Why I Am Also The Trigger Of Recent Changes:

Why I Am Also The Trigger Of Recent Changes:
(The recent consciousness change is essentially about a permanent mandatory quantum reduction in endogenous generated stress in everyone due to a reduction in a combination of behavioral & mental changes as if awakening as a result of a domino reaction to perceived changes in others, even in those who are clueless why everybody and they themselves are changing. Seeing how people everywhere continue to act, clueless that they act even after recent changes, even those who call themselves good and discerning, even after they have been told in no uncertain terms, it is unlikely if not impossible that ordinary people could have triggered this recent consciousness change. If this recent consciousness change is about a reduction, not cessation of going against themselves in the vast majority of people, they have only attenuated their acting when it is possible to completely stop going against self that I alone have achieved, it is unlikely if not IMPOSSIBLE that anyone else could have triggered this recent consciousness change. If it is possible to put to a total end tormenting acting but people everywhere have only achieved a quantum reduction in their acting they never dreamt was possible or existed, it was as if another consciousness door hitherto closed has been opened for them, how can anyone amongst them who still now act be responsible for triggering the change but instead they were unwitting passengers sucked in by the changes surrounding them?)

There have in my perception been further unmistakable consciousness changes over the past few years in EVERYONE that I believe benefited them, even though they still act somnolently.

I perceived that I myself was changing in an extraordinary way to become more serene since about 1997 but I could not see that everyone was also changing until much later in 2002 when it became increasingly obvious to me that people’s appearances and behavior everywhere suggests that everyone, including evil ones, too were also changing. In likelihood the changes involving others started much later, probably after 2000.

Again, I may be or am the trigger behind this.

(In retrospect, the second involuntary relapse of being ‘totally incapable of suffering’ I ‘inexplicably’ experienced shortly after I arrived in Sydney in 1985 may not be inexplicable but it may be linked to a period of severe stress I had been subjected to in terms of workload and a heart rending decision to resign my job in Kuantan Hospital, leave a family I was boarding with who treated me with uncommon fondness and my own family to go to Sydney to take up a hard to come by job offer. I arrived in Sydney with a heavy heart and thought it might take me a while to shed my grief but mysteriously, to my consternation, the heaviness of heart disappeared like fog before dawn and I found myself totally incapable of worrying that whilst wonderful, again made life relating with others trying if not near impossible.
It may be my nature after I changed in 1977 that may be unique compared to others that whenever I am challenged by mounting stress or falsity and hence suffering, my reaction was not to submit meekly but my aggression was automatically aroused to confront and neutralize these torments and in that process, I unwittingly started a process of wearing down the shackles of going against myself in me till they eventually gave way resulting in my being effortlessly calm contrary to my own expectation that I would continue to grieve over my recent losses. In comparison, whenever other people faced stress, their aggression was joyless aggression aimed at either gritting their teeth to be passively aggressive or to lash out directly or indirectly at others and themselves that created more stress holding them further in acting and ensured they never experienced ultimate effortless release from stress. My reaction to stress is always forceful goodwill because it is my nature to reject suffering but others’ reaction to stress is either indirect camouflaged or direct undisguised ill will because it is their nature to be tough, to suffer or accept suffering and make others suffer that only maintained them in sinful acting.
BECAUSE OTHER PEOPLE’S UNIVERSAL RESPONSE TO STRESS IS TO BEAR IT ‘STOICALLY’ WHICH IS SINFUL, NOT GOOD OR TOUGH IT OUT THEY CAN NEVER HAVE INITIATED THIS RECENT CONSCIOUSNESS CHANGE. BECAUSE MY RESPONSE TO RISING STRESS IS TO ATTACK MY INTERNAL FORCE OF GOING AGAINST MYSELF TO MEANINGFULLY RESOLVE MY STRESS, IT IS INEVITABLE THAT I WOULD SET OUT ON A PATH THAT WOULD LEAD ULTIMATELY TO EFFORTLESSLY NOT GOING AGAINST MYSELF AND THUS CAUSING THIS CURRENT CONSCIOUSNESS CHANGE THAT AGAIN AFFECTED EVERYONE AS I DID IN 1977.

In the same way, the consciousness changes in me recently that in truth spilled over to affect all others may be in response to mounting stress I was again subjected to in 1977, in particular the turmoil related to the East Asian Economic Crisis that upset me a lot, obsessed me because desperate times demanded desperate measures and I perceived many incidences of openly and outrageously wanton or crass lying, deceit, corruption and injustice.)

The Influence Of The East Asian Economic Crisis:
I did not start changing in response to anybody else I saw changing but the tumultuous or cataclysmic, even astoundingly openly criminal events of the 1997 East Asian Economic Crisis (that bear comparison with Bush’s current travails regarding the Iraq War & WMD) probably provided an important impetus because I was absorbed in and emotionally outraged by the gripping events that saw Asian stock markets and currencies tumble precipitously, events that may have been aggravated by Dr M’s ill advised tirades against currency speculators and Soros when there was much evidence of malignant construction & consumption bubbles all over East Asia financed by foolish excessive overseas borrowing that were abetted by foreign bankers who were less foolish than recklessly self serving in wanting to make money for their banks and themselves by lending recklessly and didn’t cared what the money was used for or whether they could recover it. If it was their money they were lending, not other people’s money, they may be more cautious. If fund managers were investing their own money instead of other people’s money, the stock market globally and the US in particular may not be as high and stubbornly high as it is.

Malaysia then was home to 24 hours a day nonstop construction all over the country, including small country towns, using (or exploiting) foreign workers to build all kinds of residential, commercial and industrial properties on a mind boggling malignant scale beyond realistic demand that included the KL International Airport, the tallest building in the world, the ambitious Bakun Dam and the multi billion Putra Jaya, the new national capital. In the aftermath of the crash, there were riots in Indonesia with loss of life targeted at the Chinese and toppled Suharto; the situation in Malaysia was tense with the dramatic sacking and then arrest on controversial charges of Anwar, Malaysia’s former deputy PM, his beating in custody that is impossible to justify and the subsequent trial drew many protests and a heavy handed, even brutal police response.

I took a keen interest in events, subscribed to foreign magazines and newspapers and listening avidly to BBC radio news to bypass the muzzled local press and was repeatedly outraged to read of shenanigans perpetrated on the stock exchange together with unorthodox economic and political measures that were clearly self serving. I was obsessed and would take every opportunity to discuss with patients and friends the truths I perceived behind the crisis. That I was emotionally aroused was reflected by the fact I even bought a small photocopy machine to photocopy foreign news stories and newspapers clippings that I compiled with heavily underlined passages to emphasize relevant information that I passed to my patients and friends who would read. Although I did not go in I also went to Anwar’s house to have a look around at the tense time after he was suddenly sacked.

I remembered in those days, beset by insoluble stresses from disgust at the national political and social situation and job demands, I found it indispensable to spend an hour daily at the driving range or the tennis wall alone to let off steam. Whenever I was aggressive, I felt much better but soon pressures from worries and patient demands meant stresses rapidly re-engulfed me. Comparing with others around, I felt that the way I played tennis or hit golf ball was exhilarating joy but there seemed no joy but only mean cold competitive aggression in others. I could never generate the same venomous swish and loud impacts as others. The reason that there was joy in my tennis and golf aggression even though I was also acting then was because it was directed at the forces of stress within me, at the forces of myself going against myself to exhaust it. The reason why sports in others seem soulless and a pain to watch was because ordinary people were constantly driven by stress to attack their balls to derive a sadistic satisfaction from successful persecutory aggression, the emotional pride of showing off to others they think might be watching or even to impress themselves and by inflicting displaced surrogate punishment on the balls. Those who are timid (timidity and feeling weak is always a learnt or acted condition, existing under suffering to appease others) may also derive some satisfaction recreating but even when they hit the balls they are full of inhibition and diffidence (self conscious) that they are not OK, they always hit the balls feeling not quite OK or people are laughing at their incompetence or clumsiness which is again why no matter how much they practiced their aggression in sports, they never achieved a gradual erosion of their forces of going against themselves. (This is another indicator why others cannot have triggered the recent change because whilst my forcefulness was wearing down my shackles, ordinary people’s forcefulness are driven by ill will or not OK feelings that maintained or even strengthened their status quo)

What I did not realize then is that this climactic concatenation of stress impacting on me rousing my emotional outrage at injustice and foul play plus workload was again stoking my joyous aggression above its hibernating levels to resume forcefully going against my internal going against myself that would end again in my stopping acting, this time with full insight and a more receptive audience in others who, unknown to me, were also changing in a domino effect.

This was a time when there was rising awareness in me that people everywhere were being stressfully nice, not good to each other and how niceness is sugar laced poison. (I foolishly thought then that people were being themselves when they were alone or with loved ones, only being nice to casual acquaintances.) An avid albeit stressed listener of BBC radio to follow keenly political events (I still remember religiously following BBC’s nightly “East Asia Today”), I began to realize I felt stressed listening because the way BBC announcers spoke was not music but pain to my ears and I resorted to lowering the volume until finally I dispensed with listening to BBC when the internet was an alternative (subsequently it dawned on me that not only voices but even the manner articles were written made them stressful to read). I began to switch off the sound when I was watching TV and I gave up listening to all music because I felt that the ways they were played and sounded was a pain not music to my ears. I began to minimize greeting others, not speak when there was nothing to speak, I did not greet my family members without harboring resentment but because it was stressful forcing myself to greet for the sake of greeting and found that these measures reduced my stress load. Although I did not know then, these were all dead end or stop gap forceful steps but they were slowly leading towards a future effortless disappearance of step.

