily relaxed and it again made life relating to others difficult or surreal. I again wondered why I couldn’t be like others, anonymous. Why did these involuntary stress-free states that though pleasant made life surreal keep arising in me, ostracizing me? What is the difference in me that such relaxed states kept recurring in me whilst it seemed others are getting on with their lives uneventfully? Why can’t I be like the rest?

(In retrospect, though I did not recognize it then, during those two episodes of ‘total incapacity to suffer’ I had spontaneously exited acting to become effortlessly not acting but under overwhelming intimidatory, rejecting reactions all around, I gradually reverted to acting until finally a few years ago I again graudally extricated myself from stress to exit acting, this time armed with insight and more congenial conditions because people everywhere are also changing in tandem again now.)

How Come & The Reasons Why:
The reason why barely a year after I changed in 1977, I became effortlessly relaxed as if incapable of suffering, previously strong emotions became deflated and I could no longer subscribe to the values I previously shared with others may have been because after the initial change I was constantly applying force to neutralize the force of going against myself inside me and unknown to me this stressful force of going against myself was being slowly erased and finally died to leave me with effortless, forceless not going against myself or being myself and this state was reflected in my serene appearance without restlessness, how I conducted myself and spoke as if without effort.

Because people then had never seen such a person and in truth everyone was held in considerable pent up suffering, the sight of me and my effortless conduct seized people viscerally to react violently, in the process attacking their mental shackles to liberate themselves.

The reason why after decades, as far as I can ascertain, nobody else experienced that similar involuntary effortless incapacity to suffer that I had experienced twice may be due to a fundamental difference in my nature. Although everyone broke their shackles in their minds, other people’s shackles restrained their entrenched ill will and pretense whilst mine in truth restrained goodwill and truthfulness. Hence when ordinary people broke their shackles they only gave more direct expression to their previously restrained aggressive and pretentious impulses and they therefore never went on to experience finally a similar effortless inability to suffer as I did which may have been a spontaneous cessation of acting.

Put in another way, when others changed, they never directed their new found mental forcefulness at their internal force of going themselves but instead when they removed their own shackles, this force of going against themselves to act became more direct and incisive together with a similarly more direct and incisive force of restraint. If they had directed their newfound forcefulness to destroy their force of going against themselves (as I did) they would have ceased acting and thus become effortlessly calm. That they all still act decades later indicates this is the case. If this is the case, it suggests that it may be impossible for ordinary people to initiate the consciousness change if they were given the chance because they are quite happy to continue suffering by acting even when their shackles are removed. The reason why I attacked the shackles was because I did not want to suffer anymore, I did not want to go against myself anymore. When ordinary people saw the effortless calm in me, they were seized to attack shackles but not to stop themselves going against themselves but to intensify their acting.

You could say I was an amateur, suffering actor who was always on the lookout for an escape from this horrific prison of acting and when given the first opportubity to escape I went directly for the door whilst ordinary people much as they protested their wholesomeness, were professional, even hardcore actors who although suffering serious mind warping agonies from their acting, could never give up their manipulative acting and when a door was opened for them where none existed before, they were quite happy and foolish to still hang around detained by sensual allures. This theory that people are recalcitrant actors is supported by the fact that even today, even after I have demonstrated to them how people act, those who call themselves good, those who are quite intelligent appear quite clueless for they continue to act even when not acting is bliss.

Hence when I attacked the shackles in my mind, I was slowly releasing the repressed goodwill and truthfulness in me, which was why barely a year later I became effortlessly incapable of suffering as the forces that restrained my goodwill and truthfulness finally gave in. When others were provoked to change by the changes they saw or sensed around them, they attacked shackles that restrained a recalcitrant urge to fake and manipulate others, allowing them to become more directly tough and manipulative.
The Requisite Right Resolve:
Right Resolve is one of the eight factors of the Noble Eightfold Path and once you have made the right resolve, you must carry it out mindfully (right mindfulness or attention, another factor) by right conduct & right speech.

I still recall the resolves I made as a troubled person under provocation in 1977 that irreversibly set in motion the consciousness changes that followed.

My original resolves: A determination never again to be pushed around to behave in a weak and dishonest manner to please or placate others but instead I shall thenceforth be myself, love myself, refuse to suffer, I will stand no nonsense from others, whoever they are, I will decide what is right and true for myself, I shall thenceforth be true to myself and others. I felt that people everywhere were putting on a show, dishonest but I will not follow suit.

Is any ordinary person capable of truly, not hypocritically or lip service making the above resolves that may be essential prerequisites for initiating that consciousness change? Ordinary people, no matter how wholesome they want to believe themselves to be, being tough and stubborn are only too willing to play along to please or impress others, to chin up and soak up nonsense from others (or pretend as realistically as possible they really do appreciate) whilst they themselves slyly worked undercover to manipulate others to get what they want.

Apparent Not Real Independence:
I wondered many times if there could be a scientific explanation (eg a physiological basis or evolutionary process) for this consciousness change I had undergone that was distinct and unimaginable by me before. How did I ever stumble on it, why me? What happened?

Even the most virulent infections do not spread to affect everyone so swiftly but pandemics of flu flare up to then wane without affecting everyone. That this change should later spread rapidly to compulsorily affect everyone suggests that it was no ordinary physical or scientific event but a miraculous or extraordinary event. Why should something physiological or even a circuit change happening to my brain similarly affect everyone’s brains to follow suit merely on sight of me? No scientific theory can satisfactorily explain this consciousness change and this change therefore suggests that this world is not a scientific stand-alone world where its beings are truly independent of each other but their independence is more apparent than real, all beings are in truth linked consciously to each other like a complex equation. Just as what anyone does impact on others and if you stress others, you also stress yourself (it is impossible to hurt others without hurting yourself, no murderer is filled with undiluted joy after his deed), in the same way reflecting that we may be the infinite points of consciousness that are ultimately linked to each other, like being one facet of an infinite number of facets of a single common super diamond, hence when one person changes his consciousness status, all others like secretly subconsciously linked dominos are forced to follow suit.

Why The Consciousness Change Is Significant:
Human life throughout the ages was in truth an unending suffering where nobody was truly happy but they were all wickedly faking it leading each other on. Everyone was acting, forced by mental shackles to act, putting up with each other and never being themselves. This consciousness change that nobody could imagine in their wildest dreams to exist allowed a significant reduction of the stress and torment to all beings and that I subsequently develop an effortless incapacity to experience suffering, an effortless incapacity to worry without having to force myself not to worry, indicates that this unique change I had stumbled upon is wholesome and beneficent and lent proof that what the Buddha and Jesus said that a heavenly state does exist that is effortlessly free from all forms of suffering, hunger, disease and death. Suffering is not the natural accompaniment of existence but suffering is the natural accompaniment of sin and falsity. This change that led to a wonderful effortless peace in me is an indication that it is possible to exist in unalloyed bliss and what the Buddha and Jesus said is true.

Hell is said to be unimaginable everlasting suffering and heaven everlasting bliss and freedom from suffering that must be effortless, not needing effort, otherwise it would not be unalloyed bliss. The core of the Buddha’s teachings, as he himself said, was stress and the total ending of stress (heaven is infinitely better than human existence but enlightenment is even better than heaven, even better than existing blissfully as brahmas, according to the Buddha), indicating that it is possible to make a permanent end to stress and stress is not inevitable, not something that had to be contended with always but stress is always blameworthy, due to sin. Hence, the fact that this consciousness change alleviated the suffering of all, depending on how they continued to abuse themselves and in one case (me), it led to the effortless incapacity to suffer for awhile suggests that this change is significant, wholesome, in the direction of heaven, not hell which is increasing suffering. Is it a mere coincidence that the person who triggered this benevolent change is also intelligent and honorable, not evil man?


Why I regained the capacity to mentally suffer:
I have wondered what happened when I became ‘totally calm’ and ‘incapable of suffering’ in 1978 (with a lesser recurrence years later and probably minor threatened ones subsequently) and how it was that I subsequently was able to resume experiencing stress ‘like everyone else’. It was a tumultuous time then because of the topsy-turvy barrage I was subjected to. What may have happened was a novel state in which I became effortlessly incapable of stressing myself, became effortlessly incapable of inducing sadness and anxiety in myself but I was still receptive to some degree to exogenous stress.

Like a capacitor storing charge, the lifelong internally stored charge or internally generated virtual capacity for stress or self harm in me independent of external input was being slowly discharged like a tap that has now been turned open after I initiated the irrevocable mental change. When the stored charges were finally exhausted, I experienced a novel effortlessly ‘charge free’ or stress-free state. Where previously I had to constantly exert myself to force back dark internal forces suppressing me, now these forces finally gave way and I was left unfettered, not needing to fight anymore to assert my not going against self, hence this wonderful ‘incapable of suffering’ state.

I sensed this change in me clearly, unmistakably, it was something I had never experienced before or thought possible that anyone can be so effortlessly relaxed without a worry, incapable of worrying without having to force myself (as in the past) not to worry and I knew I could not hide this state from view because it was reflected in my appearance and how I conducted myself. It occurred to me to wonder how I would be accepted by others in my clearly changed state but I was powerless to alter my state. It was this clearly visible state of my being that people could perceive and had never seen before that provoked them to become flustered, startled, filled with hate or display violent reactions not unlike someone who had seen a ghost. In so doing, I suspected that they were all individually seized compulsively to violently attack their own repressive mental shackles, like chicks breaking surrounding shells they previously confined themselves to but now that they have seen someone break through, they could not restrain themselves from also breaking free.

The reason why subsequently I recovered my capacity to experience stress and thence sadness may be the result of conditioning. Just as parents may initially force a child to stress itself to greet others and it will subsequently internalize the punitive force previously applied to it to stressfully greet others without being told to; similarly as a result of the constant stress inducing, self doubting and forceful nasty reactions from others that I experienced, I gradually regained the capacity to force myself to suffer, to therefore feel stress and conflict.

But my capacity to feel stress or stress myself after I changed was nevertheless in all likelihood shallow (and qualitatively different from pre 1977) in comparison with ordinary people and therefore quite easily reversed and this may explain why years later I experienced another milder involuntary state of being again effortlessly unable to suffer that because of changed consciousness state experienced by everyone already in place, triggered less disrupting reactions.
Further, the stress that I experienced after I regained the capacity to experience stress may be qualitatively different, more immediate, direct and sharper than in the days before 1977.

LOOKING BACK AT THE TUMULTUOUS TIMES IN 1978 (AND ANOTHER LESSER PERIOD IN 19865), IN ALL LIKELIHOOD, I HAD INDEED INVOLUNTARILY ENTERED A STATE OF MIND & BODY LIKE A TRANCE WHEN I WAS THEN TRULY WONDERFULLY, EFFORTLESSLY TOTALLY CALM & CLEAR, INCAPABLE OF OR IMMUNE TO SUFFERING OR WORRYING EITHER INTERNALLY GENERATED BY SELF OR EXTERNAL INTENSE AGGRESSIVE PROVOCATION BUT SUBSEQUENTLY OVER TIME, I GRADUALLY DEVELOPED A CAPACITY TO EXPERIENCE STRESS AGAIN THAT BECAME QUITE STRONG & PERVASIVE THAT MEMORIES OF THOSE EFFORTLESSLY RELAXED TIMES FADED AND I WAS NOT TOO KEEN TO REVISIT BECAUSE IT MADE LIFE DIFFICULTY CARRYING ON RELATING WITH OTHERS IN THIS WORLD. JUST AS PROFESSIONAL TENNIS PLAYERS FORGET THERE WAS A TIME WHEN THEY WERE HESITANT NOVICES, AS MY CAPACITY TO EXPERIENCE STRESS STRENGTHENED AND BECAME PERVASIVE BECAUSE OF GRADUAL CONDITIONING FROM CEASELESS INTIMIDATION BY OTHERS, I FORGOT THERE WAS A TIME I WAS MIRACULOUSLY IMMUNE TO STRESS, I COULD NOT BE STRESSED (AND THIS MAY BE A FORETASTE OF WHAT LIFE CAN BE WONDERFULLY LIKE IN HEAVEN).

THE REASON WHY I SHOULD EXPERIENCE THIS STATE OF IMMUNITY TO SUFFERING WAS BECAUSE AFTER THE INITIAL CONSCIOUSNESS CHANGE, I WAS, UNKNOWN TO ME THEN, CONSTANTLY FORCEFULLY ERASING THE FORCE OF FORCEFULLY AGAINST MYSELF IN MY MIND AND BECAUSE THIS FORCE IS FINITE (NOTHING IS FOREVER, NOBODY IS IN HELL FOREVER EVEN IF IT LASTS HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF YEARS) , A TIME ARRIVED LATER WHEN THIS MENTAL FORCE FINALLY COLLAPSED AND I ENDED UP WITH UNOPPOSED EFFORTLESSLY RELAXED NOT GOING AGAINST SELF, A STATE THAT THOUGH IT PROVOKED VIOLENT, EVEN LIFE THREATENING REACTIONS FROM MANY AROUND EVERYWHERE I WENT, I WAS HELPLESS TO EXIT BECAUSE NOBODY IN HIS RIGHT MIND WOULD EAGERLY ABANDON TRUE HAPPINESS TO ENTER SUFFERING BUT HE HAS TO BE RELUCTANTLY CAJOLED OR INTIMIDATED TO LEARN TO GO AGAINST HIMSELF AGAINST SELF RESISTANCE BY OTHERS, TO SAY GOODBYE TO NON SUFFERING AND ENTER SUFFERING PROGRESSIVELY OVER A PERIOD OF TIME.

AS A RESULT OF CONSTANT INTIMIDATION BY OTHERS AND IN ORDER TO FURTHER MY CAREER AND GET ON WITH LIFE, I PROBABLY WITHOUT INSIGHT THEN IMPERCEPTIBLY, GRADUALLY RESUMED AMATEUR ACTING BY APPLYING INITIALLY SLIGHTLY GREATER FORCE THAN IS NECESSARY TO GO AGAINST MYSELF TO EXAGGERATE AND FAKE LIKE THE REST THEREBY INDUCING STRESS AND EMOTIONS (SHAME THENCE PRIDE, STUBBORNNESS, ANGER, HATE OF SELF AND OTHERS) AND IT IS IN THE NATURE OF THINGS THAT STRESS AND EMOTIONS KEEPS THE MIND DISTRACTED & SCATTERED, A STATE CONDUCIVE TO FURTHER AND ESCALATION ACTING IN CYCLES OF POSITIVE FEEDBACK UNTIL THE PERSON HAS FORGOTTEN THERE WAS A TIME HE DIDN’T ACT, HE WASN’T STRESSED AT ALL. HE COMES TO ACCEPT STRESS AS NATURAL AND BLAMELESS.

THE REASON WHY IN 1986 I REVISITED IN MILDER FORM THAT SAME STATE OF BEING TOTALLY RELAXED BUT DISRUPTING MY LIFE WAS THAT UNLIKE OTHERS, I HAD TASTED BLISS AND MY ACTING WAS SHALLOW, FORCED ON ME AND MY SPIRIT WAS NEVER COMPLETELY BROKEN BUT EVEN AS I LEARNT TO GO AGAINST MYSELF RELUCTANTLY, I WAS OPPOSING IT QUITE VOCIFEROUSLY AND INEVITABLY MY FORCE OF NOT GOING AGAINST SELF REASSERTED ITSELF TO AGAIN EXPEL THE FORCE OF GOING AGAINST SELF AND I WAS AGAIN LEFT WITH A STATE OF UNOPPOSED NOT GOING AGAINST SELF. THE REACTION AROUND THEN WAS LESS DRAMATIC BECAUSE THE WORLD HAD THEN CHANGED ALREADY.

IN THOSE DAYS, I LACKED INSIGHT PRECISELY WHY THESE WONDERFULLY RELAXED BUT DISRUPTIVE STATES KEPT OCCURING IN ME AND NOT IN ANYBODY ELSE, WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE, WHY CAN’T I BE LIKE THE REST AND ‘SUFFER QUIETLY’? NOW, HAVING DISCERNED COMPLETELY INTO THE NATURE OF ACTING AND HOW IT AFFLICTS NOT JUST SOME BUT ALL BEINGS IN THIS WORLD, I UNDERSTAND THE CHANGES THAT HAPPENED TO ME THEN, WHY I BECAME ‘COMPLETELY CALMED’, REGAINED MY CAPACITY TO EXPERIENCE STRESS, LAPSED INTO CALMNESS AGAIN, WHY PEOPLE REACTED VIOLENTLY THEN AND HOW EVEN TODAY, I CAN SENSE FROM THE REACTION OF SOME TO MY PRESENCE THAT THOUGH THEY MAY NOT KNOW EXACTLY WHAT, THEY SENSE A DIFFERENCE IN ME THAT OFTEN PROVOKED AVERSION OR UNEASINESS THAT THEY TRY TO HIDE, EVEN VIOLENT SPITEFULNESS. EVEN STEEPED IN THEIR OPAQUE DELUSIONS & MURKY VISIONS THEY CAN SENSE SOMEONE WHO APPEARS AND BEHAVES DIAMETRICALLY OPPOSITE THEIR PRETENTIOUS CREDO & THAT INVOLUNTARILY STIRs THEIR VISCERAL REVULSION.

