Why The Change Benefited Everyone:

Why The Change Benefited Everyone:
Even though ordinary people constantly go against themselves to create stress or disadvantage for themselves, going against themselves is never without purpose or self benefit but it is ALWAYS intended foolishly for self gain, for short sighted self gratifications. Even though people are evil, feckless, they do not want to suffer anymore than they need too, but because they must be evil, they must continue to suffer.
Hence unless something benefits them, is to their advantage (as Jesus said) people will not change themselves. Unless something clearly benefits them, is instantly recognizable as beneficial, they will not change swiftly en masse.
Why change if you are happy in the state as you are and that change offers you no benefit? That everyone, not just some swiftly changed themselves after 1977 and again in recent years, without having to see me or listen to what I have said implies they can sense the change in me & others around them and they are seized immediately to forcefully change because they do not want to suffer in their current condition.
I certainly derived unmistakable, previously unimaginable benefits ensuing from the change in 1977 and now in recent years and though it is impossible that ordinary people will experience the full extent of the effortlessly calm and clear mental and bodily state I experience, they are likely or must derive similar but lesser benefit from the changes (why should the same change give me benefit but suffering in all others?) that is only limited by the wickedness in still forcefully going against themselves to manipulate others.
There is collaborating evidence that this is the case because I can see now in retrospect as I couldn’t before 1977 that EVERYONE, not just some were suffering in mind warping fashion before 1977 and they were only putting on a (cruel) show that they were enjoying themselves. Previously I was under the delusion that there were many who enjoyed themselves and were well adjusted whilst I was unhappy and ill adjusted but after the change I could see they were all faking it to get along. There is ample evidence from the lives of celebrities (Marilyn, Elvis, Natalie Wood, James Dean, Brando, Howard Hughes) that behind the scenes they were tormented and quite eager to kill themselves. After the changes, although still suffering, people were visibly more ‘liberated’, less inhibited.
Jesus: Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground without your Father's will. Even the hairs of your head are all numbered.
If you agree there was a clear consciousness change after 1977 and again in recent years that benefited you (and everyone as I see), and considering that Jesus said above that not one sparrow will fall to the ground without your Father’s will and even the hairs of your head are ALL numbered, is it possible that this global change I triggered in 1977 and again recently, caught your Father by surprise, was an accident or was it in the full knowledge of the Father and even intended for Jesus also said:
Nevertheless I tell you the truth: it is to your advantage (the counselor must DEFINTELY bring you advantage) that I go away, for if I do not go away, the Counselor will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you. And when he comes, he will convince the world concerning sin and righteousness and judgment: concerning sin, because they do not believe in me; concerning righteousness, because I go to the Father, and you will see me no more; concerning judgment, because the ruler of this world is judged.
If the initial consciousness change in 1977 was a mere accidental occurrence, it must a series of sheer coincidences that the person who triggered that change then triggered further changes again recently, he exited sinful, stressful acting not once but three times whilst the rest of humanity have not exited acting, even those who profess to be good and intelligent who have been told in no uncertain terms, he is not only intelligent but articulate, able to work out and present in its entirety what is meant by acting and how people stressfully act and furthermore, he happens to be upright, a man of truth not only conversant in spiritual matters but he has illuminated what the Buddha and Jesus said in a way no man has ever done before or now?
Jesus appeared to hint about a future consciousness change:
"I have yet many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth; for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak, and he will declare to you the things that are to come.”
The Requisite Right Resolve:
Right Resolve is one of the eight factors of the Noble Eightfold Path and once you have made the right resolve, you must carry it out mindfully (right mindfulness or attention, another factor) by right conduct & right speech.

I still recall the resolves I made as a troubled person under provocation in 1977 that irreversibly set in motion the consciousness changes that followed.

My original resolves: A determination never again to be pushed around to behave in a weak and dishonest manner to please or placate others but instead I shall thenceforth be myself, love myself, refuse to suffer, I will stand no nonsense from others, whoever they are, I will decide what is right and true for myself, I shall thenceforth be true to myself and others. I felt that people everywhere are putting on a show, dishonest but I will not follow suit.

