Why & How Actors Point A Double Barreled Shotgun At Themselves:

Pointing A Double Barreled Shotgun At Oneself:
If you see a shotgun pointed by yourself at yourself with a finger poised nervously on the trigger, would you be alarmed to take urgent effort to rectify the situation?
What ordinary people mesmerized by their own acting fail to realize is that they have a double barrelled shotgun pointed by themselves at themselves with their finger nervously massaging the trigger alternately pulling it, sometimes tantalizingly close to a point that will cause discharge that they cannot be certain where it is and then releasing, in response to provocations by self and others. Unless they put down that gun, one day under instigation, they will finally be goaded to pull the trigger and blow themselves to smithereens.
TO CONSTANTLY FORCEFULLY GO AGAINST ONESELF TO ACT CREATING STRESS AND TENSION IS ONE BARREL OF A SHOTGUN POINTED AT ONESELF.
TO THEN HAVE TO FORCEFULLY, STRESSFULLY, ENDLESSLY RESTRAIN ONESELF TO KEEP ONE’S ACTING WITH THE STRESS AND TENSION IT CONSTANTLY CREATES MANAGEABLE, IS ANOTHER BARREL OF A SHOTGUN POINTED AT ONESELF.
A PERSON WHO DOES NOT ACT (VERY RARE) HAS NO GUN POINTED AT HIMSELF AND THEREFORE DOES NOT EXPERIENCE ALL THE ACCOMPANYING COLD SWEATING OR NERVOUS UNCERTAINTY. IF YOU DID NOT FORCEFULLY, STRESSFULLY GO AGAINST YOURSELF TO ACT, YOU WILL NOT NEED TO CONSTANTLY FORCEFULLY, STRESSFULLY RESTRAIN YOURSELF AND YOU WILL SAVE YOURSELF THE TROUBLE OF HAVING TO FORCE YOURSELF TO ACT AND THEN FORCE YOURSELF TO RESTRAIN YOURSELF PLUS INSOLUBLE CONFLICT BECAUSE BOTH ARE OPPOSING FORCES THAT COLLIDE INSIDE YOU.
ACTORS HAVE NOBODY TO BLAME FOR THEIR TROUBLES EXCEPT THEMSELVES EVEN IF THEY ARE UNAWARE OR REFUSE TO ACCEPT THAT THEIR CONDUCT ARE AT THE ROOT OF THEIR INSOLUBLE TROUBLES.

NOT ONLY DO ACTORS UNNECESSARILY CREATE TWO STRESSFUL FORCES IN THEMSELVES (FORCEFUL ACTING & FORCEFUL RESTRAINT), THESE TWO FORCES CLASH INSIDE THEM CREATING FORCEFUL CONFLICT, TENSION THENCE RESTLESSNESS AND BECAUSE THEY ARE INSOLUBLE (THE PERSON KEEPS ACTING), THEY LEAD TO VIOLENT OR SILLY IMPULSES, DESPAIR AND THENCE DEPRESSION.