(SUCH STATES OF BEING EFFORTLESSLY RELAXED NEVER BEFELL OTHERS EVEN AFTER DECADES LATER, AS FAR AS I CAN TELL, PROBABLY BECAUSE MUCH AS ORDINARY PEOPLE MIGHT LIKE TO PROTEST INDIGNANTLY, THEIR INTRINSIC NATURES {I HAVE AMPLE EVIDENCE OF THIS BECAUSE TILL THIS DAY ORDINARY PEOPLE, INCLUDING THOSE WHO THINK THEY ARE GOOD ALL CONTINUE TO STRESSFULLY ACT, EVEN AFTER THEY HAVE BEEN TOLD} IS TO BE TOUGH, UNYIELDING, EMOTIONAL, THEY HARBOR IMPLACABLE ILL WILL THAT THEY OFTEN DISGUISE AS ACTED PRETENTIOUS EXAGGERATED GOODWILL, THEY ARE INCORRIGIBLY GIVEN TO MISCHIEF AND THEY CAN NEVER BE TRUE TO THEMSELVES AND THEREFORE OTHERS AND THEREFORE, THOUGH CONSCIOUSNESS CONSTRAINTS WERE SIMILARLY LIFTED FROM THEM, THEY WERE HELLBENT TO CONTINUE THEIR MISCHIEF THAT IS INIMICAL TO BECOMING EFFORTLESSLY RELAXED)

Piecing It All Together:
In those days when I first experienced this consciousness change, I knew I had changed in an unmistakable, revolutionary and wonderful way, I could see everybody too were changing and I knew I was responsible for this change although nobody, including scientists who imply they can detect infinitesimally minute changes in whatever they studied and whose job is to be discerning and examine all phenomena, seem totally unaware of or dumbstruct about this unmistakable consciousness change that surely they (and everyone) felt occur in them but for some reason (like ostriches sticking their heads in the sand) they appeared not inquisitive or not keen to discuss with each other what is going on. How come scientists or religious people never confront each other, “I sense this wonderful consciousness change in me making me more direct and assertive, do you similarly experience this change? What is going on?” It is perhaps a reflection or indictment of the uniform intense pretense of humanity that they have all been dumbstruck, at loss of how to articulate or confront each other over this change, preferring to ignore it whilst they wax eloquent about technology and hypertechnology.

But I lacked insight then to piece together exactly what happened and what it all meant as I now do. I did not or could not then see others acting, how they acted and how acting was linked to unnecessary stress, and sinful as I now do.

In the subsequent decades that followed, as result of the visual and aural assaults I was subjected to and reflecting the nature of stress that it can be induced in anyone even if he started off with a clean sheet or slate, and whatever that can be induced in a person can gain strength or intensity the more he experienced it, I gradually developed a substantial capacity to experience or become stressed leading in due course to restlessness, conflict, harboring mad, silly or violent thoughts and becoming depressed occasionally (though never as severe as in those days before 1977). Although life was unsatisfactory and I felt harassed, ‘hot under the collar’ from demands of my job and lifestyle and needed daily almost obsessive visits to hit tennis or golf balls to ‘let off steam’ after which I felt a bit better for awhile before the shroud of stress and restlessness would creep back in as I returned to the grind of making a living.

I was never a good smiler. I was always nervous, even painfully so in the presence of people I was unfamiliar with, especially those authoritarian and intimidating types. I found it a great difficulty to graciously say goodbye to others when departing whereas I saw so many people able to slickly say their farewells with aplomb. In the days before 1977, I always struggled to smile, only managed brief wry smiles that often provoked disconcerting twitches to please others and even after I changed to become assertive, I was never a notable smiler, having been told by girls at places I worked as locum that ‘this doctor seldom smiled’.
Hence when I became quite stressed out (perhaps still much less stressed compared to goats) and disenchanted and in the age of the internet, guided as if by an unseen force, I downloaded the entire Buddhist Pali Canon that was free online and began to read with a critical eye whether the Buddha was genuine or a fake. I had previously be drawn to Buddhism because of my troubles getting on with others pre 1977 but abandoned religion after I changed because I felt they did not help me. Actually the Buddhism I was exposed to in those days were an very different brand and seriously corrupted form of Buddhism as compared to the Pali Canon which is said to be a faithful transmission of what the Buddha said. It is debatable if my outlook would have been different had I read the pali Canon before 1977 but I suspect that I would have never been satisfied with my suffering lot before 1977 no matter what scriptures I read and only that miraculous consciousness change in 1977 could assuage my troubled, conflicted mind. I was never a partisan person who jumps to conclusions but I was always open with a critical eye to appraise whatever was presented to me. I tried meditating and initially it was a struggle. I remembered in the early days when I experienced substantial stress and restlessness from work demands that I tried to shrug off by meditating, I found myself struggling just to keep still and not get up. Often before long I would lie down to sleep. It is a far cry today when consciousness state even when I speak with casual acquaintances is unruffled during and afterwards and whatever shallow stress or restlessness I experience nowadays will swiftly disappear almost as soon as I begin to meditate and as my (effortless) calm concentration deepened even annoying background noises (eg recently the squeaking of the rotating ceiling fan intruded) faded into the background (I could still hear the creaking fan but as my consciousness state was elevated, it sounded remote and did not irritate me anymore)

Working Out What Acting Is All About:
Disenchanted with my financially remunerative but stressful life I began to pay attention to the stress I experienced daily (instead of paying attention to making money or the stock exchange until today Ihave no interest in ‘investing’) because I was always intolerant of stress and it gradually dawned on me vaguley that people were not being themselves but being stressfully sugar laced poisonously nice to each other, not good. I discovered smiling created stress in me and was not natural but forced or fabricated to be nice to others and if I stopped smiling in my many daily transactions, I experienced tangible reduction in stress.

This ability to discern that smiling induces stress is not universal or a ‘no brainer’ because I have just spoken to a female patient with hypertension who smiled frequently and insisted that smiling is beneficial, it relieves stress. If I am correct, it indicates how deluded or undiscerning she is to believe what is extremely stressful, smiling is an antidote to stress.

In the early days I thought some smiles were genuine reflecting true joy (I was probably fooled by sentiment that the gorgeous smiles of some, especially attractive females, were genuine when they are gorgeous, convincing well practiced fakes) whilst others were stressfully faked to please or impress others.

I felt some people were being genuine in their relations with others whilst others were putting on a show. I accused some people, including my brother of falsely acting, not being himself whilst I upheld others as not acting. However, as my insight improved, I realized that whilst indeed my brother was acting, it was not only some people who were acting but everyone was in fact acting, even so called good people eg Mandela or Mahtma Gandhi. Iit was not only some smiles are faked but all smiles as expressed by ordinary people are never passive but in truth forceful faked, forcefully directed at others to deceive, please or impress; gorgeous smiles are smiles that have been honed to perfection like the professional tennis player’s ‘awesome’ serves to impress.

My ability to see exactly how each person acted, why I said they were acting and not being themselves improved gradually until today I can see instantly and infallibly without difficulty how each person acts and what their probable underlying intentions in acting are.

There was a time I thought only feckless humans falsely acted, animals had no reasons to act and were being themselves but again as my discernment improved, I saw that animals too, reflecting what the Buddha said we can all be born animals, were also good actors who stressed themselves (not that they can help themselves otherwise) to exaggerate and fake in the name of deceiving, pleasing, impressing, dominating and intimidating other animals.

As time passed and my mind became increasingly steadied by meditation, I began to increasingly see and therefore define how everyone acted in speech and actions by what & how they did or said things, how they are constant, never intermittent actors. I discerned how people were (unnecessarily) forcefully stretching their syllables with every word (sibilance is subtly stretching the ‘s’ in pronunciation) they spoke creating significant stress for themselves and listeners who have to bear their forcefully stretched syllables. As I focused on the mechanics of people’s speech, I discovered how people were unnecessarily longwinded, how they mindlessly uttered in repetition “sure, sure, sure” or “Ya! Ya! Ya!” that stressed themselves and was a pain on the ear, not pleasing. I began to realize that the reason why a lot of people’s speech sounded harsh was because it was not only both loud and fast but it was explosive. It is not so much the loudness and rapidity of their speech that made it harsh but it was the rapid acceleration and thence deceleration of loudness and speed within a sentence that marked them as harsh, stabbing or explosive.

Thus it was that allied to regular meditation and reading scriptures, I gradually gained full insight into the entire nature of acting and discovered how it afflicted not some but all beings, not only involved their speech and deeds but their perceptions and thoughts and acting is the root of all unnecessary self generated stress that led infallible to conflict, restlessness, mad/violent thoughts and depression.
Sheer Coincidences?
If you agree or can perceive that there was an extra ordinary consciousness change that benefited you sometime after 1977 and there were further changes in recent years, then:

Considering that for one who discerns correctly, acting is always tormenting, stressful and sinful and non acting the opposite, why is it that even though continuing consciousness changes since 1977 permit anyone to stop stressful sinful acting, no one that I can discern everywhere in the world has spontaneously stopped their sinful and stressful acting? Instead, even those who believe they are quite good and intelligent, even those who have heard what I have said many times, who rub shoulders with me daily, continue to somnolently act, cannot see that the way they say or do things is forceful, is stressful to themselves and a pain, not a boon to receive? When I criticized rightly this girl she turned away even before I could finish telling her calmly what I wanted to say and she then angrily rebutted that I was no better than her, not realizing that the usual way she spoke was stabbing, harsh on the ears of anyone and surely creating stress for herself. It is as if she is blind to the fact that the manner she speaks is harmful to herself and others, not beneficial. Yet another acquaintance speaks softly sprinkled with chuckles as if everything is a bit funny or terrible or ‘wow’ or ‘ho, ho, ho’ not realizing that this is acting, being nice and stressful to self and others. Could it reflect their natures that they continue to act and find it difficult if not impossible to see the falsity in acting and put a stop to their manipulative acting?

In contrast the person who first initiated the consciousness change in 1977 was the first and it appears only person to spontaneously become totally and effortlessly relaxed not once but at least twice and he went on to now finally put an end to his own shallow acting and also spontaneously work out in all its details how people act. Could it reflect there may be a fundamental difference in his nature that he is intolerant of stress and by extension intolerant of falsehood with a keener eye for truth?

I did not always accuse others of falsely acting nor did I always see as I see now precisely how people acted. Considering that when I proposed to this reasonably intelligent girl that smiling causes stress, she smiled broadly to insist that smiling does not create stress but is an antidote to stress, it may be no surprise or is it another sheer coincidence that it was subsequently again the same person who changed the world who realized that everyone in this world was not being themselves but they were all falsely forcefully acting and I worked out precisely what acting was, how people acted and how it is linked intimately to their stress, restlessness, violent impulses and depression. They may be correct but it seems a lot of very ‘normal’ people believe the opposite, what is stressful (smiing & stretching syllables) is soothing, eases stresses. How can you teach the blind to see?

Because acting is what people everywhere do ALL the time and it is unnecessary, can be dropped, is stressful, leading to untold torment and sinful (harming others) this discovery about acting by me is of paramount importance because it enables those who understood and applied themselves to meaningfully exit suffering even forever where previously they were detained in endless suffering because their very constant false acting churned up insoluble stress and conflict.

How did it come to pass that the person who first initiated the consciousness change in 1977 is again the first to stumble on this truth about acting? How come it has never dawned on any of the many intelligent and religious people in this world not only today but throughout history that they stressfully, falsely act all the time and that their false acting (exaggerating and faking) is the taproot to all their stresses, conflict, restlessness, mad volitions and depression? People smile and stretch their syllables all the time throughout the ages. How come it never occurred to them that their smiling and stretching syllables create terrible stress that is cumulative leading to restlessness, violent urges and depression?

Even though ordinary people foolishly create unnecessary stress for themselves by acting leading to restlessness, silly, mad and violent impulses and depression, nobody in his right mind would choose to remain in stress, restlessness and depression if they could instead exist in an effortlessly serene, worry free and depression free state. Therefore, if I had stumbled on this consciousness change by chance and not predestiny, given the chance, anyone else could have done it instead, then if that change led me to an effortless, calm and clearly thinking state, how come the same wonderful end point was never reached by ALL the rest after they changed, even till this day, as far as I can tell? Instead they have all remained still tough stubborn forceful actors who do not realize they constantly create unnecessary stress for themselves and others thereby preventing this serene state from arising. If their natures are similar to mine, surely at least some would have become totally relaxed, non acting?

If changing the consciousness state in 1977 was a random or chance occurence, some else could have done it, you do not need to be discerning, articulate or particularly good to do it, it would be yet another sheer coincidence that the same person who initiated it is not only discerning but articulates well his many thoughts that have never before expressed by others before (there are many intelligent people who are poor communicators). He not only elucidated clearly & concisely what acting is about but furthermore, he was conversant in matters of the spirit, able to interpret Buddhist & Christian texts in a way that arguably (or clearly) no other person has done before after the masters departed.

If it was mere coincidence, someone else could have initiated the change in 1977, then considering the billions who exist now and before, statistically it should have been one person who will cause the initial consciousness change, another or many others who will then spontaneously become effortlessly relaxed by exiting stressful acting and yet others will then develop insight into the nature of acting (whilst the rest of mankind will all then tune in and listen with rapt attention as the follow the world series of sports or the Olympics and will all joyfully accept this never before heard gospel about acting with humility and change themselves AS SOON AS POSSIBLE to become permanently happy) and yet others will independently cast light (as never before) on what the Buddha said in an unique insightful way and yet others will glorify Jesus as he said the counselro will by taking what is his and making it known to you.

Not only did I originally benefited people by initiating the consciousness change in 1977 but I believe again in recent years I am again benefiting others either directly through what I say, my conduct & appearance or indirectly through further domino effect consciousness change that may be occuring in tandem with the changes I experienced recently that I see is also occurring to everyone.

Joyous & Joyless Aggression:
The joyous consciousness state that I experienced in 1977 was essentially because of my newfound aggressiveness. When I was quite sure I had changed irrevocably to become assured & fearless, I was not kidding myself I had changed, I knew with quiet assurance it was an unimaginable breakthrough, a consciousness state that nobody before could have experienced, like a form of enlightenment or awakening of the consciousness or blissful permanent, not a temporary release from suffering like from drug or alcohol.

Although I had qualms about being aggressive, about my newfound aggressiveness, I asked myself why is it that even though there are so many aggressive people throughout the ages and now; how come they never stumbled on this joyful quantum consciousness leap? How is it that when I became aggressive, it was as if a door opened in my mind but other aggressive people never experienced the same breakthrough state when they are habitually aggressive? Surely, in all the incidents of aggressions, there must be one instance where they must have tasted this unheard joy and pursuing it, break through mental barriers to discover this state of the mind I discovered? I could not explain why then.

Now I understand why. Although aggression is ultimately stressful and harmful to both self and others, my newfound aggression was directed against the force of going against myself to act weak and dependant. It was directed at being forcefully myself, being true to myself and others and being truly good instead of acting good. This was the reason it was joyous because it was breaking the shackles of falsehood, inhibition, pretense and manipulation of others.

When ordinary people throughout the ages and even today were aggressive, they were lashing out at others, manipulating and harming others and themselves, reinforcing their force of going against themselves in the name of deceiving, pleasing, impressing, intimidating and dominating others which was why they never experienced a joyous release of their consciousness but instead every time they expressed aggression, either physically through speech or deed or mentally, their aggression only strengthened their bonds to suffering that again drove them to lash out hatefully. The more they suffered, the more they lashed out negatively until the way out of their agony is no longer visible.

AGAIN, THAT AGGRESSIVE PEOPLE THROUGHOUT THE AGES NEVER ACHIEVED THIS REVOLUNTIONARY JOYOUS PERMANENT BREAKTHROUGH AND TRANSFORMATION OF THEIR CONSCIOUSNESS DESPITE BEING HABITUALLY AGGRESSIVE WHILST I ACHIEVED THIS BREAKTHROUGH THE MOMENT I BECAME AGGRESSIVE SUGGESTS THERE MAY BE SOMETHING UNIQUE IN MY PSYCHE THAT PERMITTED THAT AND THERE MAY BE A FUNDAMENTAL DIFFERENCE IN MY AGGRESSION AS COMPARED TO ALL OTHERS.

The reason I felt joy and changed permanently was because my newfound aggression was directed at countering my internal force of going against myself in me. When I was forceful or aggressive, it was not blind, lashing out force but directed force to forcefully be true according to how I know how to be true (perhaps there is no truth in others, only pretense or acted truth), force directed at being true to myself and others and unknown to me then, I was wearing down the internal force of going against myself until it disappeared and because there was no longer any negative force to oppose, I became effortlessly serene, without restlessness either at rest or in whatever I said or did.

When you are incarcerated by strong forces to go against yourself to act weak, fearful to appease others, you have to use force or aggressiveness to overcome them and because these forces are finite, once exhausted, no force is required not to go against oneself thereby I experienced an effortless calm.

AGGRESIVENESS IS NEVER JUSTIFIED AND IS ONLY AN UNAVOIDABLE EXPEDIENT THAT IS ACCOMPANIED BY JOY IN THE VIRTUOUS AS HE GRAVITATES FROM HIS STRESSFUL EXISTING STATE OF NOT LETTING HIS YES BE YES ONLY (EG STRETCHING SYLLABLES) TO EFFORTLESS FUTURE LETTING HIS YES BE YES ONLY (EG NOT STRETCHING SYLLABLES). AS SOON AS HE ATTAINS THIS NEW SINLESS STATE, NO AGGRESSION IS FURTHER REQUIRED AND HE IS EFFORTLESSLY NOT AGGRESSIVE ANYMORE. HYPOCRITES MAY PREACH TOTAL NON VIOLENCE BUT BECAUSE THEY REMAIN ACTORS, THERE MUST BE REPRESSED AGGRESSION THAT THEY STRUGGLE TO HIDE BUT MUST BE EXPRESSED SOMEHOW INDIRECTLY.