Is any ordinary person capable of truly, not hypocritically or lip service making the above resolves that may be essential prerequisites for initiating that consciousness change? Ordinary people, no matter how wholesome they want to believe themselves to be, being tough and stubborn are only too willing to play along to please or impress others, to chin up and soak up nonsense from others (or pretend as realistically as possible they really do appreciate) whilst they themselves slyly worked undercover to manipulate others to get what they want.
I am not uncharitable but have repeatedly gravely underestimated human intransigence:
I am actually not uncharitable in opinion about people but they have repeatedly surprised me with their intransigence not to exit stressful, self harming acting despite changes after changes and having been told so.
In my newfound optimism (but blithe ignorance) immediately after I changed, I thought I could spread the gospel, impart this wonderful change that befell me to those around me by talking to them about how to be assertive, how to assertively shed their inhibitions and will themselves to be happy only to be rewarded barely a year later with everyone turning nasty on me like snarling cats on sight when I became involuntarily totally relaxed.
Then I saw that everyone despite all the bared fangs and violent agitation that occurred even in those who were supposed to be good, they were all changing and I suspected that just like me, they will all drop off in a year’s time to become totally relaxed and perhaps the world will come to an end because there will nothing to fight about. When the year end arrived, I was mighty disappointed when despite changes people were just as tough as they have ever been and nobody has exited acting even more than 2 decades after.
If you give the excuse that they did not exit stressful and sinful acting because they did not know, they were not told, then even today, after it has been described in no uncertain terms in its entirety what is acting and how people act, even those who are supposed to be good, who are supposed to be intelligent, who rub shoulders with me daily, nevertheless somnolently continue to be nice in their more discreet ways they think they are being themselves and good.
Not Letting Others Let Their Yes Be Yes Only:
WHEN YOU DO NOT LET YOUR YES BE YES ONLY, YOU ALSO CANNOT LET OTHERS LET THEIR YES BE YES ONLY.
AFTER I HAVE SAID THAT NOWADAYS I DO NOT NEED TO GO TO THE DRIVING RANGE OR TENNIS COURT TO EXERCISE, IT IS LIKELY OR A DISTINCT POSSIBILITY I IMPLY I DO NOT NEED TO KEEP FIT, SO TO ASK, “THEN HOW DO YOU KEEP FIT?” IS NOT BEING GOOD BUT NICE TO ME, IT IS UNNECESSARILY EXPRESSING RESERVATIONS OR DOUBTS ABOUT WHAT I SAID, ASKING ME TO RECONSIDER WHAT I HAVE SAID, NOT LETTING ME LET MY YES BE YES ONLY & PESTERING ME BECAUSE I HAVE TO THINK AND COMPOSE A REPLY.

When I told an acquaintance that nowadays I do not need to go to the driving range or tennis court to exercise, he did not realize he was casting doubt or hesitancy in me (one of 3 lower fetters leading to states of future woe) and not letting me let my yes be yes only by saying ‘Then how do you keep fit?”

When I said, “I don’t need to go to the driving range to exercise” a pertinent or reasonable supposition is that I do not need to exercise and therefore keep fit, hence to question me further, “Then how do you keep fit” is to (mischievously) express doubt or reservations what I said cannot be totally true, implying “Even though you say you don’t need to go to tennis courts for exercise, I still think you need to keep fit, how do you keep fit then?” Is it idle curiosity or essential to know how I otherwise keep fit or is the question LOADED, with possibly hidden antagonism?
If you are nice to others, whether you are aware or not, there MUST be hidden nastiness in you because you are going against yourself to please others, there must be an urge to lash out that is often so well camouflaged behind a smile and whispered gentleness the person himself insists he meant no malice, you must be mistaken, you are sensitive (adding insult to injury). To reflect how close to future insanity actors are, often many do not or cannot see there is hidden venom in their jokes or sarcasms or softly spoken words. They insist they are only jesting or swear they never intended any slights, it must be their poor command of English. Any perceived slight must have been unintended.