(Music, like the way ordinary people speak is always nice sugar laced poison. All ordinary people foolishly disregard the poison in whatever music they like to listen to, to embrace its momentary sweetness that as a result subjected themselves to poison or stress and they become unwitting permanent captives to sugar laced poisonous music because it is addictive. I am always sensitive to stress whenever it arises and therefore sensitive to stress arising when I listen to music and therefore very soon worked out why music is stressful (too much drama, too much suddenly loud, fast and then very slow and soft, too much jazz or showing off beating around the bush) and because I do not possess a strong craving for music’s sweetness, I could stop listening to music where others are helplessly hooked, which then reduced my stress load permitting me to better examine with my appreciably less harassed mind the nature of stress in life, how it is not blameless or not inevitable that led to my discernment about acting and then final exit from acting. Ordinary people stretch their syllables all the time without realizing whenever they speak in order to be charming, nice, pretentious or nasty because they disregard or cannot see the stress it generates, which is why they can never exit stressful stretching of syllables, a form of acting. I am sensitive to the stress that stretching syllables generates which is why I can work to eliminate stretching of syllables. Here is another fundamental difference between me and all others that may indicate why I am the trigger of current changes. It is my ability to detect and thence become averse to the poison that accompanies sweet niceness that enables me to reject and exit niceness whilst ordinary people cannot see, disregard or accept the poison in niceness to foolishly embrace its sweetness which is why unless there is external intervention by someone pointing it out, they will be forever maintained clueless in poisonous niceness.)

I discerned that the considerable stress I experienced then was partly because I was not being myself but I was forcing myself to be nice to others; to smile, to say or do things to impress or please others, to rush and get angry with others in a persecutory way and so I started reining in myself eg reducing smiling in frequency and duration, stop saying or doing things to impress, avoiding unnecessary social interactions, stop greeting others unnecessarily (I refused to indulge in social banter with my neighbors with whom I had nothing in common), controlled my rushing and anger. In other words, I started to force myself in my transactions to be true to myself, even if it upset others that I did not please them. (This is a resolve that ordinary people content with their lot, their usual stresses, their conventionality are likely to make because they believe stress is blameless part and parcel of existence) I was consciously making a renewed resolve with myself to be true always and in keeping with this new resolve, I spoke for the first time in Oct 2001 to others, at risk of ridicule that I was the person who in 1977 triggered a consciousness change that affected everyone.

On the theoretical side, I gradually refined and defined what acting is and how people acted. Initially, I only perceived vaguely that people were falsely being nice, not good to each other. In stages I worked out how niceness involved exaggerating and faking what and also how they said or did, not occasionally but all the time, not some people but all ordinary people were nice whenever they interacted with others. Then I began to discern that acting was an important part of encompassing false acting, how people faked and exaggerated everything and how they said or did to deceive, impress, please, intimidate or dominate others. I began to see clearly in what ways and how people acted (eg smiling, stretching their syllables, laughing, smiling, beat around the bush, saying mindlessly yes, yes, yes instead of yes). I began to see the mechanism behind acting, how acting is always accompanied by excessive force, is forcing oneself to go against oneself in the name of deceiving, impressing, pleasing, intimidating and dominating others. I began to see that acting was driven by emotions (fear, anger, greed, pride) and stress and had to be constantly forcefully, stressfully controlled in order not to overcook oneself and how this led to insoluble conflict (forceful going against self versus forceful restraint) that inevitably led to restlessness, silly, violent and mad thoughts & depression. I saw how an actor must be stubborn (an emotion) because he is constantly forcing himself to go against himself, how he must feel ashamed (because he was prostituting himself) and must displace that with an inordinate pride. I began to see the difference between passive feelings (that can only be pleasant, unpleasant, neither due to sensory inputs and disappears as soon as they stop impinging) and emotions (anger, lust, fear, pride, hate) that are destructive mental forces that lingered generated by acting and drives acting.

And so it was that I could finally see that not just some but everyone was acting, they were all acting not some but all the time and how acting was ALWAYS driven by emotions and stress to forcefully go against oneself to exaggerate and fake whatever and how one says, does, thinks and perceives in a manner that had to be forcefully, stressfully controlled creating insoluble stress, restlessness, violent urges and depression in the name of deceiving, pleasing, impressing, intimidating and dominating others. Because acting was always forceful in going against self, it permanently warps the mind and degraded it so that all actors must suffer headaches, giddy spells, dazes, mental act blocks and are all headed for total mind failure when they will become mad, manic or depressed.

On the practical side, I strove to mindfully or attentively behave in a ‘no nonsense’, matter of fact manner and often after protracted discussions with me, people told me with genuineness “it was nice talking to you”. After downloading and repeatedly reading in its entirety the Pali Canon in 1999, I started to meditate and although it was initially a struggle, like a wild horse who had been broken in, I gradually experienced deepening calm and clarity that I never knew could be developed by merely sitting still in a disciplined manner and the imperturbable serenity derived from meditation spilled over to my daily life so that I could increasingly be serenely unperturbed during and after transactions with others that in the past would have stressed and agitated me. Thus it was that I came to meditate longer and more frequently everyday so much so that I would not feel embarrassed if I adopted the Lotus position in public eg whilst I waited for my car to be serviced.

As a result of my numerous insights regarding acting, my meditation and putting them into practice I experienced increasingly positive changes in my consciousness state that are inevitably reflected in my appearance and behavior. I noticed that people who met me often reacted in a way as if they mildly taken aback, as if I was someone whose manner they were unaccustomed to, many times people expressed genuine pleasure after talking to me, even saluted and bowed facing me on departure as if in reverence. Conversely others were moved to spit venomously at my presence in the street (or even hearing me drive serenely by) perhaps because they saw in me the opposite of what they stood for, they were tormented and jealous seeing someone genuinely serene.

I remembered one occasion when I left a bookstore my path crossed that of a particularly evil looking man and his facial muscles started to convulse violently, he flailed his arm and averted my gaze as if to hide his involuntary emotional incontinence. My companion (sinfully) laughed and thought it was funny. I then proceeded to a KFC outlet nearby and the girl who served me choked back her emotions when she wished me ‘a nice day’ after I had placed and accepted my order in a manner that was unpretentious and did not pester her. As I then sat eating beside a pedestrian walk, a little girl perhaps a few years old, who may have been attracted by my uncommonly unpretentious voice stopped and stood silently besides and below me on my elevated seat, grasping the railing and refused to move even when her mother pleaded gently with her to go. She later quietly relented without making a fuss.

ALLIED TO IRREFUTABLE POSITIVE CHANGES IN MY BEHAVIOR AND MENTAL STATE THAT IS THE OPPOSITE OF THE NORM IN ALL PEOPLE (WHO ARE ALL VARIATIONS ON A COMMON THEME OF ACTING), STARTING PERHAPS FROM 1998 THAT MUST BE REFLECTED IN MY APPEARANCE AND BEHAVIOR AND CONFIRMED BY MY REPEATED OBSERVATIONS OF STARTLED REACTIONS FROM OTHERS IN MY PRESENCE, VARYING FROM GENUINE DELIGHT, REVERENCE TO SPITEFUL REVULSION, I KNEW MY BEHAVIOR IN RECENT YEARS WAS CHANGING IN AN EXTRAORDINARY WAY (AS I INTENDED) AND AGAIN BEING FELT BY OTHERS. WHAT I DID NOT KNOW THEN WAS THAT PEOPLE WERE ALSO CHANGING (THOUGH STILL ACTING TILL THIS DAY), WHETHER AS A RESULTED OF BEING JOLTED BY INTERACTIONS WITH ME OR BY READING THE E MAILS I WAS SENDING.

HENCE I SAY THAT I AM THE TRIGGER OF CURRENT CONSCIOUSNESS CHANGES BECAUSE AS FAR AS I KNOW, NOBODY ELSE TALKED LIKE I DID ABOUT ACTING, DEFINED ACTING AS I DID AND PUT INTO PRACTICE FOR ALL WITH EYES TO SEE WHAT & HOW NON-ACTING IS THAT HAS NEVER BEEN HITHERTO SEEN BY OTHERS. FURTHER, RECIPIENTS OF MY E MAIL MAY AGREE THAT WHAT I WROTE INFLUENCED THEM POSITIVELY TO CHANGE IN AN OUT OF THE ORDINARY WAY. WHAT I DID NOT REALIZE THEN IS THAT THE IMPACT MY APPEARANCE AND BEHAVIOR HAD ON OTHERS WAS NOT TRANSIENT BUT IT JOLTED THEM IN THEIR OWN WAYS TO TRANSFORM THEMSELVES IN A REVOLUTIONARY WAY EVEN THOUGH THEY STILL CONTINUE TO ACT TODAY.

It did not occur to me immediately but it gradually dawned on me with increasing certainty after repeated verification that, visible by their appearances and behavior, everyone (not just some) was again changing just as they did after 1977, not just locally but globally, even though they still continue to act.

Those who have read what I wrote over the years may appreciate or acknowledge that they have been influenced and changed as a result. In that case, I am DIRECTLY responsible for causing their change. The changes in them will also be reflected in their appearances and behavior to those they interact with and therefore trigger further change in others.

Even though the vast majority of people have not seen me, have not read what I have said, by contagion effect as after 1977, they have all become transformed permanently to become more subdued, more direct today, even though they still act and may have no clue why they are changing because they changed in response to advantageous changes they perceived around them.

Because the trend of recent consciousness changes is from former greater acting to a current reduction of acting attended by decreased stress, and I see everybody has changed but they are still acting whilst I have stopped, this is an indication I am foremost amongst others in the series of this change that others may never attain because of discernment or virtue blocks and I am likely to be the initiator of this current change.

IF YOU AGREE THAT THERE WERE BENEFICIAL CONSCIOUSNESS CHANGES AFTER 1977 AND AGAIN NOW, IF YOU AGREE THAT I AM THE TRIGGER OF BOTH THESE CHANGES, BEARING IN MIND THE BILLIONS WHO EXIST, WOULD IT NOT BE A SHEER COINCIDENCE THAT I TRIGGERED BOTH CHANGES OR IS THERE SOMETHING UNIQUE IN MY NATURE IN CONTRAST TO OTHERS THAT CAUSED ME TO BE A TRIGGER ON BOTH OCCASIONS?

IS THERE ANYONE CONTEMPORARY OR THROUGH THE AGES WHO SPOKE WHAT I SAID? IS IT BECAUSE WHAT I WRITE IS NONSENSE OR IS IT THE RATIONAL TRUTH THAT THE WORLD CANNOT ACCEPT, FOR IT NETHER SEES HIM NOR KNOWS HIM?