Why Everyone Must Initially Force Themselves Not To Go Against Themselves:
There are a lot of people, even those who call themselves good and intelligent who do not realize they are going against themselves all the time in what & how they say, do, think and perceive things. If you cannot see yourself going against yourself, creating unnecessary stress for yourself, nobody can help you.
If you have reasonable discernment, you can see how you are going against yourself, then you must pay attention (right mindfulness) when you go against yourself (eg watch yourself forcefully stretching your syllables) and then apply force to force yourself not to stretch your syllables, not occasionally but in a concerted effort until a day will arrive when you will finally effortlessly (not need force to) not stretch your syllables because not stretching your syllables is passive, letting your yes be yes only.

Nobody goes against themselves passively but initially, they are forced by others (parents, peers, society) apply force on themselves to go against themselves (eg to act instead of be themselves, to stretch their syllables to be nice). Gradually, they do not have to be forced by others, do not even have to forced by themselves but they are forced by strong emotions (pride, shame, ill will) and stress to helplessly go against themselves. Because they are no longer forcing themselves but forced by their emotions, they become deluded they are being themselves, themselves is doing or saying things forcefully that go against themselves.

It is the universal law that whoever is dwelling in sin (forcefully doing things that go against yourself is sin) must strive, must apply force in a sustained, unrelenting manner, must strive in a sustained manner to efface or wipe off gradually that force of going against themselves in order to exit sin and suffering. Without applying directed force in a sustained manner, you cannot exit acting (eg stretching syllables). If you apply force in a patchy manner, eg force yourself not to stretch syllables three times but allow yourself to involuntarily forcefully stretch your syllables ten times afterwards, you are not dedicated and have actually reinforced rather than reduced your force of going against yourself to stretch syllables.

It does not take force to not stretch your syllables because you are doing nothing by not stretching your syllables but it always takes force and energy to stretch your syllables that in time the habit energy to keep doing so is prodigious. Hence you must persistently, mindfully apply force to exhaust this habit energy to stretch syllables until it is exhausted and you effortlessly not stretch your syllables because no force is required to do nothing.

And when you apply force to stop yourself going against yourself, that aggression is joyful because it reduces your stress but if you apply force or you are forced by emotions to stretch your syllables, that forcefulness is stressful because it hurts you.

This is the reason why I felt joyous being aggressive after I changed because I was joyously applying force to stop myself going against myself whilst everybody else never experienced joy when they were aggressive because their aggressiveness is driven by ill will to persecute others and themselves.

This Would Not Be Possible:
Whilst others may obfuscate or deny or rubbish that there was any significant consciousness change after 1977 or in recent years either because they are deluded, grossly unperceiving or pretentious (lying), there are irrefutable PERMANENT consciousness changes I detect in myself after 1977 and in recent years again.

(If there was a significant change and you deny, rubbish or cannot perceive it, then you are destined in your blindness to return here to suffer again; not necessarily as humans)

If I had not changed after 1977, I would not be writing this, nor will the thoughts I now convey occur in my mind because it was preoccupied by neurotic mundane thoughts. I would instead be still wracked today by insufferable stress, restlessness, conflict, insecurity and silly insoluble irrational worries about coping with meeting people.

In those days I was always tense, always or easily becoming nervous and just the anticipation of meeting others would cause great nervousness that I struggled to contain and not expose in the presence of others and haunted me afterwards. I had a debilitating phobia of greeting people (introducing myself and shaking hands and uttering niceties or formalities) and saying farewells eg saying goodbye to the host and his family after a social dinner. I would twitch and tremble almost uncontrollably on such occasions especially if I was detained by the host in prolonged goodbye chitchat and wondered why I could not be like so many others who seem so confident and not to be troubled by social banter or meeting others.

Nowadays, it is IMPOSSIBLE that I would not be able to stand my own ground in the presence of anyone because I am effortlessly being myself, would not force myself to go against myself to kowtow to smile and say silly nonsense to please others.

Although I believed so then, it was not that there was something wrong with me, I was a social misfit or schizophrenic that I found such apparently simple tasks like meeting others and social banter so nerve wracking but it is because such activities are always intrinsically seriously stressful, even mind bending to ANYONE who indulges but most others are tough enough to fake as if they enjoy what is in truth not harmless, enjoyable small talk but grave stress and sin.

The Buddha said idle chatter and telling lies lead to hell or the animal womb. The reason why I was so nervous then in those situations may be because somehow inside, I knew idle chatter is not harmless but sends one even to hell. I was only consciously forcing myself to be nice to others whereas others have graduated to automatically forced by urges to be nice, an act that will consign them to perdition they do not realize or refuse to believe. I was hesitantly, consciously forcing myself to be nice to others creating tension and nervousness that I became painfully aware and as time progressed, it increasingly undermined my social confidence. Others, even those who call themselves good had no such qualms about uttering niceties they don’t mean or forcefully believe they do mean it, just to get on in life.

Nowadays I do not fear meeting others, those situations involving greeting and bidding goodbye do not make me nervous because I am true to myself, there is no force in me to put on a show for others and when there is no show, there is no nervousness, no show that can break down. When there are no smiles, there are no smiles to break down into twitches.

BEFORE 1977 I FELT LIKE THE MAN ON DEATH ROW WAITING IN GREAT ANXIETY FOR THE HANGMAN TO COME. AFTER 1977, IT WAS LIKE I WAS NOT ONLY MIRACULOUSLY REPRIEVED BUT TRANSPORTED TO A GARDEN OF JOY I NEVER DREAMT POSSIBLE.

How many ordinary people can bring themselves to admit, let alone speak about their inadequacies and insecurities? There may be serious emotional blocks and denial that do not permit them to speak thus and they are kidding themselves if they think they are as devoted to truth as I am. What they do not realize is that this pretense may detain them in this world in the Age to come.

Why The Change Benefited Everyone:
Even though ordinary people constantly go against themselves to create stress or disadvantage for themselves, going against themselves is never without purpose or self benefit but it is ALWAYS intended foolishly for self gain, for short sighted self gratifications. Even though people are evil, feckless, they do not want to suffer anymore than they need to, but because they must be evil, they must continue to suffer.

Hence unless something benefits them, is to their advantage (as Jesus said) people will not change themselves. Unless something clearly benefits them, is instantly recognizable as beneficial, they will not change swiftly en masse.

Why change if you are happy in the state as you are and that change offers you no benefit? That everyone, not just some, swiftly changed themselves after 1977 and again in recent years, without having to see me or listen to what I have said implies they can sense the change in me & others around them and they are seized immediately to forcefully change because they do not want to suffer in their current condition.

I certainly derived unmistakable, previously unimaginable benefits ensuing from the change in 1977 and now in recent years and though it is impossible that ordinary people will experience the full extent of the effortlessly calm and clear mental and bodily state I experience, they are likely or must derive similar but lesser benefit from the changes (why should the same change give me benefit but suffering in all others?) that is only limited by their wickedness in still forcefully going against themselves to manipulate others.

There is collaborating evidence that this is the case because I can see now in retrospect as I couldn’t before 1977 that EVERYONE, not just some were suffering in mind warping fashion before 1977 and they were only putting on a (cruel) show that they were enjoying themselves. Previously I was under the delusion that there were many who enjoyed themselves and were well adjusted whilst I was unhappy and ill adjusted but after the change I could see they were all faking it to get along. There is ample evidence from the lives of celebrities (Marilyn, Elvis, Natalie Wood, James Dean, Brando, Howard Hughes) that behind the scenes they were tormented and quite eager to kill themselves. After the changes, although still suffering, people were visibly more ‘liberated’, less inhibited.

Jesus: Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground without your Father's will. Even the hairs of your head are all numbered.
If you agree there was a clear consciousness change after 1977 and again in recent years that benefited you (and everyone as I see), and considering that Jesus said above that not one sparrow will fall to the ground without your Father’s will and even the hairs of your head are ALL numbered, is it possible that this global change I triggered in 1977 and again recently, caught your Father by surprise, was an accident or was it in the full knowledge of the Father and even intended for Jesus also said:
Nevertheless I tell you the truth: it is to your advantage (the counselor must DEFINTELY bring you advantage) that I go away, for if I do not go away, the Counselor will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you. And when he comes, he will convince the world concerning sin and righteousness and judgment: concerning sin, because they do not believe in me; concerning righteousness, because I go to the Father, and you will see me no more; concerning judgment, because the ruler of this world is judged.
If the initial consciousness change in 1977 was a mere accidental occurrence, it must be a series of sheer coincidences that the person who triggered that change then triggered further changes again recently, he exited sinful, stressful acting not once but three times whilst the rest of humanity have not exited acting, even those who profess to be good and intelligent who have been told in no uncertain terms, he is not only intelligent but articulate, able to work out and present in its entirety what is meant by acting and how people stressfully act and furthermore, he happens to be upright, a man of truth not only conversant in spiritual matters but he has illuminated what the Buddha and Jesus said in a way no man has ever done before or now?
Jesus appeared to hint about a future consciousness change:
"I have yet many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth; for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak, and he will declare to you the things that are to come.”
Addendum: Why The Change Benefited Everyone:
Because the consciousness change benefited me, it must also benefit all those who changed in some way and the fact that everyone changed swiftly (though they still acted) reflects the indisputable or undeniable advantage it conferred, otherwise why change and why change so hastily?

Even if ordinary people have never and may never exit acting, they all benefited as a result of the change in 1977 and in recent years by experiencing a reduction the intensity of their acting and a measure of sobriety. It is IMPOSSIBLE that ordinary people could attain the same release of their awareness through goodwill that I experience today because they never abandoned acting but they will ALL have experienced some amelioration from previous levels of stress.

If everyone was happy before the 1977 change, how come everyone turned nasty, were seized to snarl just on sight of me who was not provocative but quietly being my effortlessly calm, changed self in 1978? The fact that everyone I met turned violently nasty after I became totally relaxed in 1978, including those who acted as if they were happy and well adjusted, those who professed to be good, children and pretty girls indicates they were ALL not happy, only FAKING they were happy and well adjusted and when they saw a truly effortlessly happy man, they were ALL jolted convulsively out of their previous lifelong suffering somnolence to tear at their own mental shackles they were previously unaware existed.

I further observed that despite scowling murderously, many of these same people were immediately seized irrepressibly to burst into delighted animated laughter and uninhibited greetings of fellow goats who happened to be around. This suggests they ALL felt better as if liberated after involuntarily displaying their scowling aggression; something extraordinary because nobody feels better after being nasty. This indicates that this display of aggression by others on seeing me is fundamentally different from ALL the past displays of aggression: it brought TRUE joy in their being. I saw that people on seeing me, acted as if they had just seen a ghost or a Martian and were going about with ‘greater sense of purpose’, greater aggression and spontaneity after turning nasty.

THE AGGRESSION THAT PEOPLE DISPLAYED WHEN THEY SAW ME RELAXED IN 1978 WAS FUNDAMENTALLY DIFFERENT FROM THE AGGRESSION THEY DISPLAYED ALL THEIR LIVES PREVIOUSLY IN THAT IT WAS LIBERATING, EXHILIRATING, BROUGHT JOY IN THEM, EVEN THOUGH THEY CONTINUED TO ACT AFTER THAT AND EVEN TODAY. THE FACT THAT AFTER THE CONSCIOUSNESS SHACKLES WERE REMOVED FOR THEM IN 1978 PERMITTING THEM TO EXIT ACTING AND THEY HAVE NEVER GIVEN UP THEIR URGE TO MANIPULATE EACH OTHER BY ACTING EVEN TILL THESE DAYS, EVEN THOSE WHO ARE SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD CONTINUE TO ACT TODAY AFTER THEY HAVE BEEN TOLD WHILST I EXITED ACTING THREE TIMES SUGGEST THERE IS A FUNDAMENTAL DIFFERENCE IN MY NATURE COMPARED TO EVERYONE ELSE. AS SIMPLE AS BEING TRUTHFUL AND GOOD, ‘LETTING YOUR YES BE YES ONLY’ MAY APPEAR TO ORDINARY PEOPLE, IT IS BEYOND THEIR KEN TO BE TRULY TRUTHFUL & GOOD. THEY MUST ALWAYS SAY OR DO MORE, THEY MUST IMPRESS OTHERS HOW GOOD THEY ARE, THEY MUST BE DEMONSTRATIVELY, EMOTIONALLY NICE, NOT PASSIVELY GOOD.

Therefore, the reasons why the consciousness change in 1977 benefited everyone are:
1) People do not change themselves unless change benefits them and because everyone changed swiftly by knock on effect, the incentive or benefit for change must be irresistible, like a person forced to live in a putrid lavatory given a glimpse of a world outside without foul smells previously unknown to them.
2) I experience a wonderful release from suffering as a result of the change and even though people have not exited acting like I did, they will still have experienced an appreciably amelioration of their previous suffering by turning down the volume and pace of their acting.
3) The uniformly hate filled agitated reactions I got everywhere, even by people who were supposedly good or happy when they saw me in my serene state suggests that they were held in suffering, not happy and the sight of me stirred uncontrollable violence. Nowadays I am passive, not violent. Anyone with violence in them that can be stirred cannot be truly happy but faking so. Hence the change benefited everyone.
4) There are many anecdotal stories that the rich and famous were in truth tormented to the point of suicide and subsequent to 1977 I could see through the ways people behaved prior to 1977 to see that they were all suffering, no one was genuinely happy but they were all putting on brave faces.
Why I Am Also The Trigger Of Recent Changes:
There have been further, unmistakable consciousness changes in EVERYONE over the past few years even though they still act. It did not strike me immediately but I arrived at this conclusion gradually long after everyone again began when it became increasingly obvious to me that in tandem with permanent positive changes I felt in me, people’s appearances and behavior everywhere too were also changing positively.

Again, I may be or am the trigger behind this. Why is that?

Firstly, there have been further unmistakable changes in myself over the past years (about 1997 onwards) as a result of my improving perception of how the considerable stress I experienced daily is related to my own & others’ behavior impacting on me and how these behaviors were not natural but exaggerated and faked. I began to see that people were acting, not being themselves, they were nice, not good and how niceness was sugar laced poison. I gradually refined and defined for myself and those who received my E Mails what acting is and how people acted until finally I could see that not just some people were acting but everyone was acting, not for some of the time but all the time and how acting was ALWAYS driven by emotions and stress to forcefully go against oneself to exaggerate and fake whatever and how one says, does, thinks and perceives in manner that has to be forcefully controlled (in order not to kill oneself immediately) creating insoluble stress, restlessness, violent urges and depression in the name of deceiving, pleasing, impressing, intimidating and dominating others. As a result of my insights which I mindfully and persistently put into clearly comprehending practice I gradually stopped acting to experience a drastic reduction in intrinsic stress, restlessness, doubt and uncertainty, mad and violent impulses and depression. These changes in me is visible to those who interact with me and must have rubbed off partially on them and it also must have influenced those who read my innumerable E Mails.

It did not occur to me immediately but it gradually dawned on me with increasing certainty after repeated verifications that visible by their appearances and behavior, everyone (not just some) was again changing just as they did after 1977, not just locally but globally, even though they still continue to act. (I berated my brother for acting but gradually I could see that though he was still acting, there were perceptibly changes in his appearance and behavior)

Those who have read what I wrote over the years may acknowledge that they have changed as a result of reading what I wrote. In that case, I am DIRECTLY responsible for causing their change. The changes that are evident to themselves will also be reflected in their appearances and how they comport themselves to those who interact with them and therefore influence them indirectly.

Hence, even though the vast majority of people have not seen me, have not read what I have said, by contagion effect as after 1977, they have all been transformed permanently to become more subdued, more direct today, even though they still act and may have no clue why they are changing because they are changing because everyone around has changed in a way that would be clearly advantageous to them, so they too changed themselves hastily.

Hence, today as in 1977 I was the trigger of changes that have spread around the world because I changed myself unmistakably first, I then influenced others by what I wrote about acting and many other things and by knock on or contagion effect of people changed by me changing others.


How Babble Can Lead To Intense Pretense:
You must have heard children suddenly breaking out into loud, explosive meaningless self addressed babble thus, “Arr Gaa Gaa Gaa Harr! Arr, Arr, Arr Gahhh! Arr, Arr, Arr Gahh!” endlessly until they regain a sense of control. Babbling is essentially similar in nature to adult forceful grunts, spitting and coughs. It is a form of involuntary, unintended or mad acting.

Such babble is usually if not always involuntary, driven by warping mental tension and is a form of lashing out. Not only are they driven involuntarily by mad, violent internal urges, they are not harmless but instaed whenever children break out into forceful babble, they are reinforcing that mad urge to repeat in the future that in time may become more easily aroused and intense.
The pathology of babbling may be more complex than indifferent self absorbed observers think. For instance, they may be initially driven by uncontrollable impulse to lash out to babble but they then may become aware that what they are doing is shameful loss of control, what they babble is nonsense and they then start to pretend (to themselves and others) that they did not break out into nonsensical babble unintentionally but they did it intentionally to practice vocalization and therefore have graduated to fostering a charade by defiantly continuing to babble longer than the urge has lasted to insist they intended it and it isn’t nonsense. They do not realize they are foolishly cultivating their ability to pretend so that in future it will be more difficult and finally even impossible for them to admit the truth of what they do eg they broke out in babble because they lost control and their babble is indeed pure nonsense. To believe what is false (that you babbled to practice vocalization, their babble is not nonsense) is true is dicing with madness when one day you will finally truly believe what you forced yourself to falsely believe becomes madly true.

If you asked any child whether his babble is nonsense or whether he suffered momentary madness and he is likely to deny and insist it is not nonsense, he did not lose control of himself to babble but instead he will find some excuse like he is ‘enjoying himself’ or practicing vocalization.
Many people do not realize they are cultivating pretense all the time and how this will redound on them even with madness later.