Many people have this misguided notion that they are good or friendly if they show interest in others by asking them questions about them when instead everyone who asks questions, especially if they have to be forced, must stress himself to fabricate and then ask the question and it then troubles the other person to think and present an answer. Hence the wise person will only ask questions when it is essential and then ask in an unemotional, un-anxious and un-forceful manner so ask not to stress himself and the other. Fabricating questions to ask have usually become so slick in actors think they are not cognizant it is forced, they are forcing themselves but if a question is asked with a beginning jerk or spurt, with stretched syllables and end with a quizzical emphasis eg an accelerated ‘then’ followed by ‘how do you keep fittt????’ betrays it as forced, not passively genuine.
Further, by asking ‘then how do you keep fit’, he is implying that everyone including me must keep fit, so how do you keep fit? This presumptuous because even though most people may keep fit, it does not follow that I or everyone must keep fit. When you must do something, eg keep fit, then keeping fit will become a ritual or an act. People who keep fit do not realize they are subscribing to a fairly rigid ritual (faith in rituals and precept, one of three lower fetters to states of woe) that become addictive so that in time they cannot do without keeping fit, an impulse that may haunt them in old age.

In the past, because I was constantly forcing myself to act like the rest, I rapidly built up stress and restlessness daily so that I had to let off some steam daily by bashing golf or tennis balls such that I would get annoyed if it rained or was too hot for me to perform my ritual. Usually for a short period afterwards I felt (forcefully) refreshed but very soon stress would return as a result of interactions with others and my emotional expressions.
Nowadays, because I do not act, do not stretch my syllables or smile but passively say or do things without emotions, there is genuinely no need for me to bash balls. A few years ago I had said to myself that I was so addicted to tennis or golf it will be impossible for me to give them up but I now do not have any urge or need to pick up a racket or club. People are incredulous but now that I am passive, unemotional, do not forcefully go against myself in a forcefully controlled way, whatever stress I experience is external and even that I can increasingly tune out (eg when people spit venomously even next to me, I do not flinch, do not force myself not to get upset but I am passively or effortlessly not upset). Hence the answer to the question, ‘then how do you keep fit’ is that I do not keep fit or need to keep fit. I have put on a little weight but I am not aware of being lacking in fitness.
Further, though people may not realize, anyone who will keep fit is manifesting self identity views because if you were not preoccupied with yourself, with preserving your body, you will not bother to regularly keep fit, which does not mean you must neglect or abuse your body. If you are a non actor you can probably keep your body fitter without keeping fit than the actor ritualistically keeping fit.
Apart from being an indication of subscription to self identity view (one of three lower fetters to states of woe) the need to keep fit indicates the person is beset by stress, an actor who is not master of himself but driven inexorably by daily stress to keep fit to stay afloat.

Jesus: "Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?”
If you are not anxious about your life, what you shall eat or drink or about your body” how is it that you are concerned about keeping fit. If you say you are not anxious about your body but it is stress that drives you to keep fit, then you are admitting you are a slave of stress.
What Jesus said above corresponds to what the Buddha said concerning self identity views as a lower fetter leading to states of woe. If you have no self identity views, no attachment to your body or self (that does not mean self mortification), how can you be anxious for your life, what you shall eat, about your body?
Colored Perception:
Actors do not realize that everything they perceive is tainted or tampered, in line with their forceful acting. They are like the man wearing permanent sunglasses who thinks everyone sees the world like them when if they could take down their sunglasses, take down their acting, they will realize the view without sunglasses is incomparably superior; colors are more faithfully rendered and they can see more detail.
Hence when they read Jesus say, “"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life”, they automatically read it mentally as “tTHEerefFOore Aiee tTELLll yYOUUuu,(dramatic pause), dDDOOoo nNNOtt bBEEe …” and think Jesus is nice just like them.