When Did The Recent Changes Occur?
The recent consciousness changes were probably a progressive awakening by contagion possibly somewhere in late 2001 but probably gaining momentum only in 2002, more recent than I previously estimated.
Checking my computer file archives, my spiritual stirrings & renewed intolerance to stress probably started somewhere after 1998 (I complained I stopped listening to my favorite BBC radio news because newscasters were a pain to my ears). I downloaded the Pali Canon in Oct 1999 and I probably ‘got going’ in spiritual matters after 2000, I first publicly mentioned I changed the world’s consciousness in 1977 in Oct 2001 and hence the renewed global consciousness changes probably did not start until 2001 possibly even only in 2002.

Why Ordinary People Were Not Happy Before 1977:
The fact that everyone including those who previously acted as if they were happy and well adjusted, those who professed to be good, children and pretty girls I met turned violent & nasty after I became totally relaxed in 1978, indicates they were ALL (not just some) only FAKING they were happy and well adjusted and when they finally saw what they had never seen before, a truly effortlessly happy man, they were ALL jolted convulsively to dispense with their masks of pretended amiability and affability, bare their long hidden fangs to tear at their own mental shackles to set themselves free from their tormenting pretense.

If all those people I saw bared their fangs were all as truly happy as I quietly effortlessly was when they saw me, why did they all become convulsed with aggression? A person who is truly happy does not bare his fangs on sight of anything, nothing merely on sight can provoke me to bare fangs because to bare fangs is always to arouse oneself emotionally and to suffer. Only a person existing under duress can be provoked on sight to bare his fangs that he has all along hidden at great cost of stress to himself that he now, provoked cannot restrain any further but is seized to publicly display his hypocritically hidden fangs.

Nevertheless, I further observed that despite just baring their ugly fangs, many of them immediately burst irrepressibly into delighted cheerfulness as if something wonderful had happened to them despite baring their fangs involuntarily and they went on to greet uninhibitedly fellow goats who happened to be around. This suggests they ALL felt better despite just baring their fangs; something that is extraordinary because when people scowl usually, they become upset and feel morose for a period afterwards, NEVER immediately burst into joy. This indicates that this baring of fangs on seeing me is fundamentally different from their usual displays of nastiness: when they bared their fangs at the mere sight of me, they were attacking oppressive mental shackles which was why they experienced joy, not gloom as would be expected.

The nature of the ugly reactions that greeted me:
THE AGGRESSION THAT PEOPLE DISPLAYED WHEN THEY SAW ME RELAXED IN 1978 WAS FUNDAMENTALLY DIFFERENT FROM THE USUAL AGGRESSION THEY DISPLAYED ALL THEIR LIVES IN THAT IT WAS LIBERATING, EXHILIRATING & BROUGHT JOY IN THEM, SOMETHING THAT IS VERY ODD BECAUSE AGGRESSION IS NEVER ENJOYABLE BUT MORBID.

When your aggressiveness is directed at breaking down shackles that bind you to suffering, falsehood, emotions and persecuting others then it is joyous but if your aggressiveness is directed at persecuting others and thereby yourself, then it is joyless but tormenting. It is because my aggressiveness I discovered in 1977 was directed at shackles that bonded me to suffering and falsehood which was why it was joyous whilst others’ aggressiveness was always intended to persecute others which was why they never experienced joy.
Once I finally exited suffering, there was no further use of my aggressiveness and I was effortlessly calm.
The fact that even today people are still acting and therefore aggressive in a persecutory way reflects the intransigence of their ill will.

Even today, people are aggressive all the time but they never achieved a joyous exit from acting (because I see they are still acting). The reason is because they use their aggression to persecute others and therefore themselves. For example they use their aggression to forcefully stretch their syllables to be falsely nice, nasty, charming, seeing nothing wrong with it when it is stressful to themselves and listeners and they therefore do not experience any joy except faked joy from their aggression but instead they reap stress that drives them to further lash out until they become seized, driven blindly, helplessly to stretch their syllables.

They use their aggression to speak not just loudly and rapidly but explosively with rapidly accelerating and decelerating loudness and speech that persecutes others and themselves, strengthening the stress in themselves that drives them further to speak explosively or harshly. Watch people doing simple daily chores eg washing dishes and they never do them in a soothing manner but they do it with a forceful jerkiness. For instance, they flick a page explosively; they bang a lid loudly repetitively three times mindlessly when a single gentle press on the lid suffices to secure it.

Why Everyone Must Force Themselves Not To Go Against Themselves:
There are a lot of people, even those who call themselves good and intelligent who do not realize they are going against themselves all the time in what & how they say, do, think and perceive things. If you cannot see yourself going against yourself, creating unnecessary stress for yourself, nobody can help you.

If you have reasonable discernment, you can see how you are going against yourself, then in order to change, you must pay attention (right mindfulness) when you go against yourself (eg watch yourself forcefully stretching your syllables) and then apply force to force yourself not to stretch your syllables, not occasionally but in a concerted effort until a day will arrive when you will finally effortlessly (not need force to) not stretch your syllables because not stretching your syllables is passive, does not need force. No force is ever needed to not stretch syllables but you need force initially to counter your forceful urge to stretch syllables until that urge is extinct.

Nobody goes against themselves passively but initially, they are forced by others (parents, peers, society) apply force on themselves to go against themselves (eg to act instead of be themselves, to stretch their syllables to be nice). Gradually, they do not have to be forced by others, do not even have to forced by themselves but they are forced by strong emotions (pride, shame, ill will) and stress to helplessly go against themselves. Because they are no longer forcing themselves but forced by their emotions, they become deluded they are being themselves, themselves is doing or saying things forcefully that go against themselves.

It is the universal law that whoever is dwelling in sin (forcefully doing things that go against yourself is sin) must strive, must apply force in a sustained, unrelenting manner, must strive in a sustained manner to efface or wipe off gradually that force of going against themselves in order to exit sin and suffering. Without applying directed force in a sustained manner, you cannot exit acting (eg stretching syllables). If you apply force in a patchy manner, eg force yourself not to stretch syllables three times but allow yourself to involuntarily forcefully stretch your syllables ten times afterwards, you are not dedicated and have actually reinforced rather than reduced your force of going against yourself to stretch syllables.

It does not take force to not stretch your syllables because you are doing nothing by not stretching your syllables but it always takes force and energy to stretch your syllables that in time the habit energy to keep doing so is prodigious. Hence you must persistently, mindfully apply force to exhaust this habit energy to stretch syllables until it is exhausted and you effortlessly do not stretch your syllables because no force is required to do nothing.

And when you apply force to stop yourself going against yourself, that aggression is joyful because it reduces your stress but if you apply force or you are forced by emotions to stretch your syllables, that forcefulness is stressful because it hurts you.

This is the reason why I felt joyous being aggressive after I changed was because I was joyously applying force to stop myself going against myself whilst everybody else never experienced joy when they were aggressive because their aggressiveness is driven by ill will to persecute others and themselves.

Unless you are already a saint, you must apply directed force or aggression every time you lapse into sadness to extricate yourself from sadness, not by lashing out at others but by secluding yourself and focusing on that sad emotion in your mind to drive it out.
Unless you are a saint, you must apply force, aggression to stop yourself in the midst of your anger to immediately banish the anger such that with each occasion anger arises, you banish it faster until it ceases to arise.

Uninstructed ordinary people experience sadness of all grades in their daily lives that they do eventually manage to shrug off, but usually after a prolonged struggle and in a haphazard or uncertain manner. The reason (apart from their acting generating constant insoluble conflict that leads to despair and then sadness) is that ordinary people have a masochistic fascination with sadness, they think sadness is quite a harmless indulgence, if it is not too intense it can even be masochistically pleasurable when instead sadness is like alcohol, every moment you permit yourself to be detained by sadness, the more intense the sadness you feel, you are reinforcing your future capacity to experience sadness and the wise person will learn to spurn sadness as he would spurn the embrace of Dracula. Hence, when ordinary people are overcome by sadness, they prolong it, they stoke sadness with thoughts, music that enhance the sadness, they think over and over thoughts that maintain their sadness until it becomes unbearable and they then aggressively try to extricate themselves eg go to the gym or call a friend for a chat. In contradistinction, the noble person sees sadness as a viper and he does not welcome sadness in his mind and as soon s he detects sadness seeping in, he gives priority to get rid of it as soon as possible by excusing himself to meditate to calm his mind. He does not entertain thoughts that stoke his sadness.

Similarly when hatred, restlessness, conflict, jealousy, pretense, pride, fear, dazes, stretched syllables, etc arises in you, you must immediately apply force, aggression to drive them out until in future they become extinct.

This is what the Buddha called effacement, forcefully wiping off defilements in your mind until they disappear.

YOU COULD SAY THAT AFTER 1977 AND IN RECENT YEARS, I WAS PERSISTENTLY APPLYING FORCE IN A DISCRIMINATING NOT INDISCRIMINATE WAY TO EFFACE MYSELF, TO FORCEFULLY GET RID OF DEFILEMENTS, GETTING RID OF TORMENTING EMOTIONS UNTIL TODAY, I AM EFFORTLESSLY RID OF DEFILEMENTS, RID OF SUFFERING, SELDOM NEEDING TO APPLY FORCE TO STAY HAPPY AND CLEARLY THINKING.
JUST AS THE MORE TIMES, THE LONGER EACH TIME AND THE MORE FERVOR WITH WHICH YOU PLAY TENNIS, THE BETTER AND MORE RAPIDLY BETTER YOU GET AT PLAYING TENNIS, SIMILARLY THE MORE FREQUENT, THE LONGER AND MORE INTENSE YOU EXPERIENCE DEFILEMENTS (EG ANGER), THE MORE INTENSE & EASIER AROUSED WILL YOUR ANGER BE; THE MORE FREQUENT & MORE FORCEFUL YOU EFFACE YOUR ANGER THE MORE RAPID ANGER DISAPPEARS IN YOU. IT IS BECAUSE ORDINARY PEOPLE HAVE PRACTICED ANGER FOR SO LONG WITH SO MUCH INDULGENCE THAT THEY NOW NO LONGER HAVE TO FORCE THEMSELVES TO GET ANGRY BUT ANGER IS EXPLOSIVELY AROUSED IN THEM INTENSELY HELPLESSLY WHENEVER THEY ARE PROVOKED TO BE ANGRY. IF THEY DO NOT ELIMINATE ANGER BUT FOOLISHLY TRY TO CONTROL IT, THEIR ANGER WILL ONE DAY KILL THEM OR THEY WILL GO TO HELL.
EVERY MOMENT SPENT IN AND THE MORE INTENSE ONE FEELS ANGER, SADNESS, RESTLESSNESS, FEAR, GREED, LUST, PRIDE IS EVERY MOMENT’S REINFORCEMENT OF THEM, HENCE THE WISE PERSON WILL LEARN TO BE ALERT TO RECOGNIZE THEM AND GET RID OF THEM, REPLACE THEM WITH CALM CLARITY OF MIND UNTIL THIS IS A PERMANENT CONDITION, EVEN WHEN TALKING TO A PROVOCATIVE PERSON.