They smile when someone say something sarcastic or hurt them to pretend they are happy or unperturbed when they are hurt. (Ask them if they are hurt and often if not always they will insist ‘no worries!’)

They pretend to look at something eg they pick up a magazine to pretend they did not see someone.

They pretend to be diligently working as soon as they spy their boss enter.

They pretend to be friendly and anxiously concerned by smiling and speaking in an anxious manner when they do not feel anything.

Every time anyone pretends something, he is not just rendering an inconsequential act but reinforcing his forceful pretense and perfecting his art of pretense so that his pretense will gradually become more intense, more irresistible and more real. In time to come, he may lose control of his pretense, eg pretending when there is no need to stress himself to pretend or because he forces himself to believe what he pretended is not pretended, his reality testing may be ultimately stretched to break point and they finally truly believe what they pretended so well so often for so long is really true.

Insomnia & Narcolepsy Are Bad Omens

Insomnia & Narcolepsy Are Bad Omens:
The Buddha said for one whose release of awareness through goodwill has been well undertaken, he (amongst other things) sleeps and wakes easily and he is headed for heaven if not penetrating higher. Hence, if you have difficulty going to sleep or you struggle to wake up, it is, according to the Buddha, an indication that your awareness is not well released through goodwill and you may not be headed for heaven but the opposite, eternal punishment because at the close of the Age you either go to heaven or eternal punishment.
Difficulty sleeping or insomnia is a very common problem (hence many people are not going to heaven). Even when ordinary people think they sleep or wake well, they may be exaggerating, in keeping with their acting persona because it still takes a while before they fall asleep and their sleep may be shallow and fitful, punctuated by nightmares. What they call sleeping well may be sleeping badly by the Buddha’s standard.
It is not possible for a Buddha to sleep well on some days and badly on others because as he said, ALWAYS he sleeps in ease. Hence, even if you have difficulty sleeping on some days, it is a reflection that your awareness is compromised and not released through well-established goodwill.
In the same way, ordinary people may notice that they have on occasions struggled to wake up, falling back helplessly into sleep or they wake up with an unpleasant state of their minds. There are people who are difficult to arouse, you have to shout, shake and slap them (all sinful conduct) to wake them up and even then they may only grunt and continue sleeping regardless.
I need little sleep nowadays and have little difficulty getting to sleep nowadays because there are no emotions, exciting or disturbing thoughts that detain my mind and I wake easily and often I prefer to get up earlier to meditate. Nowadays I find the calm clarity that rapidly arises with meditation clearly superior to the twilight state of lying half awake supine.
Anyone who acts (ordinary people) must have difficulty getting to sleep and awakening because he is constantly churning up forceful stress, conflict and restlessness by going against himself to act. Anyone who is stressed and restlessness must have difficulty getting to sleep. If you have to wake up daily to face a mind warping stressful life of acting and being nice to everyone, it is not surprising if you are reluctant to get up.
Metta Sutta: Good Will
The Buddha: "Monks, for one whose release of awareness through good will is cultivated, consolidated and well-undertaken, eleven benefits can be expected.
"One sleeps easily, wakes easily, dreams no evil dreams. One is dear to human beings & non-human beings. The devas (angels) protect one. Fire, poison or weapons cannot touch one. One's mind gains concentration quickly. One's complexion is bright. One dies unconfused and -- if penetrating no higher -- is headed for the Brahma worlds (heaven).
"Always he sleeps in ease:
the Brahmin totally unbound,
who doesn't adhere to sensual pleasures,
who's without acquisitions & cooled.
Having cut all ties & subdued fear in the heart,
calmed, he sleeps in ease, having reached peace
of awareness."

Why Usurpers May Not Be Possible

Why Usurpers May Not Be Possible:
Is it possible for someone ordinary out of this world arising spontaneously to become the Buddha or Jesus or assume their roles in lieu of them? According to the Buddha, he is the One Who Thus Comes, a divine being of immeasurable merit destined to be born for his last time into this world as the first in this eon to become enlightened and thereafter lead those capable of enlightenment out of this world of ignorance and suffering to make an end forever to suffering and becoming.
Jesus was sent by his Father with a message for this world. It is not possible for someone of this world to accidentally become the Son of man, thereby usurping him.
Similarly, the counselor is a person who will come because Jesus said he will convince the world regarding sin, righteousness and judgment and no Spirit residing only in the minds of Christians can convince the rest of the world, apart from the high improbablity Christians to this day have heard a male voice in their heads convincing them of sin, righteousness and judgment.
If it is possible for an ordinary person, another person other than the counselor himself transforming himself accidentally or by evolution to assume the counselor’s position or speak like him, then what Jesus said would be uncertain, capable of turning out ultimately untrue. If however there is no possibility any other person apart from the counselor himself can assume the role Jesus described, then what Jesus said is NEVER in danger of turning out false.
If there is a possibility of an usurper, another person other than the counselor Jesus referred to assuming that role by chance or by ‘evolution’ of human consciousness, then what Jesus said regarding the counselor would be at risk of turning out false. If there are no possibilities that another person could accidentally or otherwise fulfill or usurp the counselor’s role, then Jesus spoke the truth. Hence it is IMPOSSIBLE for another person other than the counselor to assume that designated role.
It may not be possible for any or another person to spontaneously or accidentally break down his and the same mental shackles that previously held beings in this world in tormenting mandatory acting and for that same person to then again wake up and finally put an end to his own acting and trigger a consciousness change that affects all other beings.
The fact (for one who discerns) that people everywhere including those who believe they are quite good, those who are even at the highest echelons of their religions, those who are professional counselors, those who are scientists or philosophers supposedly dedicated to truth, those who are supposed to heal those who are mentally sick nevertheless continue to act even to this day, even as they counsel emancipation from suffering for others, cannot see how they stress themselves and others by their forceful exaggerated and faked conduct suggests that is highly improbable or impossible that an ordinary person from this world could spontaneously, accidentally stumble on the breaking of mental shackles in his mind and then proceeded to cease acting and define precisely exactly how ordinary people are sinful and stressful. He demonstrates unflatteringly in a rational manner how ordinary people do not indulge occasionally in lies but the manner and what they all say, do, think and perceive are faked or exaggerated.
If it was possible for ordinary people to spontaneously usurp, then one ordinary person may be the first to change his consciousness truggering others to follow suit whilst out of the billions, surely another will then arise who will be the first to stop acting and surely again out of the billions of beings, another or more than a few will come to the realization or work out for themselves how they and everyone act and how that is the root of their sufferings. How come till this day, there is no else in the world who will take the bold step of announcing publicly that they have discovered that everyone in this world is an actor, a serial exaggerator and fake and how this is the infallible taproot of sin and stress, leads inexorably to restlessness, mania, violence and depression?
THROUGHOUT THE HISTORY OF MANKIND AND EVEN TODAY, IS THERE ANYBODY WHO SAID OR WILL SAY THINGS I SAY? IS IT BECAUSE WHAT I SAY IS NONSENSE OR MIGHT IT BE THE TRUTH THAT THE WORLD CANNOT ACCEPT BECAUSE IT NEITHER SEES HIM NOR KNOW HIM? IS IT MERELY A SERIES OF FORTUITOUS CIRCUMSTANCES THAT THE PERSON WHO IN TRUTH CAUSED AN IRREFUTABLE LIBERATING CONSCIOUSNESS CHANGE THAT THEN SWEPT AROUND THE WORLD AFTER 1977 (THAT THE WORLD SEEMS AMNESIC OR AVERSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE, INCURIOUS TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENED) IS ALSO ARTICULATE, DISCERNING, NOT AN IDIOT, WHO SPEAKS OF THINGS NO MAN HAS EVER SPOKEN ABOUT BEFORE OR DARE SPEAK ABOUT AND WHAT HE SAYS OR SETS EXAMPLE MAY STILL BE CAUSING CONSCIOUSNESS CHANGES SWEEPING AROUND THE WORLD?
CAN YOU NOT SMILE, NOT STRETCH YOUR SYLLABLES, NOT SAY ‘QUICK! QUICK! QUICK!’ BUT JUST A MINDFUL ‘QUICK’? HOW COME THROUGH OUT HISTORY AND EVEN TODAY, WITH CONSCIOUSNESS PARAMETERS NOW PERMIT, PEOPLE STILL KEEP SMILING, STRETCHING THEIR SYLLABLES AND SAY MINDLESSLY, ‘QUICK! QUICK! QUICK!” NOT REALIZING SUCH BEHAVIOR OVER WHICH THEY CAN EXERCISE CHOICE ARE LINKED INFALLIBLY TO THEIR STRESS, RESTLESSNESS, MAD, VIOLENT IMPULSES AND DEPRESSION, HARMS OTHERS NOT BENEFIT THEM AND IS THEREFORE SINFUL? EVEN AFTER THEY HAVE BEEN TOLD, PEOPLE WHO CALL THEMSELVES GOOD CANNOT RESIST SMILING, STRETCHING THEIR SYLLABLES AND MINDLESSLY SAYING EMPHATICALLY “YA, YA, YA”, WHAT MORE THAT THEY SHOULD SPONTANEOUSLY COME TO AN AWARENESS AND DELINEATE PRECISELY WHAT THEIR PREDICAMENTS ARE.
Why I Think I Am Unique:
As clear as day is distinguishable from night, I am (in my unemotional, impartial perception) today an unmistakably very different, permanently changed person compared to who I was prior to 1977 in terms of being now effortlessly free from stress, restlessness, conflict, silly thoughts, violent impulses and vulnerability to depression together with a concomitant reduction of defilements (lust, greed, anger, ill will, pride, jealousy, envy, presumption).
As clear as day is distinguishable from night, I detected after repeated objective observations that everyone in the world, including animals too have changed in countenance and behavior in the aftermath of the (momentous) conscious change in 1977 and even today, their appearance and behavior indicate ongoing change that is not sequential aging change but an out of the ordinary behavioral and consciousness change.
The person I am today, the effortless, permanent release from mental suffering that I now experience is unthinkable, cannot be countenanced in the consciousness circumstances before 1977 and impossible however one might strive to will himself or control without there having occurred a revolutionary consciousness change. It was as if there was a quantum jump in the consciousness to a different level hitherto unknown to beings then.
Immediately after I had established with confidence that I was not kidding myself, I had truly changed in 1977, I said to myself joyously objectively without conceit that what I have just done or discovered or stumbled upon was unique, marvelous, how come nobody ever discovered it, is there a scientific basis for it? In my enthusiasm, I tried to make others similarly change, not realizing then it was unnecessary because everyone would as a matter of course change by themselves later (although they still stubbornly act till this day, even when non acting is incomparably blissful).
Barely a year after I changed in 1977 it was as if a bottom fell out of me or a ripening fruit finally fell when I became involuntarily calm as if incapable of suffering. It was as if I had woken from a dream, things I previously held as dear no longer applied, emotions that were previously intense became deflated and I now did or said things effortlessly as if walking on air, I did not believe anymore in the things people around me believed whilst at the same time life became very difficult or awkward because it was if people found it difficult, even violently agitating to relate to me. I had wondered then why it had to happen to me; it did not seem to happen to anyone else who all seemed to blend in, what is the difference in me, why couldn’t I be ANONYMOUS like others?
A similar experience in milder form happened to me about 5 years later in Sydney when I again became involuntarily relaxed as if incapable of worries or suffering but it again made relating to others difficult because I no longer shared their delusions, could no longer go along with life as they were and there was awkwardness relating to others and they seem to find it uncomfortable relating to me or find the changed effortless manner I spoke or did things uncomfortable to relate to (they became flustered, though not as much as in 1978). I again wondered why I couldn’t be like others, anonymous. Why do these involuntary stress-free states keep arising in me to make me feel like a pariah hampering social relationships? Am I forever condemned to be ambushed by such states that though pleasant, made interactions with others almost impossible? Why can’t I be like the rest?
If I had stumbled upon a revolutionary consciousness change in 1977 by accident, someone else could have done it, how come nobody else ‘dropped out’ or became totally, involuntarily, emotionlessly calm barely a year after they changed, whereas I did? Whereas I involuntarily came to a blissful effortless state of being incapable of suffering to do or say things seemingly without requiring effort barely one year later (and recurred five years later), as far as I can tell, nobody else experienced a similar end point. This indicates that there may be a fundamental difference in my nature compared with others.
It would be another sheer coincidence that subsequently I was again the first to discover that everyone in this world was not being themselves but they were all falsely acting, I worked out precisely the many ways people acted and how it is linked intimately with their stress, restlessness, violent impulses and depression. I discovered it is possible to exist in an incomparably saner and clearly thinking way by not acting. Why is it that after the consciousness change in 1977 made it possible to stop acting, no one else in this whole wide world including top religious figures, gurus and those who meditate regularly in search of peace came to a spontaneous realization that the manners they conducted themselves in speech and action sinfully and stressfully acted or contrived and to then blissfully put a stop to their acting? How come it has never dawned on any of the many intelligent and religious people in this world not only today but throughout history that they are stressfully, falsely smiling and stretching their syllables all the time and how their insoluble stresses are indelibly linked to their somnolent smiling and stretching of syllables? If throughout long history and even today, people everywhere have always smiled and stretched their syllables (faked), is it possible that now somewhere somehow an ordinary person would arise who would spontaneously put a stop to his smiling and stretched syllables or acting? It may be possible but highly unlikely. Instead, the person who first draws attention to these somnolent stressful activities at the root of insoluble distress may have to be somehow unique in his insightfulness or ability to see the truth. Ordinary people, including those who are supposed to be objective intellectuals are all detained by their strong emotions that they hold dear, are driven by their often camouflaged ill will even malice and therefore cannot see they are acting and put an end to it.
It would be yet another sheer coincidence that the person who first changed the consciousness of the world, who it appears alone experienced a state of being effortlessly incapable of suffering, who decades down the line became the first to have insight into the nature of ubiquitous acting that is at the source of all stress (existence does not have to be stressful but acting is always stressful) of all beings is not only articulate about matters regarding acting but interprets the Buddhist and Christian scriptures in a novel way that seem to have eluded dedicated scholars all these centuries.
In the history of mankind many, including professional scholars have read both the Buddhist and Christian scriptures but is there anybody who has interpreted what Jesus and the Buddha said the way I have done?
I have pointed out that Jesus said let your yes be yes only, anything more comes from evil, not good and demonstrated how people can never let their yes be yes only but they always (helplessly, forcefully) say or do more. Jesus spoke of eternal habitations, suggesting there is reincarnation, the close of the Age and the Age to come that corresponds well with what the Buddha said of many eons of cosmic expansions and contractions. I have pointed out that the Buddha said there is the Great Brahma, the All Powerful One, Father of all that is and He has two sons which may correspond to the Christian Holy Trinity of Father, Son and Holy Spirit.
Amongst many things I have pointed out that have escaped the attention of scholars barking up the wrong tree of exaltation is how the Buddha never speaks whilst he eats, he never eats whilst he speaks and although so many studious scholars scrutinizing scriptures for kernels of truth failed to notice (not by accident but because they are pretentious, they see the unimportant in the important), it may be a crucial truth: you cannot mindfully perform more than one task at one time but you will then be stressfully acting. People everywhere eat and talk whilst they watch TV and that is the root to their insoluble stress. As simple as it may be, it may be impossible for (greedy) ordinary people to do one thing at a time. They talk whilst they walk; stockbrokers talk into two or more phones whilst they scan monitors and gesticulate to place orders.
Whenever the Buddha is invited to a meal, he acquiesces by remaining silent, something impossible for an ordinary person to do because being nice guys, they would be moved to smile and say ‘thank you’. The Buddha spoke of the three lower fetters (self identity views, uncertainty & doubting, faith in rites and precepts) that led to states of woe. Is there any professional scholar who has elucidated what he meant and how ordinary people are afflicted by them? I have demonstrated how the seven factors of awakening (mindfulness, analysis of qualities, persistence, rapture, serenity, concentration and equanimity) are not idle theories but they must apply whenever a person transforms himself from suffering ignorance (eg stretching syllables, smiling) to blissful awakening (not stretching, not smiling)
How come no doctor or psychiatrist has clearly defined what emotions are and how they are different from passive feelings? They all tell you it is good to be emotional when all emotions are forceful, harmful and pummel the mind leading to mind failure and madness later.
If it was mere coincidence, then considering the billions who exist, there should statistically have been one person who will perhaps cause the initial consciousness change, another or many others who will then spontaneously stop their evil and stressful acting on their own and somebody else will then be the first to enunciate what acting is all about and how it is intimately linked to stress leading to restlessness, madness and depression, yet others who will interpret what Jesus and the Buddha said in a revolutionary or unique way that is rational.
Yet it appears nobody else in this whole wide world of billions who is publicly visible has stopped his stressful, harmful acting, even those who profess to be quite good, quite intelligent are somnolently still acting, even after they have been repeatedly told what is acting, even when not acting is an incomparably uplifting way to exist. What more that they or those who have never been told what is acting is about should spontaneously change their own consciousness and then come to an awakening they are acting and put a stop to it.
Why is this so? It may be as Jesus said, because the world cannot receive the truth (that they act, so how can they stop acting?), for they neither see truth (that they act) nor knows the truth (that they act). What they call truth are forcefully fabricated niceties that they don’t quite mean to get along or get what they want.