THE SIN & DANGERS OF ASKING TOO MANY QUESTIONS:
MANY PEOPLE THINK NOTHING, EVEN THINK THEY ARE GOOD OR FRIENDLY IF THEY EAGERLY (OR FORCE THEMSELVES TO) ASK OTHERS QUESTIONS NOT REALIZING THAT ANY QUESTION MUST FORCE THE PERSON TO STRESSFULLY THINK AND COMPOSE AN ANSWER AND EVEN IF THEY REFUSED TO ANSWER THERE IS STILL STRESS INVOLVED IN THE REFUSAL. HENCE THE WISE PERSON WILL ASK AS FEW QUESTIONS OF OTHERS SO POSSIBLE SO AS NOT TO PESTER OTHERS TO CREATE KARMA NOT MERIT THAT FOOLISH PERSON MIGHT THINK. EVERY QUESTION MUST STRESS THE ANSWERER HENCE WHEN ONE ASKS ANY QUESTIONS ONE MUST MAKE SURE IT IS ABSOLUTELY PERTINENT TO ASK. THE TRUTH IS MOST PEOPLE HAVE FORCED THEMSELVES TO ASK QUESTIONS OF OTHERS THAT THEY ARE NOW FORCED BY IRRESISTIBLE URGES TO ASK QUESTIONS AND THEY FEEL JUSTIFIED TO DO SO, NOT REALIZING THAT THIS URGE WILL NOT STOP HERE BUT IF THEY KEEP DO SO, IT MAY BECOME MADLY OUT OF CONTROL IN OLD AGE OR IN A SITUATIONAL CRISIS WHEN THEY CANNOT STOP THEMSELVES ASKING QUESTIONS MANICALLY EG “WHY, WHY, WHY GOD? WHAT HAVE I DONE, WHAT HAVE I DO/ ANSWER ME, ANSWER ME, ANSWER ME, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE!” IF THROUGHOUT YOUR LIFE YOU SELDOM TROUBLED OTHERS WITH UNNECESSARY QUESTIONS, WILL YOU BE STRICKEN BY A MAD URGE LATER?
MANY PEOPLE LIKE TO ASK QUESTIONS WHENEVER THEY CONVERSE WITH OTHERS (TO SHOW THAT THEY HAVE AN INTEREST IN OTHERS) WHEN YOU CAN CONDUCT A MEANINGFUL CONVERSATION WITH VERY FEW QUESTIONS. INSTEAD OF ‘HOW ARE YOU?’ (A QUESTION THAT NEEDS AN ANSWER) YOU CAN SAY WITHOUT FORCE OR STRETCHED SYLLABLES, “HI” OR “HELLO” (THIS IS NOT A QUESTION & NEEDS NO REPLY) OFTEN I DISPENSE WITH THE HELLO BUT I IDENTIFY MYSELF AS SO & SO FROM SO & SO AND SAY I WANT TO PLACE AN ORDER. FOR INSTANCE YOU CAN CONDUCT A CONVERSATION ABOUT CURRENT EVENTS IN IRAQ, AMERICA, MALAYSIA WITHOUT ASKING ANY QUESTIONS BUT SOME PEOPLE LIKE TO ASK HOW WAS YOUR WEEKEND, HOW’S YOUR WIFE, HOW LONG DID YOU STAY, HOW MUCH DID IT COST AND ENDLESSLY.
ALTHOUGH PEOPLE INSIST THEIR QUESTIONS REFLECT GENUINE INTEREST IN OTHERS, IF IT IS FORCED, THERE IS FORCE WHEN YOU ASK THE QUESTION, THEN EVERY TIME YOU FORCE YOURSELF TO ASK A QUESTION, YOU ARE REINFORCING THE URGE TO ASK QUESTIONS FOR THE SAKE OF ASKING, MOST PEOPLE HAVE ALREADY GRADUATED TO THE STAGE WHERE THEY ARE FORCED, NOT FORCING TO ASK QUESTIONS MINDLESSLY. WHAT THEY DO NOT REALIZE IS THAT WHEN THEIR PRESENT CONTROL IS LOST, THEY MAY ASK QUESTIONS MADLY. FURTHER, WHETHER YOU REALIZE YOU FORCE YOURSELF TO ASK QUESTIONS OR NOT, IF IT IS FORCED, YOU WILL EXPERIENCE RESTLESSNESS LATER AND IF YOU KEEP FORCING YOURSELF TO ASK QUESTIONS THE WHOLE DAY, YOU WILL BE SEIZED TORMENTINGLY BY YOUR RESTLESSNESS AT THE END OF THE DAY.
MANY PEOPLE STUDY BUDDHIST SUTTAS IN ALL EARNESTNESS BUT THEY MISS A VITAL LESSON AT THE END WHEN THE BUDDHA IS OFTEN NOTED TO TELL HIS MONKS THAT ‘SO & SO WAS WISE, HE DID NOT PESTER ME’. HE IS WISE NOT FOR THE BUDDHA’S SAKE BUT FOR HIS OWN SAKE FOR TO PESTER A BUDDHA OR ANYONE 9WITH QUESTIONS) CREATES SERIOUS KARMA. (MANY DOCTORS LIKE TO ASK MANY QUESTIONS OF PATIENTS THAT IF THEY LOOK CAREFULLY ARE IRRELEVANT BUT DESIGNED TO IMPRESS THEIR PATIENTS WITH KARMA ATTACHED)
THERE ARE THOSE WHO FORCE THEMSELVES NOT TO ASK QUESTIONS AND THIS IS AN ACT. IF YOU TRULY, EFFORTLESSLY HAVE NO URGE TO ASK OR NOT ASK QUESTIONS, IS IT POSSIBLE FOR YOU SUBSEQUENTLY TO BE SEIZED BY MADNESS TO ASK CRAZY QUESTIONS EVEN WHEN ALONE?
THE SIN OF FORCING YOURSELF TO ASK QUESTION IS THAT IT PESTERS OR STRESSES OTHERS TO REPLY. THE DANGERS OF FORCING YOURSELF TO ASK QUESTIONS IS THAT YOU WILL EXPERIENCE STRESS AND RESTLESSNESS THAT LINGERS, IT IS ADDICTIVE LEADING TO LOSS OF CONTROL AND MADNESS LATER.