Setting Herself Up For Mind Bending Torment:

What she is doing, arcing her legs almost into an extreme overstretched U whilst jumping with stretched arms in an Olympic gymnastic routine, few people will be able to emulate. If they did, it would not be pleasurable but painful and if you are not careful, you can seriously injure yourself in the process. However, anyone who is willing to subject themselves to painful, arduous, repetitive practice under a coach will be able in time produce a reasonable facsimile of her act at a price: though you might derive some emotional satisfaction impressing others with your prowess, the mind and body warping tormenting force that MUST accompany this routine will be indelibly etched in your psyche.
She must have practiced to perfection this routine above, reflecting her grim determination to punish herself for material gains (always an act because it is forceful, exaggerated in force, range of movement and harms self) and now, because it is the ‘real thing’ the Olympics, she is pushing herself to the limits of forceful, contorting body and mental punishment. Jesus said what is exalted by men (as above) is an abomination in the sight of God. It is painful self-mortification and obscene to me.
Anyone who does what she is doing will be under intense body and mental contortions, warped and stressed to the limit, any mistake could result in grievous injury eg fall or tear muscles.
What she does not realize is that she has already bonded herself to future torment, a heavy price for material gains. There are strong mad forces in her mind that will subject herself and others to the severe punishment she is meting out to herself above. It is her force of self preservation that keeps her in control of her violent going herself at the moment. When this force of self preservation is breached either in situational crises or in old age, she will be driven relentlessly by brutal self punishing forces.
She does not push herself to these extremes usually. In the same way, many actors do not realize they harbor very potent, violent forces of going against themselves that are normally never fully manifest but has the potential when out of control to seize them in ‘unbelievable’ torment. In other words, ordinary people do not realize that as a result of lifelong acting that sometimes were passionate (they had expressed violent rages before), their engines of rage in the mind is like a Ferrari engine, usually only ticking over and lulling them to think it is a pussy cat when they have a ferocious tiger of rage in them that will one day tear themselves and others to bits. The fool tries to cohabit with his anger like keeping a viper in his house; the wise person learns to get rid of the viper of anger by stopping acting that generates rage and attentively forcefully erase anger every time it rises.

Bush Exposing Himself Again:
Quote: "I'm confident that over time this will work - I certainly hope it does," Bush said of the ongoing diplomacy with the Iran & N Korea to control nuclear weapons.
Comment: When you say you are confident, you are saying you are quite sure and to qualify that in the next breath that you certainly hope is contradicting yourself because if you are confident, you do not need to certainly (definitely) hope; on the other hand, if you are not quite confident then you certainly (definitely) hope it works. The actor’s mentality and that of his like-minded audience is to be impressed by form rather than substance, how it is said rather than what is said. He and the audience get so carried away to be impressed with the form of what is said because it is emphatic (‘confident’ qualified by ‘certainly hope’ are impressive) when logical analysis indicates it is impressive nonsense and contradictory. It is, to imitate current lingo, good for ‘sound bites’ but bad for truth.

Has anybody any right to tell others (at risk of misleading them and therefore lying) that he is confident instead of just hopeful regarding matters not entirely in their control, dependent on the whims of opponents eg nuclear disarmament? Or is his real message to trust him as a competent leader?

The Devil Does His Work On Idle Hands:
In the past everyone’s hands were tied up with oppressive stress to take issue with others but today, ‘paradoxically’ with the lessening of pervasive stress in everyone to a degree dependent on how aggressively he still acts (act more suffer more, act little suffer little, act no more suffer no more), their hands are freer to do mischief or destructive violence that previously their constrained hands prevented.
Because everyone today has changed again compared to say 5 years ago, they are more subdued, less rabidly acting, smile less, they have experienced a appreciable reduction of stress, but because they continue to act, they still have great internal capacity for violence or aggression or emotions which is why, when provoked, they may blow their top more easily than in the past to vent it unrestrained. Further, with present consciousness change, they are likely to be able to see the provocations of others more clearly and thus feeling justified, they retaliate violently at their tormentors whilst disregarding their own follies.
Everyone, including the most evil ones has changed and the foolish may be lulled to think they have now changed for the good when they are still tough goats. Remember the Buddha said you must be tamed not wild; you must balance a pot brimful of oil between a milling crowd and a singing beauty queen and if you spill just a drop, your head will be cut off right there. In the same vein Jesus those who will save their lives must carry their crosses and go with him. Can you be carrying your cross and going if you are attached to your parents, children, friends, your likes and dislikes and favorite beliefs? Kid yourself and you may be consigning yourself in delusion to the rubbish heap of eternity. Going to heaven may be as simple as letting your yes be yes only but to one discerning, few can truly let their yes be yes only but they must always do or say more, smile and stretch their syllables to impress others. Many people do not realize they are emotionally and exquisitely nice, not good and niceness is poisonous for one who sees.
Student kills brother after being scolded for smoking
IPOH: A Form Three boy killed his 19-year-old brother after he scolded the boy for smoking.
The Form Three boy stabbed his elder brother in the neck outside their home in Taman Mas, Chemor, at 10.30pm on Wednesday.
Where Do The Hordes Come From?
The Buddha said that we have been transmigrating, not only for this age that is coming to a close but for many eons such that there is hardly anyone who has not been your father, mother, sibling or children. Jesus said not a dot will pass from the law, which indicates that everything however minute is significant and if you consider when a fish spawns there are millions of eggs and each hatching is its offspring and siblings to each other, then what the Buddha said that hardly anyone exists who has not been a father or mother to you.
There are more than 6 billions humans on earth now. Since the Buddha said we have all be transmigrating for many eons, these new humans are unlikely to be newly created souls, are unlikely to have come from heaven but they are likely to be reborn from the animal, ghost and hell realms and beings being intransigent, it explains why the vast majority of beings living today are recalcitrant, hell bent on acting and returning to the furnace of torment.

Joyous & Joyless Aggression:

Joyous & Joyless Aggression:
The joyous consciousness state that I experienced in 1977 was essentially because of my newfound aggressiveness. When I was quite sure I had changed irrevocably to become assured & fearless, I was not kidding myself I had changed, I knew with quiet assurance it was an unimaginable breakthrough, a consciousness state that nobody before could have experienced, like a form of enlightenment or awakening of the consciousness or blissful permanent, not a temporary release from suffering like from drug or alcohol.

Although I had qualms about being aggressive, about my newfound aggressiveness, I asked myself why is it that even though there are so many aggressive people throughout the ages and now; how come they never stumbled on this joyful quantum consciousness leap? How is it that when I became aggressive, it was as if a door opened in my mind but other aggressive people never experienced the same breakthrough state when they are habitually aggressive? Surely, in all the incidents of aggressions, there must be one instance where they must have tasted this unheard joy and pursuing it, break through mental barriers to discover this state of the mind I discovered? I could not explain why then.

Now I understand why. Although aggression is ultimately stressful and harmful to both self and others, my newfound aggression was directed against the force of going against myself to act weak and dependant. It was directed at being forcefully myself, being true to myself and others and being truly good instead of acting good. This was the reason it was joyous because it was breaking the shackles of falsehood, inhibition, pretense and manipulation of others.

When ordinary people throughout the ages and even today were aggressive, they were lashing out at others, manipulating and harming others and themselves, reinforcing their force of going against themselves in the name of deceiving, pleasing, impressing, intimidating and dominating others which was why they never experienced a joyous release of their consciousness but instead every time they expressed aggression, either physically through speech or deed or mentally, their aggression only strengthened their bonds to suffering that again drove them to lash out hatefully. The more they suffered, the more they lashed out negatively until the way out of their agony is no longer visible.

AGAIN, THAT AGGRESSIVE PEOPLE THROUGHOUT THE AGES NEVER ACHIEVED THIS REVOLUNTIONARY JOYOUS PERMANENT BREAKTHROUGH AND TRANSFORMATION OF THEIR CONSCIOUSNESS DESPITE BEING HABITUALLY AGGRESSIVE WHILST I ACHIEVED THIS BREAKTHROUGH THE MOMENT I BECAME AGGRESSIVE SUGGESTS THERE MAY BE SOMETHING UNIQUE IN MY PSYCHE THAT PERMITTED THAT AND THERE MAY BE A FUNDAMENTAL DIFFERENCE IN MY AGGRESSION AS COMPARED TO ALL OTHERS.

The reason I felt joy and changed permanently was because my newfound aggression was directed at countering my internal force of going against myself in me. When I was forceful or aggressive, it was not blind, lashing out force but directed force to forcefully be true according to how I know how to be true (perhaps there is no truth in others, only pretense or acted truth), force directed at being true to myself and others and unknown to me then, I was wearing down the internal force of going against myself until it disappeared and because there was no longer any negative force to oppose, I became effortlessly serene, without restlessness either at rest or in whatever I said or did.

When you are incarcerated by strong forces to go against yourself to act weak, fearful to appease others, you have to use force or aggressiveness to overcome them and because these forces are finite, once exhausted, no force is required not to go against oneself thereby I experienced an effortless calm.