Jesus: "If you love me, you will keep my commandments. And I will pray the Father, and he will give you another Counselor (like Jesus was a counselor, a person who came), to be with you for ever, even the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him; you know him, for he dwells with you, and will be in you. (Because beings in this world cannot receive truth, neither sees nor knows truth, there is NO chance a being from this world will spontaneously morph to usurp the counselor’s role)
"These things I have spoken to you, while I am still with you. But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you.
But when the Counselor comes (he will not come immediately), whom I shall send to you from the Father, even the Spirit of truth, who proceeds from the Father, he (a male) will bear witness to me; and you also are witnesses, because you have been with me from the beginning.
But because I have said these things to you, sorrow has filled your hearts. Nevertheless I tell you the truth: it is to your advantage that I go away, for if I do not go away, the Counselor will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you. (The counselor must bring you advantage. Although men pine for material gains and sensual delights, what greater advantage, short of eternal heavenly life, can there be than a lifting of the previously tormenting dark consciousness shroud and uncertainty?)
And when he comes, he will convince the world concerning sin and righteousness (goodness) and judgment: concerning sin, because they do not believe in me; concerning righteousness, because I go to the Father, and you will see me no more; concerning judgment, because the ruler of this world is judged. (If what I say does not convince people of sin, righteousness and judgment, what else said can convince?)
"I have yet many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. (Perhaps a consciousness change that the counselor will initiate would be enabling) When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth; for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak (He appears to speak alone. If the counselor knows everything, he will not need to hear) and he will declare to you the things that are to come. He will glorify me, for he will take what is mine and declare it to you (if the church and Christians have glorified Jesus, there would be no need for a counselor to do so, if what the counselor said is identical to the church, he is superfluous). All that the Father has is mine; therefore I said that he will take what is mine and declare it to you (if the church has taken what is Jesus’ and declared it to you, there would not be need for a counselor).

IT MAY NOT MATTER TO PINPOINT WHO THE COUNSELOR IS, IT MAY OR WILL BE FATAL TO DO SO BECAUSE OF THE MURDEROUS NATURE OF THIS JEALOUS, MALICIOUS WORLD WHERE ONLY A FEW SINNERS WILL SWALLOW THEIR PRIDE AND REFORM THEMSELVES. IF THEY WILL HATE JESUS, THEY WILL FLOG YOU IN THE SYNAGOGUES, THEY WILL DO THE SAME TO THE COUNSELOR, ESPECIALLY IF HE SPEAKS THE TRUTH THEY HATE TO HEAR AND DOES NOT SUFFER LIKE THEM, THEIR POWERS OR HOLD ON PEOPLE ARE UNDER THREAT, THEIR CHICANERY IS EXPOSED. MALICIOUS PEOPLE ARE DRIVEN BY MURDEROUS IMPULSES THEY DO NOT CONTROL. JESUS COULD HAVE SAID MORE TO PINPOINT THE COUNSELOR BUT THE FACT HE DID NOT AND THE PASSAGES WERE SCATTERED AND ONLY IN JOHN’S GOSPEL SUGGEST THE DIVINE INTENTION TO BE NOT SO SPECIFIC, PERHAPS FOR THE COUNSELOR’S PROTECTION.
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What Enlightenment Is About:
The Buddha:
"Whatever a monk keeps pursuing with his thinking & pondering, that becomes the inclination of his awareness. If a monk keeps pursuing thinking imbued with renunciation, abandoning thinking imbued with sensuality, his mind is bent by that thinking imbued with renunciation. If a monk keeps pursuing thinking imbued with non-ill will, abandoning thinking imbued with ill will, his mind is bent by that thinking imbued with non-ill will. If a monk keeps pursuing thinking imbued with harmlessness, abandoning thinking imbued with harmfulness, his mind is bent by that thinking imbued with harmlessness. (What the Buddha is saying is that in order to achieve spiritual progress, hence release from suffering, you must persist on pondering about renunciation, non sensuality and harmlessness. The trouble with most people is that they are complacent, distracted by worldly concerns, do not devote themselves to spiritual matters not realizing that as a result they will burn in hell and head for eternal wandering)
"Just as in the last month of the hot season, when all the crops have been gathered into the village (when the monk has washed his hands off the ways of sinful people), a cowherd would look after his cows: While resting under the shade of a tree or out in the open, he simply keeps himself mindful of 'those cows.' In the same way, I simply kept myself mindful of 'those mental qualities (renunciation, non sensuality and harmlessness).'
"Unflagging persistence was aroused in me and unmuddled mindfulness established. My body was calm & unaroused, my mind concentrated & single. Quite withdrawn from sensuality, withdrawn from unskillful mental qualities, I entered & remained in the first jhana: rapture & pleasure born from withdrawal, accompanied by directed thought & evaluation (there is still thinking). With the stilling of directed thought & evaluation, I entered & remained in the second jhana: rapture & pleasure born of composure, unification of awareness free from directed thought & evaluation -- internal assurance. With the fading of rapture I remained in equanimity, mindful & alert, and physically sensitive of pleasure. I entered & remained in the third jhana, of which the Noble Ones declare, 'Equanimous & mindful, he has a pleasurable abiding.' With the abandoning of pleasure & pain -- as with the earlier disappearance of elation & distress -- I entered & remained in the fourth jhana: purity of equanimity & mindfulness, neither pleasure nor pain. (pleasure & pain detains a being in the lower realms; there is a higher realm devoid of pleasure & pain)
"When the mind was thus concentrated, purified, bright, unblemished, rid of defilement, pliant, malleable, steady, & attained to imperturbability, I directed it to the knowledge of recollecting my past lives. I recollected my manifold past lives, i.e., one birth, two...five, ten...fifty, a hundred, a thousand, a hundred thousand, many eons of cosmic contraction, many eons of cosmic expansion, many eons of cosmic contraction & expansion: 'There I had such a name, belonged to such a clan, had such an appearance. Such was my food, such my experience of pleasure & pain, such the end of my life. Passing away from that state, I re-arose there. There too I had such a name, belonged to such a clan, had such an appearance. Such was my food, such my experience of pleasure & pain, such the end of my life. Passing away from that state, I re-arose here.' Thus I remembered my manifold past lives in their modes & details.
"This was the first knowledge I attained in the first watch of the night. Ignorance was destroyed; knowledge arose; darkness was destroyed; light arose -- as happens in one who is heedful, ardent, & resolute.
"When the mind was thus concentrated, purified, bright, unblemished, rid of defilement, pliant, malleable, steady, & attained to imperturbability, I directed it to the knowledge of the passing away & reappearance of beings. I saw -- by means of the divine eye, purified & surpassing the human -- beings passing away & re-appearing, and I discerned how they are inferior & superior, beautiful & ugly, fortunate & unfortunate in accordance with their kamma: 'These beings -- who were endowed with bad conduct of body, speech & mind, who reviled the Noble Ones, held wrong views and undertook actions under the influence of wrong views -- with the break-up of the body, after death, have re-appeared in the plane of deprivation, the bad destination, the lower realms, in hell. But these beings -- who were endowed with good conduct of body, speech, & mind, who did not revile the Noble Ones, who held right views and undertook actions under the influence of right views -- with the break-up of the body, after death, have re-appeared in the good destinations, in the heavenly world.' Thus -- by means of the divine eye, purified & surpassing the human -- I saw beings passing away & re-appearing, and I discerned how they are inferior & superior, beautiful & ugly, fortunate & unfortunate in accordance with their kamma.
"This was the second knowledge I attained in the second watch of the night. Ignorance was destroyed; knowledge arose; darkness was destroyed; light arose -- as happens in one who is heedful, ardent, & resolute.
"When the mind was thus concentrated, purified, bright, unblemished, rid of defilement, pliant, malleable, steady, & attained to imperturbability, I directed it to the knowledge of the ending of the mental fermentations. I discerned, as it was actually present, that 'This is stress...This is the origination of stress...This is the cessation of stress...This is the way leading to the cessation of stress...These are fermentations...This is the origination of fermentations...This is the cessation of fermentations...This is the way leading to the cessation of fermentations.' My heart, thus knowing, thus seeing, was released from the fermentation of sensuality, released from the fermentation of becoming, released from the fermentation of ignorance. With release, there was the knowledge, 'Released.' I discerned that 'Birth is ended, the holy life fulfilled, the task done. There is nothing further for this world.'
"This was the third knowledge I attained in the third watch of the night. Ignorance was destroyed; knowledge arose; darkness was destroyed; light arose -- as happens in one who is heedful, ardent, & resolute.
"If he wants, he wields manifold supranormal powers. Having been one he becomes many; having been many he becomes one. He appears. He vanishes. He goes unimpeded through walls, ramparts, and mountains as if through space. He dives in and out of the earth as if it were water. He walks on water without sinking as if it were dry land. Sitting crosslegged he flies through the air like a winged bird. With his hand he touches and strokes even the sun and moon, so mighty and powerful. He exercises influence with his body even as far as the Brahma worlds (heaven). He can witness this for himself whenever there is an opening. (like the internet, when the traffic is not heavy, you can surf)
"If he wants, he hears -- by means of the divine ear-element, purified and surpassing the human -- both kinds of sounds: divine and human, whether near or far. He can witness this for himself whenever there is an opening.
"If he wants, he knows the awareness of other beings, other individuals, having encompassed it with his own awareness. He discerns a mind with passion as a mind with passion, and a mind without passion as a mind without passion. He discerns a mind with aversion as a mind with aversion, and a mind without aversion as a mind without aversion. He discerns a mind with delusion as a mind with delusion, and a mind without delusion as a mind without delusion. He discerns a restricted mind as a restricted mind, and a scattered mind as a scattered mind. He discerns an enlarged mind as an enlarged mind, and an unenlarged mind as an unenlarged mind. He discerns an excelled mind [one that is not at the most excellent level] as an excelled mind, and an unexcelled mind as an unexcelled mind. He discerns a concentrated mind as a concentrated mind, and an unconcentrated mind as an unconcentrated mind. He discerns a released mind as a released mind, and an unreleased mind as an unreleased mind. He can witness this for himself whenever there is an opening.
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"Suppose, monks, that in a forested wilderness there were a large low-lying marsh, in dependence on which there lived a large herd of deer; and a certain man were to appear, not desiring their benefit, not desiring their welfare, not desiring their rest from bondage. He would close off the safe, restful path that led to their rapture, and would open up a false path, set out a male decoy, place a female decoy, and thus the large herd of deer, at a later time, would fall into ruin & disaster. Then suppose that a certain man were to appear to that same large herd of deer, desiring their benefit, desiring their welfare, desiring their rest from bondage. He would open up the safe, restful path that led to their rapture, would close off the false path, take away the male decoy, destroy the female decoy, and thus the large herd of deer, at a later time, would come into growth, increase, & abundance.
"I have given this simile in order to convey a meaning. The meaning is this: 'The large, low-lying marsh' is a term for sensual pleasures. 'The large herd of deer' is a term for beings. 'The man not desiring their benefit, not desiring their welfare, not desiring their rest from bondage' is a term for Mara, the Evil One. 'The false path' is a term for the eightfold wrong path, i.e., wrong view, wrong resolve, wrong speech, wrong action, wrong livelihood, wrong effort, wrong mindfulness, & wrong concentration. 'The male decoy' is a term for passion & delight. 'The female decoy' is a term for ignorance. 'The man desiring their benefit, desiring their welfare, desiring their rest from bondage' is a term for the Tathagata, the Worthy One, the Rightly Self-awakened One. 'The safe, restful path that led to their rapture' is a term for the noble eightfold path, i.e., right view, right resolve, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness, & right concentration.
"So, monks, I have opened up the safe, restful path, closed off the false path, removed the male decoy, destroyed the female. Whatever a teacher should do -- seeking the welfare of his disciples, out of sympathy for them -- that have I done for you. Over there are the roots of trees; over there, empty dwellings. Practice jhana, monks. Don't be heedless. Don't later fall into regret. This is our message to you."
That is what the Blessed One said. Gratified, the monks delighted in the Blessed One's words.
Creating merit for oneself:
The Buddha said a sharing of the dharma or teaching is supreme compared to a sharing of material gift. Hence, if you think what is written is beneficial to you, you can create merit for yourself by sharing it with others you think might benefit instead of keeping it to yourself:
This was said by the Blessed One: "There are these two kinds of gifts: a gift of material things & a gift of the Dhamma. Of the two, this is supreme: a gift of the Dhamma. There are these two kinds of sharing: sharing of material things & sharing of the Dhamma. Of the two, this is supreme: sharing of the Dhamma. There are these two kinds of assistance: assistance with material things & assistance with the Dhamma. Of the two, this is supreme: help with the Dhamma."

True Peace & Happiness:

True Peace & Happiness:
Ordinary people may find that in idle moments, their minds are never quite at rest or at rest for long; they may momentarily force themselves to be calm but helplessly, unpredictably emotional thought trains of a silly, conflicting dingdong, or depraved, irreverent or nasty nature intrude and they are powerless to banish them using his mind as their playground.

Nowadays when my mind is vacant, I am aware that few unwanted, silly or conflicting thoughts occupy my peaceful mind; if they do, they lack force, immediacy or urgency and are pale two dimensional shadows of what in the past were closed up, pain inflicting or hurtful, three dimensional thoughts.
It is through a lack of subjecting my mind to conflict generating forceful acting, not smiling or stretching syllables to please and impress others and constant passive meditation that my mind is nowadays obedient, inclined to stillness, does not scamper about like a restless, wild horse when it has nothing worthwhile to think but it lays down in rest whilst awaiting further instructions and only thinks when the master tells it.
Even when ordinary people have nothing to think, when they cannot think of anything to think, they force themselves or are forced by habit to think (it is an act to force yourself to think of something to think when you run out of things to think), they force themselves to think about this and that, they to go back and think again. Is it any surprise they lose control of their thinking occasionally (to think manically) and permanently in old age when their brains are finally shattered by lifelong forceful abuse?
The wise person learns to stop thinking when there is nothing to think about, not to be greedy about thinking, not to be infatuated with thinking, not to impress others with his thinking, not to think about this and that, not to think over and over again but to let his yes be yes think only. When there is a problem, make a calm, unemotional considered decision and abide by it, don’t keep going back.

ORDINARY PEOPLE DO NOT REALIZE THAT THEIR DEFAULT MENTAL STATE IS NOT STILLNESS BUT RESTLESSNESS. BECAUSE THEIR MINDS ARE RELATIVELY INTACT NOW, THEY CAN OCCASIONALLY FORCE THEMSELVES TO STAY RELATIVELY CALM FOR BRIEF PERIODS AND THIS FOOLS THEM THAT ALL IS WELL, THEY ARE IN COMMAND OF THEIR FACULTIES. THEY ARE ACTUALLY UNCOMFORTABLE WITH STILLNESS, SILENCE AND PEACE. THEY HAVE TO CONSCIOUSLY FORCE THEMSELVES TO REMAIN STILL AND AS SOON AS THEIR ATTENTION STRAYS, THEY RETURN TO FORCEFUL RESTLESSNESS MINDLESSLY. THEY HAVE EMOTIONALLY FORSAKEN PEACE TO EMBRACE FORCE, ACTION AND RESTLESSNESS. TRUE PEACE IS PASSIVE, EFFORTLESS, WITHOUT IMPULSE OR URGE AND CAN ONLY ARISE IN A PERSON WHO IS NOT FORCEFUL IN SPEECH AND ACTION, WHO DOES NOT GO AGAINST HIMSELF FORCEFULLY TO ACT. ACTORS HAVE MANY IMPULSES OR URGES CONSTANTLY DRIVING THEM INTO ACTION THAT THEY CAN ONLY BARELY RESTRAIN FOR BRIEF PERIODS. IN PUBLIC LIFE THEY MAY APPEAR PASSIVE BUT IT IS A FORCED PASSIVITY TO HIDE THEIR STRESS, RESTLESSNESS AND INSECURITY. WHENEVER THEY HAVE VACANT MOMENTS, THEY SOON BECOME RESTLESS AGAIN OR MUST FIND SOMETHING TO DO, FIND SOMETHING TO OCCUPY THEM (SWITCH ON THE TV, HAVE SOME NOISE, MUNCH ON SOMETHING, CALL A FRIEND TO CHAT, ANYTHING BUT SITTING STILL). NOT ONLY ARE THEY UNCOMFORTABLE WITH STILLNESS, THEY HAVE AN AVERSION, AN EMOTIONAL DISLIKE FOR STILLNESS, THEY CAN NEVER LET THEIR YES BE YES ONLY.
THEY DO NOT REALIZE THAT THERE IS A FORCEFUL HARD TO SURMOUNT BARRIER BETWEEN THEM AND TRUE PASSIVE PEACE, STILLNESS, NOT REALIZING THAT WHEN THEY BECOME TORMENTED BY MAD RESTLESSNESS IN THE FUTURE EITHER AS A SITUATIONAL CRISIS OR IN SENILITY, THEIR WAY TO RESTFUL PEACE WILL BE INACCESSIBLE.
THE WISE PERSON LEARNS TO CULTIVATE PEACE, LEARNS TO LOVE PEACE BY STOPPING ACTING, CURTAILING EXPOSURE TO OTHER PEOPLE’S POISONOUS NICENESS (WATCH TV WITH SOUND OFF), LEARNS TO FAMILIARIZE HIMSELF WITH PEACE BY MEDITATING, FORCING HIMSELF TO STAY STILL DESPITE RESTLESS URGES WHILST HE STILL CAN BECAUSE IF HE DOES NOT FORCE HIMSELF TO STAY STILL NOW, IN THE FUTURE, IT MAY NOT BE POSSIBLE FOR HIM TO KEEP STILL EVEN IF HE FORCED HIMSELF. WHEN ACTORS BECOME STRESSED, THEY LASH OUT AT OTHERS (EG GOLF BALLS) AND THEMSELVES. THIS MAY BRING TEMPORARY RELIEF BECAUSE THEIR AGGRESSION IS BRIEFLY ASCENDANT. IT IS ONLY WHEN FORCE IS DIRECTED THROUGH MEDITATION FOCUSSED ON THAT RESTLESSNESS AND DEPRESSION IN THE MIND TO NEUTRALIZE IT THAT COUPLED WITH STOPPING FURTHER SELF ABUSE, WILL THERE EVERLASTING FINALLY PASSIVE RELEASE FROM SUFFERING. YOU HAVE TO FORCEFULLY NEGATE THE ACTIVE RESTLESSNESS AND DEPRESSION IN YOUR MIND BY MEDITATION UNTIL IT IS NEUTRALIZED AND THENCE PASSIVE EFFORTLESS PEACE & CLARITY SETS IN.