The Sin Of Yes, But:
Whenever you say ‘yes’ and later qualify it later with a ‘but’ you have conflicted what you said earlier and you have said something false, something that you did not mean.
For instance you might say, “Yes we must not be anxious about our lives, what we shall eat or what we shall drink, nor about our bodies, BUT that doesn’t mean we must not keep fit.” If you meant what you said that you must keep fit, you are admitting must be anxious about or devote attention to your body and therefore your yes we must be anxious is false or a lie.
Unconscious Unrepentant Liars:
Ordinary people who do not realize they are actors may think they are great espousers of truth but often they do not realize what they speak is not exaggeration but false or a lie. For instance the statement below may have been intended to be humorous, an exaggeration but in truth it is false.
Quote: Someday soon, I may be the last man in America without a cell phone.
Comment: Someday soon, whatever that day is, he is never going to be the last man in America without a cell phone but there will always be a lot of Americans eg the deprived who will be without a cell phone. Hence that statement may be funny but it is not even an exaggeration but false. Is he or many of his fellow cohorts concerned by it? It is likely they ‘enjoy’ it, think it cute and encourage others to similarly appreciate. Jesus said you will be judged for every careless word you said. It is up to you to judge whether you will be judged by such humor; what is at stake for you maybe eternal wandering and an eternity in heaven. It is wise not to be presumptuous (assuming it is harmless), a defilement of the mind according to the Buddha. Woe to you who laughs, for you shall weep.
Jesus: I tell you, on the day of judgment men will render account for every (not some) careless word they utter; for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.
Why Insisting & Clinging Is Always Acting:
Whenever someone insists, he is acting because when you insist you are not letting your yes be yes only but must apply force to what you want to say or do. When you insist you did not tell a lie, you are forcefully saying you did not tell a lie and therefore acting. A non acting person only passively says without smiling or insisting, “I did not tell a lie”. When you insist someone stays you are again applying force against the wishes of anyone to force him to stay. If he wants to stay, a passive request suffices. It is sinful to insist because you force the other person to entertain doubt and go against his original wish not to stay. Doubt and uncertainty is one of three fetters leading to states of woe according to the Buddha and by promoting doubt in others, you have debt, not merit on your hands.
Whenever you cling to someone or something (a gold ornament or certificate), either physically or mentally (keep ringing, pestering him), you are also acting because you are actively or forcefully attaching or imposing yourself either mentally or physically to that person.
Faked Speech:
Slo-Mo does not exist and it forces the listener to fabricate to find out what it means. Slo-mo is not an exaggeration but a fake or perversion of slow motion and is designed to be chic, impress others falsely. It is also likely to be spoken in an acted form thus: sSLOoo mMOoo.
Can You Teach The Blind To See?
When I proposed to this reasonably intelligent, apparently upright girl that smiling causes stress, she smiled broadly to insist that smiling does not create stress but it is an antidote to stress. She may be correct but it seems a lot of very ‘normal’ people believe the opposite, what is stressful (eg smiing, stretching syllables and making lotsa money) is soothing, eases stresses (the more money you make the happier you become). And they do not just believe it but they believe it forcefully, emotionally. But if in truth your smiling and stretching syllables is stressful to yourself and others, you will pile debts on yourself. How can you teach the blind to see? Can such a person who is quite ‘happy’ to induce stress in herself spontaneouely induce a consciousness change or spontaneously exit stressful acting?