AGGRESIVENESS IS NEVER JUSTIFIED AND IS ONLY AN UNAVOIDABLE EXPEDIENT THAT IS ACCOMPANIED BY JOY IN THE VIRTUOUS AS HE GRAVITATES FROM HIS STRESSFUL EXISTING STATE OF NOT LETTING HIS YES BE YES ONLY (EG STRETCHING SYLLABLES) TO EFFORTLESS FUTURE LETTING HIS YES BE YES ONLY (EG NOT STRETCHING SYLLABLES). AS SOON AS HE ATTAINS THIS NEW SINLESS STATE, NO AGGRESSION IS FURTHER REQUIRED AND HE IS EFFORTLESSLY NOT AGGRESSIVE ANYMORE. HYPOCRITES MAY PREACH TOTAL NON VIOLENCE BUT BECAUSE THEY REMAIN ACTORS, THERE MUST BE REPRESSED AGGRESSION THAT THEY STRUGGLE TO HIDE BUT MUST BE EXPRESSED SOMEHOW INDIRECTLY.

This Would Not Be Possible:
Whilst others may obfuscate or deny or rubbish that there was any significant consciousness change after 1977 or in recent years either because they are deluded, grossly unperceiving or pretentious (lying), there are irrefutable PERMANENT consciousness changes I detect in myself after 1977 and in recent years again.

(If there was a significant change and you deny, rubbish or cannot perceive it, then you are destined in your blindness to return here to suffer again; not necessarily as humans)

If I had not changed after 1977, I would not be writing this, nor will the thoughts I now convey occur in my mind because it was preoccupied by neurotic mundane thoughts. I would instead be still wracked today by insufferable stress, restlessness, conflict, insecurity and silly insoluble irrational worries about coping with meeting people.

In those days I was always tense, always or easily becoming nervous and just the anticipation of meeting others would cause great nervousness that I struggled to contain and not expose in the presence of others and haunted me afterwards. I had a debilitating phobia of greeting people (introducing myself and shaking hands and uttering niceties or formalities) and saying farewells eg saying goodbye to the host and his family after a social dinner. I would twitch and tremble almost uncontrollably on such occasions especially if I was detained by the host in prolonged goodbye chitchat and wondered why I could not be like so many others who seem so confident and not to be troubled by social banter or meeting others.

Nowadays, it is IMPOSSIBLE that I would not be able to stand my own ground in the presence of anyone because I am effortlessly being myself, would not force myself to go against myself to kowtow to smile and say silly nonsense to please others.

Although I believed so then, it was not that there was something wrong with me, I was a social misfit or schizophrenic that I found such apparently simple tasks like meeting others and social banter so nerve wracking but it is because such activities are always intrinsically seriously stressful, even mind bending to ANYONE who indulges but most others are tough enough to fake as if they enjoy what is in truth not harmless, enjoyable small talk but grave stress and sin.

The Buddha said idle chatter and telling lies lead to hell or the animal womb. The reason why I was so nervous then in those situations may be because somehow inside, I knew idle chatter is not harmless but sends one even to hell. I was only consciously forcing myself to be nice to others whereas others have graduated to automatically forced by urges to be nice, an act that will consign them to perdition they do not realize or refuse to believe. I was hesitantly, consciously forcing myself to be nice to others creating tension and nervousness that I became painfully aware and as time progressed, it increasingly undermined my social confidence. Others, even those who call themselves good had no such qualms about uttering niceties they don’t mean or forcefully believe they do mean it, just to get on in life.

Nowadays I do not fear meeting others, those situations involving greeting and bidding goodbye do not make me nervous because I am true to myself, there is no force in me to put on a show for others and when there is no show, there is no nervousness, no show that can break down. When there are no smiles, there are no smiles to break down into twitches.

BEFORE 1977 I FELT LIKE THE MAN ON DEATH ROW WAITING IN GREAT ANXIETY FOR THE HANGMAN TO COME. AFTER 1977, IT WAS LIKE I WAS NOT ONLY MIRACULOUSLY REPRIEVED BUT TRANSPORTED TO A GARDEN OF JOY I NEVER DREAMT POSSIBLE.

How many ordinary people can bring themselves to admit, let alone speak about their inadequacies and insecurities? There may be serious emotional blocks and denial that do not permit them to speak thus and they are kidding themselves if they think they are as devoted to truth as I am. What they do not realize is that this pretense may detain them in this world in the Age to come.

Addendum: Why The Change Benefited Everyone:
Because the consciousness change benefited me, it must also benefit all those who changed in some way and the fact that everyone changed swiftly (though they still acted) reflects the indisputable or undeniable advantage it conferred, otherwise why change and why change so hastily?

Even if ordinary people have never and may never exit acting, they all benefited as a result of the change in 1977 and in recent years by experiencing a reduction the intensity of their acting and a measure of sobriety. It is IMPOSSIBLE that ordinary people could attain the same release of their awareness through goodwill that I experience today because they never abandoned acting but they will ALL have experienced some amelioration from previous levels of stress.

If everyone was happy before the 1977 change, how come everyone turned nasty, were seized to snarl just on sight of me who was not provocative but quietly being my effortlessly calm, changed self in 1978? The fact that everyone, including those who acted as if they were happy and well adjusted, those who professed to be good, children and pretty girls all scowled and turned nasty indicate they were ALL (not some) not happy, only FAKING it to deceive others and when they saw a truly effortlessly happy man, they were all convulsed to tear at their own mental shackles they were previously unaware.

It is because they were in truth not happy but instead they were all faking so, acting under great tension and mental warp-ness created by their acting that the mere sight of me being effortlessly serene, worry free and quietly not putting on a show unlike them seized them with irrepressible jealousy and violence to similarly thrash the invisible mental constraints in their minds aimed at similarly liberating themselves.
I observed that despite scowling murderously, they immediately afterwards burst into delighted animated laughter and uninhibited greetings of fellow goats suggests they felt better after involuntarily displaying their scowling aggression. This indicates that this display of aggression by others on seeing me had a fundamental difference from the umpteen times they were aggressive in the past: it brought TRUE joy in their being. I saw that people were going about with ‘greater sense of purpose’, greater spontaneity after turning nasty.
This is the reason why I knew everyone was changing because in my serene unobtrusive presence, even petite girls would suddenly get uncharacteristically aggressive, their faces darkened with anger but they then suddenly burst into joyful greeting or exuberance that must indicate that the aggressiveness they displayed was attacking something in their minds that created happiness, as if a liberation of their consciousness.

HENCE I COULD REPEATEDLY SEE IN 1978 THAT DESPITE THE NASTY LOOKS OF PEOPLE EVERYWHERE AS IF THEY MIGHT ASSAULT ME FOR NO REASON, THEY AFTERWARDS BECAME EXUBERANT, UNINHIBITED AS IF A WONDERFUL CHANGE HAD COME UPON THEM INDICATED TO ME WITHOUT A DOUBT I WAS TRIGGERING A CONSCIOUSNESS CHANGE IN PEOPLE THAT BENEFITED THEM.

Therefore, the reasons why the consciousness change in 1977 benefited everyone are:
1) People do not change themselves unless change benefits them and because everyone changed swiftly by knock on effect, the incentive or benefit for change must be irresistible, like a person forced to live in a putrid lavatory given a glimpse of a world outside without foul smells previously unknown to them.
2) I experience a wonderful release from suffering as a result of the change and even though people have not exited acting like I did, they will still have experienced an appreciably amelioration of their previous suffering by turning down the volume and pace of their acting.
3) The uniformly hate filled agitated reactions I got everywhere, even by people who were supposedly good or happy when they saw me in my serene state suggests that they were held in suffering, not happy and the sight of me stirred uncontrollable violence. Nowadays I am passive, not violent. Anyone with violence in them that can be stirred cannot be truly happy but faking so. Hence the change benefited everyone.
4) There are many anecdotal stories that the rich and famous were in truth tormented to the point of suicide and subsequent to 1977 I could see through the ways people behaved prior to 1977 to see that they were all suffering, no one was genuinely happy but they were all putting on brave faces.

Why & How People Are More Explosive Today:
People nowadays are more subdued, less indiscriminately expressing themselves (eg smiles and grimaces) all the time as they were a few years ago, but nowadays people are more direct, more easily provoked and when provoked they may blow up to the point of homicide.

This is a reflection of further consciousness changes recently affecting everyone that enabled them, though still stubbornly acting, to experience less stress.

People everywhere today appear more subdued, they do not smile rabidly or talk or do things so stressfully demonstrative all the time like they did in the past, and they are more DIRECT.
It is hard to put in words, exactly what the change is but it may essentially be that people are more mindful, more circumspect, less constantly restlessly, somnolently acting, shrouded in stress that kept them ‘drugged’ but though more sober, their speech and actions are nowadays more explosive, impulsive or stabbing. Listen to people talk, even those who are supposed to be quite good and there is detectable explosiveness in their speech. Explosiveness is the unnecessary, stressful rapid acceleration and then deceleration of loudness and speed of speech that makes it harsh. In the past, people’s speech was monotonously, grindingly, INDIRECTLY harsh but today people’s speech are explosively or stabbingly of DIRECTLY harsh. This is also manifest in how people do things. If you can recollect the thunderous room shaking soundtrack that accompanies movies and TV shows, it is not so much the equipment that causes its explosiveness but the deliberately explosive, sudden changes in loudness and speed of sounds that cause it to stress the listener.

The reason why people are more explosive today may be because they now experience a lower usual level of stress but their anger or violence is still inside because they can never be good, like there is a volcano in them but it is now spewing out less, but when provoked beyond their threshold of tolerance, this volcano will explode more violently to vent unrestrained completely the considerable anger hidden inside them.

Another reason may be in the past, experiencing higher constant levels of baseline stress, they are more usually exhausted, suffering enough in their own private worlds to be explosive. It is like a man with a sack of bricks on his back, enough self troubles to look for fights unnecessarily with others. Now, it is as if they have been freed from their loads, they have more room to express their pent up violence, they are less enervated or exhausted by their previously high baseline stress to be subdued not to attack their tormentors.