Why Ordinary People Cannot Be Happy:

Why Ordinary People Cannot Be Happy:
Because all ordinary people act all the time and acting is forceful going against self needing constant opposing forceful self restraint to maintain a semblance of being even keeled, these stressful forces clash to create conflict; because stress and tension when frequent, become easy to arouse, rapid to rise and hard to shake off, even the resentful forceful attempts to shake off itself creates further stress) they are therefore beseiged by stress and cannot be happy or feel secure.

What people call happiness is unsatisfactory ephemeral emotional excitement or thrill that is associated with gain, associated with getting what they want (eg elected president) that in itself agitates their minds and bodies (though they call this mental and bodily agitation ‘joy’, nobody with such ‘joys’ can command their minds and bodies at will to cease these ‘joys’ so that they can go to sleep or have a rest) and creates a fear of loss (his wealth might taken from him). This ‘joy’ may temporarily distract him from the many sundry woes and insecurities that must beset him but he soon falls anxiously back to reality that despite his undoubted gains he is also the owner of woes and worries. Even such ‘joys’ get increasingly hard to come by with age because he gets increasingly hard to please and what caused him pleasure in the past may become ho hum; what pleasures he enjoys are offset or tempered by disappointments that upset him when some of his many other desires are thwarted.

Further, whenever an actor experiences a joy (eg new car), he is invariably moved to show off, to exaggerate and even fake his joy (eg he is tired but forces himself to fake his joy when another person worth showing off to arrives) thereby creating stress for himself and corrupting the joy that he might otherwise have felt. He might show off his car and feel miffed if others fail or acted as if they fail to notice. He has to stress himself in order to extol in so many words the virtues of his new car to whoever will listen or pretend to listen instead of quietly appreciating his new car himself.

Often actors are not at all happy but beset by stress and feels an irrational urge to fake happiness just to keep up with appearances or because he feels a loss of face if he people were to see his distress. He goes around with a frequent smile, whistles a chirpy tune, sways side to side with a spring in his gait to say “Hey, look how happy am I”. But this willful mind warping denial of stress by acting happy only serves to create more unnecessary stress, shame, conflict and depression that the foolish actor may further defiantly goaded to deny by intensifying his false expressions of happiness thinking he will finally prevail, he will will himself to happiness. Happiness can never be forcefully willed but happiness will only passively embrace the person who stops forcefully goes against himself, who stops falsifying.

All the happiness you see publicly eg on TV, people sporting broad gorgeous smiles or grins, animated rapid twisting and turning of their bodies accompanied arm and leg swinging or shaking are NEVER genuine but cruel fakes to mislead the gullible to emulate or they are rewarded by material success. They are always very stressful to fabricate and are driven by aggression or grit(a nice word for malice) not true happiness.

For one who is discerning, ordinary people speak and behave all the time in impatient, demanding, stabbing and explosive ways that can only ensue because they are not happy but harrassed. Even those who supposedly are gentle, speak in a gentle way are only effortfully acting so, uptight and not truly effortlessly gentle or happy.
Ordinary people can NEVER be happy because they are constant actors constantly churning up stress, conflict, restlessness threatening loss of control, violent impulses and depression. Only those who do not act can be truly happy because they are at peace with themselves and others.

THE DAILY LIVES OF ORDINARY PEOPLE ARE A GRIND, FILLED WITH STRESSFUL DEMANDS OF MEETING & BEING NICE TO OTHERS, JOB AND ROLE DEMANDS; THEY ARE HARASSED, INSECURE AND CANNOT BE HAPPY. THE ANIMATED, SMILEY HAPPINESS THAT PEOPLE EXHIBIT EVERYWHERE IS CRUEL AND STRESSFULLY FAKED IN EXAGGERATED FASHION TO DECEIVE OTHERS. AS ORDINARY PEOPLE GROW OLD, THEY BECOME MORE CYNICAL AND MORE DIFFICULT TO PLEASE AND THE EPISODES OF RELATIVE HAPPINESS BECOME FEWER AND MORE TRANSITORY. WHEN OCCASIONALLY THEY DO EXPERIENCE RELATIVE HAPPINESS, THEY ARE THEN EMOTIONALLY MOVED TO EXAGGERATE, TO ACT OUT THEIR HAPPINESS THAT BECAUSE IT CREATES STRESS AND CONFLICT DETRACT FROM THE VERY HAPPINESS THEY TRY TO FALSELY IMPRESS OTHERS.

Ordinary people fake their happiness, often in an exaggerated manner; they put on a show of being happy because others are also doing so, they want to make others envious or jealous and they want to deceive others that they are successful, mentally well adjusted and coping (when they are struggling).

You do not need to express yourself in anyway if you are happy but you need to express yourself how happy you are to show off and that may irk others who are suffering. In fact you will enjoy your happiness much better if you calmly enjoyed it without any fuss because expressing one’s joy itself is always stressful, one gets carried away finding it hard to stop, expressing happiness creates restlessness, consumes a lot of energy and are acted for the consumption of observers, never real.

How do people act happy? They put on a smile or grin on their faces and in case people have not noticed, they stressfully maintain their smiles for as long as they can bear so that others might better notice. They walk with a pronounced spring in their gait (all springs in the gait, however slight, are acted to impress others), they try to attract attention by singing, humming tunes, they tell or boast to anyone who will listen why they are besides themselves happy. Even this acting, which annoys others and the actor knows deep down is motivated, creates stress and restlessness, so how can he be happy but only faking it and stubbornly maintaining in amidst mounting stress because his big ego will not permit to admit he is prostituting himself.

Because actors are constantly bombarded by stressful acted communications and stimuli everywhere, be it at home, in a public place or an island resort and they foolishly welcome or accept these stressful acting as genuine and beneficial (or they fake as realistically as possible they accept) when they are poisonous, they cannot be happy. How can someone who is constantly seeking external stress (eg watching harsh blasting TV shows and sports, go to discos), accepting external stress (eg idle chatter, gossip) gratefully or as if he is grateful, be happy? Even to act as if he is grateful for the harsh niceness others dish to him causes stress inimical to happiness.

ONLY A MIND THAT IS CALM, CONCENTRATED, PASSIVELY FREED OF FORCEFUL EMOTIONS (ANGER, FEAR, PRIDE, SHAME, MALICE, LUST, GREED), NOT PUSHED & PULLED BY LIKES OR DISLIKES, RESIDES IN THE PRESENT (NOT DAYDREAMING) CAN EXPERIENCE HAPPINESS. ONLY A MIND THAT DOES NOT GO AGAINST ITSELF TO EXHIBIT ITSELF, TO PANDER TO OTHERS’ APPROVAL, THAT RECOGNIZES IN ITS ENTIRETY ALL ACTING AND NICENESSS AND HENCE NOT UPHOLD ACTING & NICENESS FOR HIMSELF OR OTHERS, AVOIDS OR MINIMISES CONTACT WITH ACTING CAN BE TRULY AND EFFORTLESSLY HAPPY.
WHY SHOULD YOUR BODY LISTEN TO YOU?
ORDINARY PEOPLE NEVER TRULY LISTEN TO THEIR MINDS AND BODIES, THEY OVERRULE DISTRESS THEY EXPERIENCE EG THROUGH GREED, THEY FORCE THEMSELVES TO KEEP WATCHING A STRESSFUL TV PROGRAM WHEN THEIR BODIES BESEECH THEM TO STOP BECAUSE THEY WANT TO SLEEP, WHY SHOULD YOUR BODY LISTEN TO YOU WHEN YOU THEN IMPLORE IT TO STOP THINKING, STOPPING BEING RESTLESS BECAUSE YOU WANT TO SLEEP OR REST? (WHEN YOU FORCE YOURSELF TO WATCH TV WHEN YOU ARE TIRED, YOU WILL HAVE TO WATCH IN A FORCED MANNER AND THEREFORE ACTING)
EVERYDAY, YOUR BODY IS TELLING YOU IT IS RESTLESS AND STRESSED, STOP MAKING IT STRESSED, STOP DOING WHAT YOU ARE DOING OR SAYING IN YOUR ACTED WAYS, BUT YOU IGNORE WHAT YOUR BODY IS TELLNG YOU TO KEEP ACTING AND KEEPING ACCEPTING ACTING FROM OTHERS. WHY SHOULD YOUR MIND LISTEN TO YOU TO GIVE YOU PEACE IN A SITUATIONAL CRISIS OR IN OLD AGE WHEN YOU ARE STRICKEN BY UNREMITTING RESTLESSNESS, VIOLENT, MAD IMPULSES AND YOU BEG FOR PEACE AND SANITY? DOES IT NOT SERVE YOU RIGHT YOU NEVER OBEYED YOUR BODY IN THE FIRST PLACE?

Actors Are Very Sensitive People:
Recently a schoolgirl in Japan viciously slashed another to death and Japan was reported to be shocked. The Japanese are not anymore wholesome as a society compared to the rest of humanity but they are a society of actors sinfully acting according to the regimented Japanese way and many people will be shocked when they find out the suffering due to them. Those who are shocked have an unrealistic or pretentious, rosy views about reality ( deluded).
If anybody watched children, they are seldom angels but can be even very nasty. Many speak in a harsh blasting manner and are aggressive, even violent.
All actors and nice people, including children are very sensitive, easily hurt and may see insult where there is none because they are stressed, tensed and ashamed of their behavior to please and impress others. They only act appreciative, grateful, easy going and affable but inside there seethes paranoia, suspiciousness, malice and barely restrained violent impulses ready to explode.
Often nice people think that what they say or do are wonderful when it is poisonously nice, is sarcastic (eg everything you say is correct when you mean not everything you say is correct) and some times it might touch the recipient’s raw nerve and he might blow up.
HOW CAN YOU BE A HAPPY PERSON WHEN YOU ARE TOUCHY, SENSITIVE? THAT ACTORS ARE TOUCHY INDICATES THEY ARE SELDOM IF EVER HAPPY OR HAPPY FOR ANY EXTENDED PERIODS OF TIME.

Why & How Actors Point A Double Barreled Shotgun At Themselves:

Pointing A Double Barreled Shotgun At Oneself:
If you see a shotgun pointed by yourself at yourself with a finger poised nervously on the trigger, would you be alarmed to take urgent effort to rectify the situation?
What ordinary people mesmerized by their own acting fail to realize is that they have a double barrelled shotgun pointed by themselves at themselves with their finger nervously massaging the trigger alternately pulling it, sometimes tantalizingly close to a point that will cause discharge that they cannot be certain where it is and then releasing, in response to provocations by self and others. Unless they put down that gun, one day under instigation, they will finally be goaded to pull the trigger and blow themselves to smithereens.
TO CONSTANTLY FORCEFULLY GO AGAINST ONESELF TO ACT CREATING STRESS AND TENSION IS ONE BARREL OF A SHOTGUN POINTED AT ONESELF.
TO THEN HAVE TO FORCEFULLY, STRESSFULLY, ENDLESSLY RESTRAIN ONESELF TO KEEP ONE’S ACTING WITH THE STRESS AND TENSION IT CONSTANTLY CREATES MANAGEABLE, IS ANOTHER BARREL OF A SHOTGUN POINTED AT ONESELF.
A PERSON WHO DOES NOT ACT (VERY RARE) HAS NO GUN POINTED AT HIMSELF AND THEREFORE DOES NOT EXPERIENCE ALL THE ACCOMPANYING COLD SWEATING OR NERVOUS UNCERTAINTY. IF YOU DID NOT FORCEFULLY, STRESSFULLY GO AGAINST YOURSELF TO ACT, YOU WILL NOT NEED TO CONSTANTLY FORCEFULLY, STRESSFULLY RESTRAIN YOURSELF AND YOU WILL SAVE YOURSELF THE TROUBLE OF HAVING TO FORCE YOURSELF TO ACT AND THEN FORCE YOURSELF TO RESTRAIN YOURSELF PLUS INSOLUBLE CONFLICT BECAUSE BOTH ARE OPPOSING FORCES THAT COLLIDE INSIDE YOU.
ACTORS HAVE NOBODY TO BLAME FOR THEIR TROUBLES EXCEPT THEMSELVES EVEN IF THEY ARE UNAWARE OR REFUSE TO ACCEPT THAT THEIR CONDUCT ARE AT THE ROOT OF THEIR INSOLUBLE TROUBLES.

NOT ONLY DO ACTORS UNNECESSARILY CREATE TWO STRESSFUL FORCES IN THEMSELVES (FORCEFUL ACTING & FORCEFUL RESTRAINT), THESE TWO FORCES CLASH INSIDE THEM CREATING FORCEFUL CONFLICT, TENSION THENCE RESTLESSNESS AND BECAUSE THEY ARE INSOLUBLE (THE PERSON KEEPS ACTING), THEY LEAD TO VIOLENT OR SILLY IMPULSES, DESPAIR AND THENCE DEPRESSION.

JUST AS IT IS IN THE NATURE OF ALL EXPERIENCES TO BECOME MORE SLICK, MORE REALISTIC, MORE INTENSE WITH REPEATED PRACTICE, ACTING TOO PROGRESSES UNWITTINGLY FROM HESITANT HAVING TO FORCE ONESELF TO ACT TO AUTOMATIC, UNCONSCIOUS FORCED BY BLIND EMOTIONS & STRESS TO ACT TO FINALLY BECOME EXPLOSIVE UNSTOPPABLE IMPULSIVE. HENCE AS THE YEARS PASS, THE FORCE (EVEN VIOLENCE) THAT UNDERLIE AN URGE, EVEN IMPULSE TO GO AGAINST ONESELF BECOMES INTENSE, OVERWHELMING SUCH THAT THAT URGE TO GO AGAINST ONESELF BECOMES MALIGNANT, THERE IS A FRIGHTENING URGE TO GO ALL THE WAY, TO GO HELPLESSLY TOTALLY AGAINST ONESELF, TO KILL ONESELF, TO PULL THAT TRIGGER TO THAT CONSTANTLY POINTED SHOTGUN TO GET OVER WITH EVERYTHING.
ACTORS MAY HAVE SERIOUSLY AND FATALLY UNDERESTIMATED THE STRENGTH OF THEIR DANGEROUS FORCE OF GOING AGAINST THEMSELVES IN THEMSELVES. THIS IS BECAUSE THIS FORCE THAT THEY ARE UNAWARE HAS BECOME INDEPENDENT (THEY ARE NOW SLAVES NOT MASTERS OF THIS FORCE), VERY STRONG (EVEN VIOLENT & IMPULSIVE) THROUGH LIFELONG REINFORCING ABUSIVE PRACTICE IS DECEPTIVELY COUNTER BALANCED BY THE EQUALLY TENACIOUS (BUT HARRASSED) FORCE OF SELF PRESERVATION AND IT IS USUALLY NEVER FULLY EXPRESSED BUT ONLY PARTIALLY EXPRESSED AS REQUIRED TO MEET SITUATIONAL DEMANDS. THIS FORCE OF GOING AGAINST SELF IS ONLY FULLY EXPRESSED OCCASIONALLY AS WHEN THE ACTOR BLOWS HIS TOP OR HE IS CALLED UPON TO ACT INTENSELY IN A SUSTAINED MANNER EG A MARITAL CRISIS OR WORK DEMAND (EG PRESENTING A PAPER AT A CONFERENCE).
HENCE, ORDINARILY, THE ACTOR MAY BE LULLED TO BELIEVE HIS FORCEFUL GOING AGAINST HIMSELF IS RELATIVELY BENIGN, NECESSARY TO GET ALONG WHEN IT IS LIKE A SMOULDERING VOLCANO FITFULLY VENTING BUT WITH ENOUGH STORED VIOLENCE OR SELF HATRED TO BLOW ITSELF TO BITS.

When you force yourself to exaggerate or fake what you say or do to stressfully please, impress, deceive, dominate or intimidate others you do not want to harm yourself if that is possible but because this is not possible in the process of forcefully exaggerating and faking, you must constantly ensure you don’t seriously or excessively harm yourself acting (you don’t want to kill yourself, not at least until you have driven yourself to the brink or you have put yourself in such an impossible mess you failed to see earlier that the easiest way out is kill yourself).
Therefore, all acting with speech and deed, which are always forceful and stressful must be counteracted or controlled with counter force to go only so far for appearances sake, to satisfy others or achieve one's selfish aims but to hold off at the brink or when it gets too hot. But it is in the nature of humans that they tend to get carried away with their exuberant acting to outdo themselves or test their acting limits or they are goaded by fellow goats to outdo themselves and thereby run into serious trouble of restraint or loss of control.
When you raise your voice (shout harshly) to intimidate another you have to apply forceful restraint on yourself otherwise your anger may boil over overstressing yourself or you may get yourself killed getting into a fight because the other person is blows up because you overdid your provocation.