JUST AS IT IS IN THE NATURE OF ALL EXPERIENCES TO BECOME MORE SLICK, MORE REALISTIC, MORE INTENSE WITH REPEATED PRACTICE, ACTING TOO PROGRESSES UNWITTINGLY FROM HESITANT HAVING TO FORCE ONESELF TO ACT TO AUTOMATIC, UNCONSCIOUS FORCED BY BLIND EMOTIONS & STRESS TO ACT TO FINALLY BECOME EXPLOSIVE UNSTOPPABLE IMPULSIVE. HENCE AS THE YEARS PASS, THE FORCE (EVEN VIOLENCE) THAT UNDERLIE AN URGE, EVEN IMPULSE TO GO AGAINST ONESELF BECOMES INTENSE, OVERWHELMING SUCH THAT THAT URGE TO GO AGAINST ONESELF BECOMES MALIGNANT, THERE IS A FRIGHTENING URGE TO GO ALL THE WAY, TO GO HELPLESSLY TOTALLY AGAINST ONESELF, TO KILL ONESELF, TO PULL THAT TRIGGER TO THAT CONSTANTLY POINTED SHOTGUN TO GET OVER WITH EVERYTHING.
ACTORS MAY HAVE SERIOUSLY AND FATALLY UNDERESTIMATED THE STRENGTH OF THEIR DANGEROUS FORCE OF GOING AGAINST THEMSELVES IN THEMSELVES. THIS IS BECAUSE THIS FORCE THAT THEY ARE UNAWARE HAS BECOME INDEPENDENT (THEY ARE NOW SLAVES NOT MASTERS OF THIS FORCE), VERY STRONG (EVEN VIOLENT & IMPULSIVE) THROUGH LIFELONG REINFORCING ABUSIVE PRACTICE IS DECEPTIVELY COUNTER BALANCED BY THE EQUALLY TENACIOUS (BUT HARRASSED) FORCE OF SELF PRESERVATION AND IT IS USUALLY NEVER FULLY EXPRESSED BUT ONLY PARTIALLY EXPRESSED AS REQUIRED TO MEET SITUATIONAL DEMANDS. THIS FORCE OF GOING AGAINST SELF IS ONLY FULLY EXPRESSED OCCASIONALLY AS WHEN THE ACTOR BLOWS HIS TOP OR HE IS CALLED UPON TO ACT INTENSELY IN A SUSTAINED MANNER EG A MARITAL CRISIS OR WORK DEMAND (EG PRESENTING A PAPER AT A CONFERENCE).
HENCE, ORDINARILY, THE ACTOR MAY BE LULLED TO BELIEVE HIS FORCEFUL GOING AGAINST HIMSELF IS RELATIVELY BENIGN, NECESSARY TO GET ALONG WHEN IT IS LIKE A SMOULDERING VOLCANO FITFULLY VENTING BUT WITH ENOUGH STORED VIOLENCE OR SELF HATRED TO BLOW ITSELF TO BITS.

When you force yourself to exaggerate or fake what you say or do to stressfully please, impress, deceive, dominate or intimidate others you do not want to harm yourself if that is possible but because this is not possible in the process of forcefully exaggerating and faking, you must constantly ensure you don’t seriously or excessively harm yourself acting (you don’t want to kill yourself, not at least until you have driven yourself to the brink or you have put yourself in such an impossible mess you failed to see earlier that the easiest way out is kill yourself).
Therefore, all acting with speech and deed, which are always forceful and stressful must be counteracted or controlled with counter force to go only so far for appearances sake, to satisfy others or achieve one's selfish aims but to hold off at the brink or when it gets too hot. But it is in the nature of humans that they tend to get carried away with their exuberant acting to outdo themselves or test their acting limits or they are goaded by fellow goats to outdo themselves and thereby run into serious trouble of restraint or loss of control.
When you raise your voice (shout harshly) to intimidate another you have to apply forceful restraint on yourself otherwise your anger may boil over overstressing yourself or you may get yourself killed getting into a fight because the other person is blows up because you overdid your provocation.

THOSE WHO LAMENT (LAMENTING IS ALWAYS EMOTIONALLY, DRAGGING, NOT LETTING ONE’S YES BE YES ONLY AND AN ACT) THAT THERE IS NO JUSTICE IN THIS WORLD ARE ACKNOWLEDGING THEIR BLINDNESS BECAUSE ALL SIN IS CONDUCTED IN AN ACTED (EXAGGERATED OR FAKED WAY) AND WHETHER HE REALIZES HE ACTS OR NOT, SO LONG AS ANYONE ACTS AND THEREFORE SINS, HE HAS A DOUBLE BARRELLED SHOTGUN POINTED AT HIMSELF THAT WILL ULTIMATELY BE DISCHARGED BY HIMSELF, BLOWING HIMSELF TO BITS EITHER BECAUSE HE GETS CARRIED AWAY BY HIS EXCESSES, HIS CUMULATIVE SELF HATE, AGONY AND DEPRESSION BECOME UNBEARABLE, HE IS GOADED BY FELLOW GOATS TO GO BEYOND HIS ACTING LIMITS OR IN OLD AGE, HIS MIND THAT IS WARPED AND DEGRADED BY INCESSANT FORCEFUL ACTING AND RESTRAINT FINALLY CRUMPLES TO BECOME MADLY RESTLESS, MADLY VIOLENT OR IRRATIONAL OR MADLY DEPRESSED. THOSE WHO LAMENT ARE THEMSELVES AT RISK OF A SHOTGUN POINTED BY THEMSELVES AT THEMSELVES THAT WILL ULTIMATELY DISCHARGE BECAUSE IF THEY DO NOT ACT THEMSELVES THEY WILL SEE THAT JUSTICE IS INEVITABLE AND FAR MORE PAINFUL THAN THE EMOTIONAL GAINS OF SIN.