With the recent changes in their consciousness, people may see clearly others are provoking them and are less likely to blame themselves wrongly for provocations that issue from others and feeling aggrieved they therefore retaliate violently.

For instance, recently a motorist who was at fault ran over a female motorist who was making a call summoning relatives. In the past, he may have been restrained by inhibitions and stress, he may not perceive her behavior as provocative but nowadays, he can see she is trying to intimidate him by making a phone call in his full view and so enraged, he may have initially have intended to drive off in a manner as if to knock her down but during the act, his rage so consumed him he ran her over instead of just missing her.
EVERYONE HAS CHANGED TODAY AS COMPARED TO A FEW YEARS AGO AND THE FOOL MAY THINK HE IS HEADING FOR HEAVEN. SO LONG AS ONE CONTINUES TO ACT (SMILE, STRETCH SYLLABLES), SO LONG WILL ONE HARBOR VIOLENCE THAT CAN ONLY BE CONTROLLED. IF IT IS SO SIMPLE TO STOP ACTING, HOW COME A LOT OF PEOPLE DON’T EVEN REALIZE THEY STRETCH THEIR SYLLABLES ALL THE TIME, LET ALON STOPPING IT. ANYONE WHO ACTS HARBORS VIOLENCE AND NO MATTER HOW HE STRIVES TO CONTROL IT, IT IS LIKE A VIPER INSIDE THAT WILL ONE DAY FATALLY BITE HIMSELF OR OTHERS, HE MAY BE A FOOL TO THINK HE IS GOING TO HEAVEN BUT HE MAY BE GOING TO ETERNAL PUNISHMENT.
Why I Am Also The Trigger Of Recent Changes:
There have been further, unmistakable consciousness changes in EVERYONE over the past few years even though they still act. It did not strike me immediately but I arrived at this conclusion gradually long after everyone again began when it became increasingly obvious to me that in tandem with permanent positive changes I felt in me, people’s appearances and behavior everywhere too were also changing positively.

Again, I may be or am the trigger behind this. Why is that?

Firstly, there have been further unmistakable changes in myself over the past years (about 1997 onwards) as a result of my improving perception of how the considerable stress I experienced daily is related to my own & others’ behavior impacting on me and how these behaviors were not natural but exaggerated and faked. I began to see that people were acting, not being themselves, they were nice, not good and how niceness was sugar laced poison. I gradually refined and defined for myself and those who received my E Mails what acting is and how people acted until finally I could see that not just some people were acting but everyone was acting, not for some of the time but all the time and how acting was ALWAYS driven by emotions and stress to forcefully go against oneself to exaggerate and fake whatever and how one says, does, thinks and perceives in manner that has to be forcefully controlled (in order not to kill oneself immediately) creating insoluble stress, restlessness, violent urges and depression in the name of deceiving, pleasing, impressing, intimidating and dominating others. As a result of my insights which I mindfully and persistently put into clearly comprehending practice I gradually stopped acting to experience a drastic reduction in intrinsic stress, restlessness, doubt and uncertainty, mad and violent impulses and depression. These changes in me is visible to those who interact with me and must have rubbed off partially on them and it also must have influenced those who read my innumerable E Mails.

It did not occur to me immediately but it gradually dawned on me with increasing certainty after repeated verifications that visible by their appearances and behavior, everyone (not just some) was again changing just as they did after 1977, not just locally but globally, even though they still continue to act. (I berated my brother for acting but gradually I could see that though he was still acting, there were perceptibly changes in his appearance and behavior)

Those who have read what I wrote over the years may acknowledge that they have changed as a result of reading what I wrote. In that case, I am DIRECTLY responsible for causing their change. The changes that are evident to themselves will also be reflected in their appearances and how they comport themselves to those who interact with them and therefore influence them indirectly.

Hence, even though the vast majority of people have not seen me, have not read what I have said, by contagion effect as after 1977, they have all been transformed permanently to become more subdued, more direct today, even though they still act and may have no clue why they are changing because they are changing because everyone around has changed in a way that would be clearly advantageous to them, so they too changed themselves hastily.

Hence, today as in 1977 I was the trigger of changes that have spread around the world because I changed myself unmistakably first, I then influenced others by what I wrote about acting and many other things and by knock on or contagion effect of people changed by me changing others.

Jesus: "You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hid. Nor do men light a lamp and put it under a bushel, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.

There may be those who accuse me of conceit and self exaltation dwelling on such matters but if it is said matter of fact without emotion or pride and true, it is not boasting but because the reader is himself a show off, he projects his tendencies on me. If what I have done is like a lamp that illuminates the darkness for others, surely I do not hide the lamp under a bushel but I put it on a stand where all may see and benefit.

Jesus: "Think not that I have come to abolish the law and the prophets; I have come not to abolish them but to fulfill them (as proof that the law & the prophets are correct). For truly, I say to you, till heaven and earth pass away, not an iota, not a dot, will pass from the law (dharma according to the Buddha) until all is accomplished (so long as there is existence, heaven and earth, the law shall prevail in its entirety without compromise). Whoever then relaxes one of the least of these commandments and teaches men so, shall be called least in the kingdom of heaven; but he who does them and teaches them shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven. For I tell you, unless your righteousness exceeds that of the scribes and Pharisees (the present day scribes is by & large the church establishment, hence do not accept what scribes say uncritically, you’ve heard of abuses by priests and see that church services are inflexible, ritualistic & encourages others to be ritualistic, a lower fetter to states of woe, the Buddha said. Do not be in awe of what priests tell you but rather examine and decide for yourself what is good), you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.

"You have heard that it was said to the men of old, 'You shall not kill; and whoever kills shall be liable to judgment.' But I say to you that every one who is angry with his brother shall be liable to judgment; whoever insults his brother shall be liable to the council, and whoever says, 'You fool!' shall be liable to the hell of fire (The Buddha said anger and harsh speech leads to hell or the animal womb). So if you are offering your gift at the altar, and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there before the altar and go; first be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift. 25* Make friends quickly with your accuser, while you are going with him to court, lest your accuser hand you over to the judge, and the judge to the guard, and you be put in prison; 26 truly, I say to you, you will never get out till you have paid the last penny.

Dazes, Forceful & Effortless Concentration:

Dazes are always acted states of the mind and like acting, can be initially consciously intended eg to impress fans above progressing to involuntarily intended to finally, the fool does not realize become madly unintended.
When he first started, he probably learned to puff himself up after scoring a goal in an act intended to incite fans to get carried away to celebrate and emotionally worship him. Because such emotional celebration creates stress and restlessness in fans, he is creating karma for himself. He is now probably no longer forcing himself to but forced by strong habit and emotion to repeat his antics every time he scores.

The emotions of the occasion and forcing may be quite intense such that he is lapsing into an intense daze that he must and can still extricate himself to return to reality and rejoin the match. What he does not realize is that by frequently repeating this after he scores goals, he is making it easier for him to lapse into dazes that will become more intense, prolonged and difficult to pull himself out. When he is old or hit by a crisis (loss of all his money) he may fall into a daze he will never recover like patients in mental hospitals who can stand still and stare for hours.

Many people intentionally put themselves into (forceful) dazes for selfish purposes not realizing that dazes are addictive and will become more intense, frequent and harder to exit. When they get old they may lapse into frequent prolonged dazes or when there is an overwhelming emotional event, eg bereavement, they may lapse into a daze that will be hard for them to pull themselves out. You probably have seen actors who are stunned at the death of their loved ones. Such states are never pleasurable but painful and due to foolish cultivation by deceitful people.

As the Buddha said, the ordinary person has suffering as vast as an ocean due to him. They are constantly creating by their actions tormenting mental states that will haunt them in the future.

IF YOU ARE ACTOR, YOU WILL CATCH YOURSELF FALLING INTO PRIVATE DAZES ENTERTAINING FANTASIES AND IF YOU ARE WISE, YOU WILL STOP YOUR INDULGENCE AND QUICKLY EXTRICATE YOURSELF TO RETURN TO REALITY BECAUSE SUCH DAZES ARE REINFORCING AND WILL SEIZE YOU MOURNFULLY LATER WHEN IN OLD AGE OR STRICKEN BY A SITUATION CRISIS EG YOUR SON IS KILLED, YOU WILL BE SEIZED BY GRIEF YOU CANNOT EXIT.

If you were to smile and keep smiling or laugh & keep laughing, you may notice yourself lapsing into an unseeing or groggy daze. Many people get so absorbed (in a daze) watching a movie or sports program they lose touch with reality, what someone is saying to them. Nick Faldo, former world golf number one so annoyed his now divorced wife by lapsing into dazes in their sitting room, she said she had to throw a shoe at him to get his attention.

Many actors not only fall into a daze, they have become good at falling into a daze at will and they prolong their dazes not realizing that they are setting a trap for themselves that they may never exit in the future.
When your concentration is forceful, it is stressful acted concentration for selfish purposes, eg golfer’s concentration to beat opponents. Noble concentration is effortless, settles in passively like a glass of turbid water becomes clear on standing.

Correct meditation is not a daze because it is not forceful but passive and the meditator is at least initially in touch with his environment and imbued with a calm clarity freed of any restlessness. If this is a daze, then as Bush would say, “Bring it on” because it is wonderful to be able to sit still in permanent effortless clearly thinking bliss.