THOSE WHO LAMENT (LAMENTING IS ALWAYS EMOTIONALLY, DRAGGING, NOT LETTING ONE’S YES BE YES ONLY AND AN ACT) THAT THERE IS NO JUSTICE IN THIS WORLD ARE ACKNOWLEDGING THEIR BLINDNESS BECAUSE ALL SIN IS CONDUCTED IN AN ACTED (EXAGGERATED OR FAKED WAY) AND WHETHER HE REALIZES HE ACTS OR NOT, SO LONG AS ANYONE ACTS AND THEREFORE SINS, HE HAS A DOUBLE BARRELLED SHOTGUN POINTED AT HIMSELF THAT WILL ULTIMATELY BE DISCHARGED BY HIMSELF, BLOWING HIMSELF TO BITS EITHER BECAUSE HE GETS CARRIED AWAY BY HIS EXCESSES, HIS CUMULATIVE SELF HATE, AGONY AND DEPRESSION BECOME UNBEARABLE, HE IS GOADED BY FELLOW GOATS TO GO BEYOND HIS ACTING LIMITS OR IN OLD AGE, HIS MIND THAT IS WARPED AND DEGRADED BY INCESSANT FORCEFUL ACTING AND RESTRAINT FINALLY CRUMPLES TO BECOME MADLY RESTLESS, MADLY VIOLENT OR IRRATIONAL OR MADLY DEPRESSED. THOSE WHO LAMENT ARE THEMSELVES AT RISK OF A SHOTGUN POINTED BY THEMSELVES AT THEMSELVES THAT WILL ULTIMATELY DISCHARGE BECAUSE IF THEY DO NOT ACT THEMSELVES THEY WILL SEE THAT JUSTICE IS INEVITABLE AND FAR MORE PAINFUL THAN THE EMOTIONAL GAINS OF SIN.

How To Enter By The Narrow Gate:

Devas & Brahmas:
Devas are angels who may be male or female, have radiant bodies that can light up an entire grove, have vision that far surpasses human vision and move faster than the sun and the moon. They may protect humans without their knowing. They have fixed lifespan no more than an eon or age.
Brahmas are loftier beings that may be or are formless; they possess bodies that are ordinarily not visible to angels but can appear amongst them and they may have lifespan that last eons or Ages, the Buddha said he was the Powerful One for seven eons, an eon being enough time for a being to accumulate a pile of skeleton as high as a mountain transmigrating.
What may determine the status of a being is his intrinsic virtue (goodness), discernment (ability to see and live in truth), his concentration (mastery of his mind) and his emancipation (attachment to a false self).
Devas or angels may have a lifespan of one eon or Age but Brahmas may have lifespan of many eons or ages.
How To Enter By The Narrow Gate:
Jesus: "Enter by the narrow gate; for the gate is wide and the way is easy, that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard, that leads to life, and those who find it are few”
No matter how Christians might (foolishly) beg to differ, in order to enter by the narrow gate, they have to endeavor, apply themselves, be consummate in virtue, guard their sense doors, be moderate in food, devoted to wakefulness (not sleep) be endowed with seven qualities; in other words emulate what Ananda said below.
Then Ven. Ananda addressed Mahanama the Sakyan[3]: "There is the case where a disciple of the noble ones is consummate in virtue, guards the doors to his sense faculties, knows moderation in eating, is devoted to wakefulness, is endowed with seven qualities, and obtains at will the four (meditative) jhanas that constitute heightened awareness and a pleasant abiding here.
"And how is the disciple of the noble ones consummate in virtue? He dwells restrained in accordance with the Patimokkha (Not to tell lies, take what is not given, kill or harm any beings, not to indulge in idle chatter, gossip, illicit sex, drink, sleep on high beds, exalt himself sitting on high chairs and sleeping on high beds) He trains himself (puts into frequent practice), seeing danger (leading to suffering now and later) in the slightest faults.
(The person who does not see danger in the slightest fault sees nothing when he subjects himself and others to stress, when he smiles and stretches syllables but the person who sees danger in the slightest fault sees danger to himself when he smiles, stretches his syllables and experiences stress because a stressed person will act and stress others, creating karma)
"And how does the disciple of the noble ones guard the doors to his sense faculties? Seeing a form (object) with his eyes, he doesn't grasp at any ideas, imagination or thoughts by which evil, unskillful qualities such as greed or distress (when you experience distress at the sight of a putrid corpse that is not skillful too. Nowadays I do not recoil when I watch mayhem on TV nor does the smell of excrement overwhelm me) might assail him.
"On hearing a sound with the ear...
"On smelling an aroma with the nose...
"On tasting a flavor with the tongue...
"On feeling a tactile sensation with the body...
"On cognizing an idea with the intellect, he doesn't grasp at any theme or variations by which evil, unskillful qualities such as greed or distress might assail him (thoughts do not excite or repel him, embarrassing thoughts do not cause him to blush or flinch).
"And how does the disciple of the noble ones know moderation in eating? There is the case where the disciple takes his food not playfully, nor for intoxication, nor for putting on bulk, nor for beautification, but simply for the survival & continuance of this body, for ending its afflictions, for the support of the holy life, thinking, 'I will destroy old feelings [of hunger] & not create new feelings [from overeating]. (Never encourage or insist others eat more than they desire. By insisting others eat more than they desire, you are not meritorious but forcing others to go against their wishes creating doubt and uncertainty in them.)
"And how is the disciple devoted to wakefulness? A monk during the day cleanses his mind of any qualities that would detain his mind. During the first watch [dusk to 10 p.m.], he cleanses his mind of defilements. During the second watch [10 p.m. to 2 a.m.], reclining on his right side, he takes up the lion's posture, one foot placed on top of the other, mindful, alert, with his mind set on getting up. During the last watch [2 a.m. to dawn], sitting & pacing back & forth, he cleanses his mind of defiling qualities. (It is because people exhaust themselves acting, even though they may not be directly aware, they have nothing to look forward to, being sunken in sin, that they find solace in sleep, drown their sorrows in sleep. A person who does not act saves prodigious energy, needs less sleep and can direct saved energy to truly beneficial use)
"And how is the disciple of the noble ones endowed with seven qualities?
"(1) He is convinced of the Tathagata's Awakening (Conviction).
"(2) He feels shame at [the thought of engaging in] bodily misconduct, verbal misconduct, mental misconduct. (Conscience)
"(3) He feels concern for [the suffering that results from] bodily, verbal & mental misconduct.
"(4) He has heard much, has retained what he has heard, has stored what he has heard. He has listened often, retained, discussed, accumulated, examined with his mind, and well-penetrated in terms of his views. (Listening)
"(5) He keeps his persistence aroused for abandoning unskillful mental qualities and taking on skillful mental qualities. (Virtue)
"(6) He is mindful, remembering & able to call to mind even things that were done & said long ago.
"(7) He is discerning, endowed with discernment of arising & passing away -- noble, penetrating, leading to the right ending of stress. (Discernment)
"And how does the disciple of the noble ones obtain at will -- without trouble or difficulty -- the four jhanas that constitute heightened awareness and a pleasant abiding?
There is the case where, quite withdrawn from sensuality and unskillful mental qualities, he enters & remains in the first jhana: rapture & pleasure born from withdrawal, accompanied by directed thought & evaluation.
With the stilling of directed thought & evaluation, he enters & remains in the second jhana: rapture & pleasure born of composure, unification of awareness free from directed thought & evaluation -- internal assurance.
With the fading of rapture he remains in equanimity, mindful & alert, and physically sensitive of pleasure. He enters & remains in the third jhana, of which the Noble Ones declare, 'Equanimous & mindful, he has a pleasurable abiding.'
With the abandoning of pleasure & pain -- as with the earlier disappearance of elation & distress -- he enters & remains in the fourth jhana: purity of equanimity & mindfulness, neither pleasure nor pain.
"Now, when a disciple of the noble ones is consummate in virtue, guards the doors to his sense faculties, knows moderation in eating, is devoted to wakefulness (not lazy), is endowed with seven qualities, and obtains at will the four jhanas in this way, he is called a disciple of the noble ones who follows the practice for one in training, whose eggs are unspoiled, who is capable of breaking out, capable of awakening, capable of attaining the supreme rest from the yoke. [4]
"Just as if a hen had eight, ten, or twelve eggs that she covered rightly, warmed rightly, & incubated rightly: Even though this wish did not occur to her -- 'O that my chicks might break through the egg shells and hatch out safely!' -- still it is possible that the chicks would break through and hatch out safely.
"Now when the disciple of the noble ones has arrived at this purity of equanimity & mindfulness, he recollects his manifold past lives, i.e., one birth, two... five, ten... fifty, a hundred, a thousand, a hundred thousand, many eons of cosmic contraction, many eons of cosmic expansion: 'There I had such a name, belonged to such a clan, had such an appearance. Such was my food, such my experience of pleasure & pain, such the end of my life. Passing away from that state, I re-arose there. There too I had such a name, belonged to such a clan, had such an appearance. Such was my food, such my experience of pleasure & pain, such the end of my life. Passing away from that state, I re-arose here.' Thus he recollects his manifold past lives in their modes & details. This is his first breaking out, like that of the hen's chicks from their shells.
"When the disciple of the noble ones has arrived at this purity of equanimity & mindfulness, he sees -- by means of the divine eye, purified & surpassing the human -- beings passing away & re-appearing, and he discerns how they are inferior & superior, beautiful & ugly, fortunate & unfortunate in accordance with their kamma: 'These beings -- who were endowed with bad conduct of body, speech & mind, who reviled noble ones, held wrong views and undertook actions under the influence of wrong views -- with the break-up of the body, after death, have re-appeared in the plane of deprivation, the bad destination, the lower realms, in hell. But these beings -- who were endowed with good conduct of body, speech, & mind, who did not revile noble ones, who held right views and undertook actions under the influence of right views -- with the break-up of the body, after death, have re-appeared in the good destinations, in the heavenly world.' Thus -- by means of the divine eye, purified & surpassing the human -- he sees beings passing away & re-appearing, and he discerns how they are inferior & superior, beautiful & ugly, fortunate & unfortunate in accordance with their kamma. This is his second breaking out, like that of the hen's chicks from their shells.
"When the disciple of the noble ones has arrived at this purity of equanimity & mindfulness, he enters & remains in the fermentation-free awareness-release & discernment-release, having directly known & realized them for himself right in the here & now. [5] This is his third breaking out, like that of the hen's chicks from their shells.
"This, Mahanama, is called a disciple of the noble ones who is consummate in clear-knowing, consummate in conduct, consummate in clear-knowing & conduct. And by the Brahma Sanankumara (one of the two sons of the Powerful One according to the Buddha) this verse was said:
'The noble warrior is the best among people
when judging by clan.
But a person consummate
in clear-knowing & conduct,
is the best of beings
human & divine.'
"This verse was well-sung by the Brahma Sanankumara, not ill-sung; well-said, not ill-said; connected with the goal, not unconnected with the goal. It was endorsed by the Blessed One."

False Or Faked Perception:

False Or Faked Perception:
Just as how and what people say or do can be faked, the way they perceive or sense via sight, sound, touch, smell, taste and intellect is not objective, sacrosanct, inviolable but can be tampered, can be exaggerated or faked to suit that person’s perverted or deluded agenda.
When you see me, hear me speaking or read what I write, you may perceive that I am little different from you, you are just as holy as me, just as discerning, just as good, just as devoted to truth or unpretentious and you may be right or your perception may be false and therefore faked perception. In the same way, when you read what Jesus or the Buddha said, you may perceive they are similar to you, you may be right or your perception may be very wrong.
You may perceive that I am an actor just as you are an actor and you may be right or you may be seriously wrong or your perception is false.
You may perceive you are not an actor just as much as I (or the Buddha or Jesus) am not an actor and you may be right or you may be wrong or your perception is false or deluded.
The reasons why such false or faked perception is hard to exit is that it is accompanied by strong emotions (pride, arrogance) based on self identity views (one of three fetters the Buddha said leads to states of woe), is forceful, never passive and has strong habit energy (the person is already seized and blinded).
All ordinary people (in their own ways) only want to see or hear things they want to see or hear the way they want them to be seen or heard. They refuse to see or hear things they do not want to see or hear. This is not passive preference and refusal but it is again emotional, forceful with strong habit energy. This is not a form of exaggeration but if you only want to see certain things the way you to see it, you are prejudiced and your perception is not true but false and faked.
The noble person is not emotional, is not forceful, he sees everything without aversion or dislike, without coloring them. He sees everything but that does not means he accepts (passively) everything as OK. Would a Buddha be in anyway upset or coy or aroused if he was confronted by a sexy girl cavorting nude before him? It is not because you are very good that you are upset or coy or aroused but it is because you are pretentious, denying your sexual interest, trying to act more wholesome than you truly are that you act (not are) hypocritically outraged. It is because you are a slave to your senses, not a master of your senses that you are provoked to applaud, laugh or decry.
Just as many people stare whenever they see, many peer whenever or intermittently when they see. The reasons why they peer may be because they do not want you to see clearly what and how they see, they want to hide the evil in their eyes, they are trying to shut their eyes to the deceit of what they speak or they don’t want to see you and they are faking they are looking at you, they are forcing themselves reluctantly to half or not fully look at you. This is not exaggerated seeing but a faked way of seeing or a faked way of perception.
Hence people can fake what they perceive, can fake the way or how they perceive.
(If you watch your mind, you may sometimes hear the tunes and voices you’ve heard many times playing in your mind virtually. Sometimes it is annoying when you want to shake off the tune that is getting on your nerves but it refuses to budge. Nowadays, such tunes do not bother me, they do not have the force or reality as in the past and I shake them off easily when they arise. This may not be a blameless condition of existence and you may be presumptuous that the Buddha is similarly afflicted. It may not be a pleasure or blameless but a suffering and a state of being compromised to have tunes or voices using your mind as a virtual playground to haunt you and it may be a sign of future woe when these virtual songs and voices will become permanent or easily, frequently aroused to torment you. Hallucinations of voices, of figures only occur in fabricating minds that habitually fake or exaggerate what they hear and see so intensely such that they have now become their private or mad reality; they indeed hear voices and see things that are not shared by others)
Speaking In A Faked Way:
If you listen to many people speaking, it is very dramatic and rapidly fluctuating in speed and loudness in a ding dong manner. One moment they speak as if they are downcast or pained, almost going to cry and the next moment they are up in the air, delighted or excited and just as suddenly again they are angered or puzzled. This is not an exaggerated way of speaking but a faked way of speaking always accompanied by serious stress and warping of the person’s sanity and perpetrated not without purpose because it is designed to deceive others how charming and socially well adjusted or happy they are (not).
What they speak about is usually also faked or grossly exaggerated but the way they speak is not merely exaggerated but faked because whatever anybody wants to say to others can be said calmly, clearly without drama without losing an ounce of meaning but all the dramatic expressions be they sad, anxious, excited or joyful are completely faked to advertise themselves. You can say calmly, effortlessly ‘I am delighted to pass my exam’ and it will be true without arousing your listener but you can say it with barely restrained, eye popping, arm shaking faked joy to impress others. Because nobody likes to be aware or admit they are liars or fakers, they insist emotionally they truly feel ‘so joyful’. Whatever you might say, anybody who expresses eye popping, shouted, body shaking joy stresses himself in a way that lingers and he stresses his audience who feel obliged to appreciate his histrionics, with karma not merit attached to that ‘joyful’ person.
The Dangers Of Faking So Well:
Not only do actors fake, they put prodigious effort and energy to fake as well or as realistic as they can such that they now cannot see they are faking, they think nothing about faking and they have accepted what they (and inevitably others) fake is true. They might be smug in their immaculate deceit but they do not realize they are making an appointment for themselves with tormenting madness and thence perdition when their deft, tenacious control over their deceit will crumble and they are left with uncontrolled, uncontrollable fakery.
There are many actors or actresses whose smiles are considered by general consensus to be gorgeous. Because all smiles directed at others are faked, a gorgeous smile is a gorgeous fake that is made as real as the actor can possibly make it but he or she does not realize he or she is flirting with madness when what they faked so well so often so long finally escapes their control to become madly rendered.
Similarly actors and actresses on stage fake their tears or rage or tantrums so well that audiences think it is real.
(IF WHAT I SAY DOES NOT CONVINCE YOU OF SIN, RIGHTEOUSNESS AND JUDGMENT, WHAT ELSE THAT WILL BE MORE CLEAR OR SUCCINCT CAN ANYBODY ELSE SAY THAT WILL CONVINCE YOU? I HAVE SPOKEN TO MANY PEOPLE, SOME OF WHOM BY THEIR ATTITUDES IMPLY THEY ARE QUITE GOOD {WHEN THEY ARE ACTUALLY STRESSFULLY NICE} AND THEY GET UPSET BY WHAT I SAY, THEY EVEN COUNTER ACCUSE ME. WHETHER THEIR RESENTMENT IS JUSTIFIED, HARMLESS OR THEY ARE BLIND AND WILL HEAD FOR THE DESTINY OF BLINDNESS, ONLY TIME WILL TELL THEM. IF YOU ARE BLIND, HOW CAN YOU GO TO HEAVEN? THERE ARE NO GUIDE DOGS IN HEAVEN TO LEAD YOU. IF YOU CAN SEE TRUTH, THEN TRUTH CAN BE SHOWN TO YOU AND YOU CAN FOLLOW THE PATH TO GREATER TRUTH. IF THE TRUTH IS SAID TO YOU AND YOU ARE RESENTFUL, HOW CAN YOU GO TO THE PLACE OF TRUTH? IF FLATTERING, COURTEOUS NICETIES ARE SAID TO YOU AND YOU LIKE THEM, YOU ACCEPT THEM AS TRUE WHEN THEY ARE FALSE AND POISONOUS, YOU MAY BE DELUDING YOURSELF IF YOU THINK YOU CAN NEVERTHELESS GO TO HEAVEN. IF YOU CANNOT GO TO HEAVEN, YOU ARE HEADED FOR ETERNAL PUNISHMENT. YOU MAY BE A FOOL IF YOU THINK TRUTH IS EVERYWHERE, PEOPLE LOVE AND WANT TO HEAR THE TRUTH. IT MAY BE THE TRUTH THAT THE LARGE MAJORITY OF PEOPLE ARE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THE TRUTH, HATE AND ARE EVEN ENRAGED BY THE TRUTH. THEY HAVE SWITCHED THEMSELVES OFF, ARE DEAD INSIDE AND ONLY WANT TO HEAR PLATITUDES AND NICETIES AND ONLY FORCEFULLY PRETEND THEY LOVE TO HEAR THE TRUTH. IT IS ACTUALLY TO A PERSON’S GOOD THAT HE AWAKES TO AND STOPS HIS ACTING BECAUSE ACTING IS STRESS AND MADDENING AND NOT ACTING IS THE OPPOSITE. IF YOU UPHOLD YOUR ACTING, YOU SEE NO WRONG WHEN THERE IS PLENTY AND DEADLY WRONG THEN YOU SHALL WANDER ON IN AGONY AND THE NEXT TIME YOU ARE HERE, THERE MAY BE NOBODY TO TELL YOU WHY)
Why The Madman Is Always A Deranged Actor:
Because this is a world of actors, the madman must be a deranged actor whose lifelong going against himself has finally turned uncontrollable or mad and to one who observes mad people with discernment, this is the reality; the madman is always previously an actor.
When a person goes to his workplace with a gun to shoot fellow workers, he is carrying out a forceful (violent) act that goes against himself (he may be shot and he is recklessly destroying his future). He is always an angry or hateful man. Hence, driven by emotions (hate, anger) he forcefully goes against himself to harm himself and others violently in an uncontrolled manner. Where the actor forcefully controls his hatred not because he loves himself or others but for self preservation, the deranged actor has thrown all caution to the wind, he has lost control of his emotions and rationality. It is because he is a forceful man who experiences stress and conflict that he becomes madly violent. It is likely if not invariable that the deranged gunman previously owned and has used a gun regularly to shoot game or targets that may be subconscious surrogates of humans he wanted to vent his hate on and his shooting spree may be the a fulfillment of long held repressed hate for others that he was forced to be nice or submissive to.
If a person is never emotional, truly (not faked) does not forcefully do or say anything to go against himself to deceive, please or impress others but does or say things passively, he does not harbor insoluble conflict and since he is never forceful, how can he go mad or violent? It is because a person is forceful, is emotional, is under serious stress and conflict (confused), who is saying and doing things against himself can snap either in a situational crisis or in old age when his control apparatus finally degenerates.
Because a non actor, reflecting his nature not to fabricate, never stretches his syllables he merely says “Argh” if he wants where all actors get carried away to say “aaAARRrgGHhh”. When he gets mad, out of control, he will then say “aaaaAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHH” like madmen usually do. Hence the madman is always a deranged actor.
ACTORS ARE LIKE CHICKEN IN THE COOP, THEY SEE OTHER CHICKEN JUST LIKE THEM PERIODICALLY BEING TAKEN SQUAWKING TO THE SLAUGHTER BUT THEY CONTINUE PECKING, NOT REALIZING THAT A SIMILAR FATE AWAITS THEM UNLESS THEY GET OUT. THEY SEE FELLOW ACTORS GET MAD BUT THEY THINK MADNESS IS FOR OTHERS. THEIR BOUTS OF MAD THOUGHTS & ACTIVITIES AND VIOLENT TENDENCIES SHOULD WARN THEM ALL IS NOT WELL.
Seeming Exaggeration May Not Be Exaggeration:
Science tells us the sun and moon is not stationary but moving in space at prodigious speed that is faster than the man who can catch four falling arrows at once. How did the Buddha know without supernatural powers that the sun and moon moves very fast? Or is he making a lucky guess?
If you consider that a person can live a century, you would not believe his life comes to an end faster than the man can catch four arrows. But if you consider that after he departs here, he is headed for eternal habitations or punishment as Jesus said, the next time he is back here may be even billions of years later (out of the earth’s 4 billion history, mankind only appear in the last 100,000 years), then faster than the man who can catch 4 falling arrows, a man’s life comes to an end. Still, most fools prefer to secure their future here (house, car, wife) than in heaven. The Buddha said a person has not lived in vain if he has these seven treasures: conviction (in what the Buddha taught), virtue (goodness), conscience (not to commit harm or evil), concern (as to suffering associated with sin), listening (to truth), generosity (charity) and discernment (ability to tell what appears true but is false).
Dhanuggaha Sutta:The Archer
"Monks, suppose there were four strong archers standing in the four directions, and a man saying, 'I will catch & bring down the arrows let fly by these four archers before they have fallen to the ground.' What do you think? Would that be enough to call him a swift man?"
"Even if he were to catch the arrows by one archer that would be enough to call him a swift man."
"Faster than the speed of that man, monks, is the speed of the sun & moon. Faster than the speed of the sun & moon, is the speed of the devas. Faster than the speed of the devas who rush ahead of the sun & moon, the force of one's life span comes to an end. Thus you should train yourselves: 'We will live heedfully.'
Jesus said nobody goes to heaven except through him, but he also said the King will separate the goats from the sheep, not Christians from non Christians. Many parochial Christians will use it as a cudgel to insist that you must emotionally embrace Christ. Jesus may not be as prejudiced, discriminating or self exalting as you, he accepts all sheep whatever their color and rejects goats even if they are Christian goats. Jesus said there will be more joy in heaven for one sinner who repents than the 99 who need no repentance. Why should there be no joy in heaven or Jesus merely because the repentant sinner is a Hindu or Moslem or Buddhist?

The Holy Trinity:

The Holy Trinity:
In the Christian lexicon, the Holy Trinity is the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is a being according to what Jesus said because he (a male) is someone the Father will give you as another counselor and he will come and he will speak.
According to the Buddha, we are all part of an infinitude of beings (capable of finally being Buddhas, though it may take eons) existing in a Brahma palace (tenfold world system) that comprises the earth, the cosmos, the heavens and the hells that is created by and presided over by The Great Brahma who is the Conqueror, the Unconquered, the All-Seeing, All-Powerful, the Sovereign Lord, the Maker, Creator, Chief, Appointer and Ruler, Father of All That Have Been and Shall Be and who according to the Buddha, has two sons. This may correspond to the Holy Trinity because Jesus said the Holy Spirit comes from the Father (just as Jesus comes from the Father).
Is it a mere coincidence that the Buddha calls Great Brahma the Father and he has two sons?

Jesus: And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul; rather fear him (The Father is the appointer) who can destroy both soul and body in hell. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground without your Father's will. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. (everything is significant) Fear not, therefore; you (To be born a man is a very rare privilege according to the Buddha) are of more value than many sparrows. So every one who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven; but whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven.
If what the Holy Spirit speaks is identical to what Jesus spoke then to say that those who spoke against the Son of Man will be forgiven but those who spoke against the Holy Spirit will not be forgiven would not be based on truth but based on partiality, discrimination or idiosyncrasy. If what Jesus and the Holy Spirit spoke are identical, what is the rationale for forgiving blasphemy against Jesus and not the Spirit?
IF THE HOLY SPIRIT IS THE OTHER COUNSELOR THAT JESUS SAID THE FATHER WILL GIVE YOU, WHO WILL COME TO YOUR ADVANTAGE, WHO WILL GLORIFY JESUS BY TAKING FROM IS HIS AND MAKING IT KNOWN TO YOU & WILL CONVINCE THE WORLD REGARDING SIN, RIGHTEOUSNESS AND JUDGMENT (JESUS SAID MEN DO NOT BELIEVE HIM, IF YOU HAVE BELIEVED HIM, WHY ARE YOU STILL LAUGHING AND NOT LETTING YOUR YES BE YES ONLY?), THEN IT IS RATIONAL THAT WHOEVER SAID A WORD AGAINST THE SON OF MAN WILL BE FORGIVEN, WHOEVER SAID A WORD AGAINST THE HOLY SPIRIT WILL NOT BE.
WHY DID JESUS NOT SPEAK OF THOSE WHO SPOKE AGAINST THE FATHER? PERHAPS UNLIKE JESUS AND THE HOLY SPIRIT, THE FATHER NEVER CAME, NEVER SPOKE TO MEN AND AS JESUS SAID, MEN DO NOT KNOW HIS FATHER AND THEREFORE DO NOT KNOW WHO THEY ARE SPEAKING AGAINST.

It is Simple Why Actors Must Go Madness

Although it is always tormenting to go mad and may be difficult for actors to understand why when they finally become mad, it is simple to understand that given enough time, all actors must (not may) become mad. If they don’t go mad here, they will go mad after death because acting always harms and kills self and others.
Scientists say the reason why our ancestors were less afflicted by cancer is because they all died young before they had time to get cancer. Similarly, the reason why madness is less frequent in the past may be because they all died before they had time to become mad. People live longer nowadays and we are seeing many old people become madly restless & violent. Given time, if they do not die of other causes, all actors will or must ultimately become mad.
Acting is forcefully controlled forcefully going against self to fake and exaggerate what one thinks, does or says. Because acting is constant and forceful, all that has to happen to an actor (intrinsically or through provocation) to become mad is to lose his forceful control (eg through acute crisis or senility) and he will become transformed to totally forcefully going against himself (or mad) to fake what and how he thinks, does or says.
Anything that is subject to forceful control (mental, bodily or speech fabrications or acting) is subject to degradation and loss of control leading to uncontrolled expression or madness. Not acting is not fabricating anything, not forcefully going against to deceive others, is passive and does not need any forceful control and cannot go mad.
Acting is defined as (forcefully) controlled forceful going against oneself to fake and exaggerate (ie to be false) in what and how one thinks, speaks and does in the name of deceiving, pleasing, impressing, dominating and intimidating others.
Madness can be defined as uncontrolled forceful (madness is violent which is very forceful) irrational or disordered (therefore false or faked or exaggerated) thinking, speech and behavior that grievously harm the person (therefore the madman is going against self) and others who have the misfortune of crossing his path.
Hence, the difference between acting and madness is a loss of control, madness is acting that has run out of control, acting gone mad. Madness is therefore intimately linked to acting, exists only in actors who have finally lost control of their previously controlled going against themselves to falsely forcefully act.
Truth is never irrational or disorderly but truth is always passively, effortlessly totally calmly and clearly rational and orderly. Hence truth can never go mad. Falsehood is never rational, never orderly, is anything, can be anything except truth, is never comprehensible in the slightest bit, never calm, never clear but dishonest people force themselves to or actively pretend that they can and do comprehend falsehood.
It is impossible for a person who truly, passively never acts to become mad. It is totally possible for anyone who falsely, forcefully acts to become mad and he WILL to greater or lesser extent, depending on his karma.
Actors are forceful people. They never just believe passively but as with everything they do, they believe forcefully what are false and forcefully going against self.
To believe forcefully what is false, what is forcefully going against self, one’s and others’ acting/niceness, is true is flirting with madness, to force oneself to embrace madness as intimately as one dares but to ease off at the very last, is foolishly tempting fate to finally consummate that embrace with agony and madness.
Most actors cannot see that the ways they behave and speak are forcefully acted, exaggerated and faked, not passively being themselves, they cannot see how the ways they behave, their smiles and stretched syllables are intimately linked to the considerable daily stresses they surely experience.
It is only their relatively intact forceful self-preserving instinct or grit that pulls them back from the brink of insanity. It is their ‘healthy’ cynicism, their disbelief and doubting of anything happening, said or done by themselves and others that keeps them from going completely mad, from totally believing the falsity perpetrated by themselves and others but they must have occasional bouts of mad (irrational) or silly (treating everything as a joke not be take seriously) or violent behavior. What they do not realize is that they are fighting a lost cause, their mad and violent outbursts are harbingers of future consummated violence and madness.
If you are constantly forcing yourself to do or say what is faked or exaggerated as convincingly as you possible can (eg not only producing a fake smile but a gorgeously faked smile that fools the uncanny as genuine), does it not serve you right that when faced with an acute crisis eg divorce or when senile you are seized by tormenting, unrelenting madness?
Mad people are never totally or mad all the time because unrestrained madness is very stressful and cannot be sustained for long before death or exhaustion intervenes but madness occurs in bouts that actually have triggers (which may be minor or generated in their mad minds, escaping the attention of the undiscerning).
If you watch mad people, they are all forceful in their speech and actions in an irrational (or false or incomprehensible) and violent destructive way (ie going against self and others). This is acting that has gone out of control. Even catatonic patients who spend hours standing still staring at blank space are forceful. They are forcefully, rigidly still that harms themselves; they stare or keep their eyes opened for long periods that harm themselves as their minds are seized in a daze.
WHETHER YOU REALIZE YOUR IMMACULATE LAUGHTER AND STRETCHED SYLLABLES ARE FORCED OR YOU DON’T, LAUGHING AND STRETCHING SYLLABLES ARE ALWAYS STRESSFUL & ADDICTIVE THAT MUST BE CONTROLLED AND WHEN YOU LOSE THAT CONTROL YOU WILL LAUGH UNCONTROLLABLY SEEMINGLY FOR NO REASON, STRETCH YOUR SYLLABLES MADLY. MAD PEOPLE NEVER SCREAM ‘AIE’ THEY ALWAYS SCREAM WITH CRAZED STRETCHED SYLLABLES, “aAAAAAIIIIIiiiieeeEEEEEeee!!!”
IF YOU NEVER STRETCHED YOUR SYLLABLES ALL YOUR LIFE, YOU NEVER HARBORED URGES TO STRETCH YOUR SYLLABLES OR SMILE, IS IT POSSIBLE YOU CAN SUDDENLY, DE NOVO BECOME MADLY SMILING AND MADLY STRETCHING SYLLABLES? YOU MAY BE MAD IF YOU THINK SO.
How Not To Become A Victim Of Madness:
If you can sit still indefinitely without restlessness of thought and body, how can you get mad? It is because ordinary people are actors, their default mental and bodily state is not stillness but restlessness, they only manage on brief occasions to force themselves to be relatively still and it is easily disrupted by internal and external intrusions that they can lose control to go mad.
The wise actor will force himself to keep still, to slow down and reduce the force in his thinking until he can achieve rapidly at will a stillness of mind and body that cannot be disrupted.
Nowadays I can settle down into a deep clear calm with slow passive thinking without silly or ding dong (conflicting) thoughts that cannot be easily disrupted by intrusions and is incomparably blissful compared with any physical activity that I often decline to exit.
My current mental state is testimony that meditation is not useless, is not a dead end but there are great treasures in meditation to be accessed by the persistent meditator.
The Buddha: "What can be done for his disciples by a Master who seeks their welfare that I have done for you, Cunda. There are these roots of trees, there are empty places. Meditate Cunda, do not delay, lest you later regret it. "
Dazes From A Mental black hole:
Anyone who acts must experience episodes of falling into a daze when they become isolated from reality that are never voluntary, nobody puts himself into a daze but they are all seized by circumstances eg a tragedy or inexplicably or impulsively as a result of habitual daydreaming, to fall into a daze that they usually are able to extricate themselves forcefully.
These are harbingers, early tremors of a time when the actor will fall into a permanent daze that they may never recover (eg Ronald Reagan and Alzheimer patients or at death). A daze may be compared to a black hole of false oblivion created by the actor that is trying to and will suck him in. At death he will be sucked into the black hole of falsity to oblivion, to reappear amnesic in another existence in ignorance.

Low Mok Kuan:
Would you find funny a person’s name that means Youthful Precious Jade? People find a person’s name that means Old Wooden Pole funny because they have a subconscious materialistic or biased value system that worships wealth, status and power. Because they smile and treat it as funny, they think they don’t mean it, they don’t look down on others, it is all for jest but they are fooling themselves with painful consequences they do not realize.
The Difference Between The Saint & The Sinner:
As the Buddha said, the fool sees the unimportant in the important, sees the important in the unimportant; the fool sees no difference where there is a world of a difference and sees difference (between actors) when the wise sees no difference (they’re all fakes).
The sinner may raise his voice in anger in an explosive manner with stretched syllables and unnecessary words thus: “yYYOOouu bBBLloOODdieee fFFOOLLlll !!!” and sees no difference with the saint who also raises his voice when there may be a world of a difference with constant loudness, no stretched syllables and additional malicious words thus: “YOU FOOL”
Even though both raised their voices to scold there may be a world of a difference and this may explain why the sinner goes to hell for his outburst whilst the saint is punished here and now and his pain lasts barely a moment as the Buddha says below:
Lonaphala Sutta: The Salt Crystal
"There is the case where a trifling evil deed done takes one to hell. The very same trifling deed done by another is experienced in the here & now, and barely appears for a moment.
" There is the case where a person is undeveloped in [contemplating] the body, in virtue, in mind, in discernment: restricted, small-hearted. A trifling evil deed takes him to hell.
" There is the case where a certain individual is developed in [contemplating] the body, in virtue, in mind, in discernment: unrestricted, large-hearted. A trifling evil deed is experienced in the here & now, and for the most part barely appears for a moment.
"Suppose that a man were to drop a salt crystal into a small amount of water. Would the water in the cup become salty and unfit to drink?"
"Yes, lord. There being only a small amount of water in the cup, it would become salty."
"Now suppose a man were to drop a salt crystal into the River Ganges. Would the water in the River Ganges become salty?"
"It's just as when a goat butcher is empowered to beat or bind or slay a person is of little wealth when he has stolen a goat. But he is not empowered to beat or bind or slay a person is wealthy, with many possessions; a king or a king's minister.
"Monks, for anyone who says, 'In whatever way a person makes kamma, that is how it is experienced,' there is no living of the holy life. But for anyone who says, 'When a person makes kamma to be felt in such & such a way, that is how its result is experienced,' there is the opportunity for the right ending of stress."