Why The Change Benefited Everyone:

Why The Change Benefited Everyone:
Even though ordinary people constantly go against themselves to create stress or disadvantage for themselves, going against themselves is never without purpose or self benefit but it is ALWAYS intended foolishly for self gain, for short sighted self gratifications. Even though people are evil, feckless, they do not want to suffer anymore than they need too, but because they must be evil, they must continue to suffer.
Hence unless something benefits them, is to their advantage (as Jesus said) people will not change themselves. Unless something clearly benefits them, is instantly recognizable as beneficial, they will not change swiftly en masse.
Why change if you are happy in the state as you are and that change offers you no benefit? That everyone, not just some swiftly changed themselves after 1977 and again in recent years, without having to see me or listen to what I have said implies they can sense the change in me & others around them and they are seized immediately to forcefully change because they do not want to suffer in their current condition.
I certainly derived unmistakable, previously unimaginable benefits ensuing from the change in 1977 and now in recent years and though it is impossible that ordinary people will experience the full extent of the effortlessly calm and clear mental and bodily state I experience, they are likely or must derive similar but lesser benefit from the changes (why should the same change give me benefit but suffering in all others?) that is only limited by the wickedness in still forcefully going against themselves to manipulate others.
There is collaborating evidence that this is the case because I can see now in retrospect as I couldn’t before 1977 that EVERYONE, not just some were suffering in mind warping fashion before 1977 and they were only putting on a (cruel) show that they were enjoying themselves. Previously I was under the delusion that there were many who enjoyed themselves and were well adjusted whilst I was unhappy and ill adjusted but after the change I could see they were all faking it to get along. There is ample evidence from the lives of celebrities (Marilyn, Elvis, Natalie Wood, James Dean, Brando, Howard Hughes) that behind the scenes they were tormented and quite eager to kill themselves. After the changes, although still suffering, people were visibly more ‘liberated’, less inhibited.
Jesus: Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground without your Father's will. Even the hairs of your head are all numbered.
If you agree there was a clear consciousness change after 1977 and again in recent years that benefited you (and everyone as I see), and considering that Jesus said above that not one sparrow will fall to the ground without your Father’s will and even the hairs of your head are ALL numbered, is it possible that this global change I triggered in 1977 and again recently, caught your Father by surprise, was an accident or was it in the full knowledge of the Father and even intended for Jesus also said:
Nevertheless I tell you the truth: it is to your advantage (the counselor must DEFINTELY bring you advantage) that I go away, for if I do not go away, the Counselor will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you. And when he comes, he will convince the world concerning sin and righteousness and judgment: concerning sin, because they do not believe in me; concerning righteousness, because I go to the Father, and you will see me no more; concerning judgment, because the ruler of this world is judged.
If the initial consciousness change in 1977 was a mere accidental occurrence, it must a series of sheer coincidences that the person who triggered that change then triggered further changes again recently, he exited sinful, stressful acting not once but three times whilst the rest of humanity have not exited acting, even those who profess to be good and intelligent who have been told in no uncertain terms, he is not only intelligent but articulate, able to work out and present in its entirety what is meant by acting and how people stressfully act and furthermore, he happens to be upright, a man of truth not only conversant in spiritual matters but he has illuminated what the Buddha and Jesus said in a way no man has ever done before or now?
Jesus appeared to hint about a future consciousness change:
"I have yet many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth; for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak, and he will declare to you the things that are to come.”
The Requisite Right Resolve:
Right Resolve is one of the eight factors of the Noble Eightfold Path and once you have made the right resolve, you must carry it out mindfully (right mindfulness or attention, another factor) by right conduct & right speech.

I still recall the resolves I made as a troubled person under provocation in 1977 that irreversibly set in motion the consciousness changes that followed.

My original resolves: A determination never again to be pushed around to behave in a weak and dishonest manner to please or placate others but instead I shall thenceforth be myself, love myself, refuse to suffer, I will stand no nonsense from others, whoever they are, I will decide what is right and true for myself, I shall thenceforth be true to myself and others. I felt that people everywhere are putting on a show, dishonest but I will not follow suit.

Is any ordinary person capable of truly, not hypocritically or lip service making the above resolves that may be essential prerequisites for initiating that consciousness change? Ordinary people, no matter how wholesome they want to believe themselves to be, being tough and stubborn are only too willing to play along to please or impress others, to chin up and soak up nonsense from others (or pretend as realistically as possible they really do appreciate) whilst they themselves slyly worked undercover to manipulate others to get what they want.
I am not uncharitable but have repeatedly gravely underestimated human intransigence:
I am actually not uncharitable in opinion about people but they have repeatedly surprised me with their intransigence not to exit stressful, self harming acting despite changes after changes and having been told so.
In my newfound optimism (but blithe ignorance) immediately after I changed, I thought I could spread the gospel, impart this wonderful change that befell me to those around me by talking to them about how to be assertive, how to assertively shed their inhibitions and will themselves to be happy only to be rewarded barely a year later with everyone turning nasty on me like snarling cats on sight when I became involuntarily totally relaxed.
Then I saw that everyone despite all the bared fangs and violent agitation that occurred even in those who were supposed to be good, they were all changing and I suspected that just like me, they will all drop off in a year’s time to become totally relaxed and perhaps the world will come to an end because there will nothing to fight about. When the year end arrived, I was mighty disappointed when despite changes people were just as tough as they have ever been and nobody has exited acting even more than 2 decades after.
If you give the excuse that they did not exit stressful and sinful acting because they did not know, they were not told, then even today, after it has been described in no uncertain terms in its entirety what is acting and how people act, even those who are supposed to be good, who are supposed to be intelligent, who rub shoulders with me daily, nevertheless somnolently continue to be nice in their more discreet ways they think they are being themselves and good.
Not Letting Others Let Their Yes Be Yes Only:
WHEN YOU DO NOT LET YOUR YES BE YES ONLY, YOU ALSO CANNOT LET OTHERS LET THEIR YES BE YES ONLY.
AFTER I HAVE SAID THAT NOWADAYS I DO NOT NEED TO GO TO THE DRIVING RANGE OR TENNIS COURT TO EXERCISE, IT IS LIKELY OR A DISTINCT POSSIBILITY I IMPLY I DO NOT NEED TO KEEP FIT, SO TO ASK, “THEN HOW DO YOU KEEP FIT?” IS NOT BEING GOOD BUT NICE TO ME, IT IS UNNECESSARILY EXPRESSING RESERVATIONS OR DOUBTS ABOUT WHAT I SAID, ASKING ME TO RECONSIDER WHAT I HAVE SAID, NOT LETTING ME LET MY YES BE YES ONLY & PESTERING ME BECAUSE I HAVE TO THINK AND COMPOSE A REPLY.

When I told an acquaintance that nowadays I do not need to go to the driving range or tennis court to exercise, he did not realize he was casting doubt or hesitancy in me (one of 3 lower fetters leading to states of future woe) and not letting me let my yes be yes only by saying ‘Then how do you keep fit?”

When I said, “I don’t need to go to the driving range to exercise” a pertinent or reasonable supposition is that I do not need to exercise and therefore keep fit, hence to question me further, “Then how do you keep fit” is to (mischievously) express doubt or reservations what I said cannot be totally true, implying “Even though you say you don’t need to go to tennis courts for exercise, I still think you need to keep fit, how do you keep fit then?” Is it idle curiosity or essential to know how I otherwise keep fit or is the question LOADED, with possibly hidden antagonism?
If you are nice to others, whether you are aware or not, there MUST be hidden nastiness in you because you are going against yourself to please others, there must be an urge to lash out that is often so well camouflaged behind a smile and whispered gentleness the person himself insists he meant no malice, you must be mistaken, you are sensitive (adding insult to injury). To reflect how close to future insanity actors are, often many do not or cannot see there is hidden venom in their jokes or sarcasms or softly spoken words. They insist they are only jesting or swear they never intended any slights, it must be their poor command of English. Any perceived slight must have been unintended.

Many people have this misguided notion that they are good or friendly if they show interest in others by asking them questions about them when instead everyone who asks questions, especially if they have to be forced, must stress himself to fabricate and then ask the question and it then troubles the other person to think and present an answer. Hence the wise person will only ask questions when it is essential and then ask in an unemotional, un-anxious and un-forceful manner so ask not to stress himself and the other. Fabricating questions to ask have usually become so slick in actors think they are not cognizant it is forced, they are forcing themselves but if a question is asked with a beginning jerk or spurt, with stretched syllables and end with a quizzical emphasis eg an accelerated ‘then’ followed by ‘how do you keep fittt????’ betrays it as forced, not passively genuine.
Further, by asking ‘then how do you keep fit’, he is implying that everyone including me must keep fit, so how do you keep fit? This presumptuous because even though most people may keep fit, it does not follow that I or everyone must keep fit. When you must do something, eg keep fit, then keeping fit will become a ritual or an act. People who keep fit do not realize they are subscribing to a fairly rigid ritual (faith in rituals and precept, one of three lower fetters to states of woe) that become addictive so that in time they cannot do without keeping fit, an impulse that may haunt them in old age.

In the past, because I was constantly forcing myself to act like the rest, I rapidly built up stress and restlessness daily so that I had to let off some steam daily by bashing golf or tennis balls such that I would get annoyed if it rained or was too hot for me to perform my ritual. Usually for a short period afterwards I felt (forcefully) refreshed but very soon stress would return as a result of interactions with others and my emotional expressions.
Nowadays, because I do not act, do not stretch my syllables or smile but passively say or do things without emotions, there is genuinely no need for me to bash balls. A few years ago I had said to myself that I was so addicted to tennis or golf it will be impossible for me to give them up but I now do not have any urge or need to pick up a racket or club. People are incredulous but now that I am passive, unemotional, do not forcefully go against myself in a forcefully controlled way, whatever stress I experience is external and even that I can increasingly tune out (eg when people spit venomously even next to me, I do not flinch, do not force myself not to get upset but I am passively or effortlessly not upset). Hence the answer to the question, ‘then how do you keep fit’ is that I do not keep fit or need to keep fit. I have put on a little weight but I am not aware of being lacking in fitness.
Further, though people may not realize, anyone who will keep fit is manifesting self identity views because if you were not preoccupied with yourself, with preserving your body, you will not bother to regularly keep fit, which does not mean you must neglect or abuse your body. If you are a non actor you can probably keep your body fitter without keeping fit than the actor ritualistically keeping fit.
Apart from being an indication of subscription to self identity view (one of three lower fetters to states of woe) the need to keep fit indicates the person is beset by stress, an actor who is not master of himself but driven inexorably by daily stress to keep fit to stay afloat.

Jesus: "Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?”
If you are not anxious about your life, what you shall eat or drink or about your body” how is it that you are concerned about keeping fit. If you say you are not anxious about your body but it is stress that drives you to keep fit, then you are admitting you are a slave of stress.
What Jesus said above corresponds to what the Buddha said concerning self identity views as a lower fetter leading to states of woe. If you have no self identity views, no attachment to your body or self (that does not mean self mortification), how can you be anxious for your life, what you shall eat, about your body?
Colored Perception:
Actors do not realize that everything they perceive is tainted or tampered, in line with their forceful acting. They are like the man wearing permanent sunglasses who thinks everyone sees the world like them when if they could take down their sunglasses, take down their acting, they will realize the view without sunglasses is incomparably superior; colors are more faithfully rendered and they can see more detail.
Hence when they read Jesus say, “"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life”, they automatically read it mentally as “tTHEerefFOore Aiee tTELLll yYOUUuu,(dramatic pause), dDDOOoo nNNOtt bBEEe …” and think Jesus is nice just like them.

THE SIN & DANGERS OF ASKING TOO MANY QUESTIONS:
MANY PEOPLE THINK NOTHING, EVEN THINK THEY ARE GOOD OR FRIENDLY IF THEY EAGERLY (OR FORCE THEMSELVES TO) ASK OTHERS QUESTIONS NOT REALIZING THAT ANY QUESTION MUST FORCE THE PERSON TO STRESSFULLY THINK AND COMPOSE AN ANSWER AND EVEN IF THEY REFUSED TO ANSWER THERE IS STILL STRESS INVOLVED IN THE REFUSAL. HENCE THE WISE PERSON WILL ASK AS FEW QUESTIONS OF OTHERS SO POSSIBLE SO AS NOT TO PESTER OTHERS TO CREATE KARMA NOT MERIT THAT FOOLISH PERSON MIGHT THINK. EVERY QUESTION MUST STRESS THE ANSWERER HENCE WHEN ONE ASKS ANY QUESTIONS ONE MUST MAKE SURE IT IS ABSOLUTELY PERTINENT TO ASK. THE TRUTH IS MOST PEOPLE HAVE FORCED THEMSELVES TO ASK QUESTIONS OF OTHERS THAT THEY ARE NOW FORCED BY IRRESISTIBLE URGES TO ASK QUESTIONS AND THEY FEEL JUSTIFIED TO DO SO, NOT REALIZING THAT THIS URGE WILL NOT STOP HERE BUT IF THEY KEEP DO SO, IT MAY BECOME MADLY OUT OF CONTROL IN OLD AGE OR IN A SITUATIONAL CRISIS WHEN THEY CANNOT STOP THEMSELVES ASKING QUESTIONS MANICALLY EG “WHY, WHY, WHY GOD? WHAT HAVE I DONE, WHAT HAVE I DO/ ANSWER ME, ANSWER ME, ANSWER ME, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE!” IF THROUGHOUT YOUR LIFE YOU SELDOM TROUBLED OTHERS WITH UNNECESSARY QUESTIONS, WILL YOU BE STRICKEN BY A MAD URGE LATER?
MANY PEOPLE LIKE TO ASK QUESTIONS WHENEVER THEY CONVERSE WITH OTHERS (TO SHOW THAT THEY HAVE AN INTEREST IN OTHERS) WHEN YOU CAN CONDUCT A MEANINGFUL CONVERSATION WITH VERY FEW QUESTIONS. INSTEAD OF ‘HOW ARE YOU?’ (A QUESTION THAT NEEDS AN ANSWER) YOU CAN SAY WITHOUT FORCE OR STRETCHED SYLLABLES, “HI” OR “HELLO” (THIS IS NOT A QUESTION & NEEDS NO REPLY) OFTEN I DISPENSE WITH THE HELLO BUT I IDENTIFY MYSELF AS SO & SO FROM SO & SO AND SAY I WANT TO PLACE AN ORDER. FOR INSTANCE YOU CAN CONDUCT A CONVERSATION ABOUT CURRENT EVENTS IN IRAQ, AMERICA, MALAYSIA WITHOUT ASKING ANY QUESTIONS BUT SOME PEOPLE LIKE TO ASK HOW WAS YOUR WEEKEND, HOW’S YOUR WIFE, HOW LONG DID YOU STAY, HOW MUCH DID IT COST AND ENDLESSLY.
ALTHOUGH PEOPLE INSIST THEIR QUESTIONS REFLECT GENUINE INTEREST IN OTHERS, IF IT IS FORCED, THERE IS FORCE WHEN YOU ASK THE QUESTION, THEN EVERY TIME YOU FORCE YOURSELF TO ASK A QUESTION, YOU ARE REINFORCING THE URGE TO ASK QUESTIONS FOR THE SAKE OF ASKING, MOST PEOPLE HAVE ALREADY GRADUATED TO THE STAGE WHERE THEY ARE FORCED, NOT FORCING TO ASK QUESTIONS MINDLESSLY. WHAT THEY DO NOT REALIZE IS THAT WHEN THEIR PRESENT CONTROL IS LOST, THEY MAY ASK QUESTIONS MADLY. FURTHER, WHETHER YOU REALIZE YOU FORCE YOURSELF TO ASK QUESTIONS OR NOT, IF IT IS FORCED, YOU WILL EXPERIENCE RESTLESSNESS LATER AND IF YOU KEEP FORCING YOURSELF TO ASK QUESTIONS THE WHOLE DAY, YOU WILL BE SEIZED TORMENTINGLY BY YOUR RESTLESSNESS AT THE END OF THE DAY.
MANY PEOPLE STUDY BUDDHIST SUTTAS IN ALL EARNESTNESS BUT THEY MISS A VITAL LESSON AT THE END WHEN THE BUDDHA IS OFTEN NOTED TO TELL HIS MONKS THAT ‘SO & SO WAS WISE, HE DID NOT PESTER ME’. HE IS WISE NOT FOR THE BUDDHA’S SAKE BUT FOR HIS OWN SAKE FOR TO PESTER A BUDDHA OR ANYONE 9WITH QUESTIONS) CREATES SERIOUS KARMA. (MANY DOCTORS LIKE TO ASK MANY QUESTIONS OF PATIENTS THAT IF THEY LOOK CAREFULLY ARE IRRELEVANT BUT DESIGNED TO IMPRESS THEIR PATIENTS WITH KARMA ATTACHED)
THERE ARE THOSE WHO FORCE THEMSELVES NOT TO ASK QUESTIONS AND THIS IS AN ACT. IF YOU TRULY, EFFORTLESSLY HAVE NO URGE TO ASK OR NOT ASK QUESTIONS, IS IT POSSIBLE FOR YOU SUBSEQUENTLY TO BE SEIZED BY MADNESS TO ASK CRAZY QUESTIONS EVEN WHEN ALONE?
THE SIN OF FORCING YOURSELF TO ASK QUESTION IS THAT IT PESTERS OR STRESSES OTHERS TO REPLY. THE DANGERS OF FORCING YOURSELF TO ASK QUESTIONS IS THAT YOU WILL EXPERIENCE STRESS AND RESTLESSNESS THAT LINGERS, IT IS ADDICTIVE LEADING TO LOSS OF CONTROL AND MADNESS LATER.

The Sin Of Yes, But:
Whenever you say ‘yes’ and later qualify it later with a ‘but’ you have conflicted what you said earlier and you have said something false, something that you did not mean.
For instance you might say, “Yes we must not be anxious about our lives, what we shall eat or what we shall drink, nor about our bodies, BUT that doesn’t mean we must not keep fit.” If you meant what you said that you must keep fit, you are admitting must be anxious about or devote attention to your body and therefore your yes we must be anxious is false or a lie.
Unconscious Unrepentant Liars:
Ordinary people who do not realize they are actors may think they are great espousers of truth but often they do not realize what they speak is not exaggeration but false or a lie. For instance the statement below may have been intended to be humorous, an exaggeration but in truth it is false.
Quote: Someday soon, I may be the last man in America without a cell phone.
Comment: Someday soon, whatever that day is, he is never going to be the last man in America without a cell phone but there will always be a lot of Americans eg the deprived who will be without a cell phone. Hence that statement may be funny but it is not even an exaggeration but false. Is he or many of his fellow cohorts concerned by it? It is likely they ‘enjoy’ it, think it cute and encourage others to similarly appreciate. Jesus said you will be judged for every careless word you said. It is up to you to judge whether you will be judged by such humor; what is at stake for you maybe eternal wandering and an eternity in heaven. It is wise not to be presumptuous (assuming it is harmless), a defilement of the mind according to the Buddha. Woe to you who laughs, for you shall weep.
Jesus: I tell you, on the day of judgment men will render account for every (not some) careless word they utter; for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.
Why Insisting & Clinging Is Always Acting:
Whenever someone insists, he is acting because when you insist you are not letting your yes be yes only but must apply force to what you want to say or do. When you insist you did not tell a lie, you are forcefully saying you did not tell a lie and therefore acting. A non acting person only passively says without smiling or insisting, “I did not tell a lie”. When you insist someone stays you are again applying force against the wishes of anyone to force him to stay. If he wants to stay, a passive request suffices. It is sinful to insist because you force the other person to entertain doubt and go against his original wish not to stay. Doubt and uncertainty is one of three fetters leading to states of woe according to the Buddha and by promoting doubt in others, you have debt, not merit on your hands.
Whenever you cling to someone or something (a gold ornament or certificate), either physically or mentally (keep ringing, pestering him), you are also acting because you are actively or forcefully attaching or imposing yourself either mentally or physically to that person.
Faked Speech:
Slo-Mo does not exist and it forces the listener to fabricate to find out what it means. Slo-mo is not an exaggeration but a fake or perversion of slow motion and is designed to be chic, impress others falsely. It is also likely to be spoken in an acted form thus: sSLOoo mMOoo.
Can You Teach The Blind To See?
When I proposed to this reasonably intelligent, apparently upright girl that smiling causes stress, she smiled broadly to insist that smiling does not create stress but it is an antidote to stress. She may be correct but it seems a lot of very ‘normal’ people believe the opposite, what is stressful (eg smiing, stretching syllables and making lotsa money) is soothing, eases stresses (the more money you make the happier you become). And they do not just believe it but they believe it forcefully, emotionally. But if in truth your smiling and stretching syllables is stressful to yourself and others, you will pile debts on yourself. How can you teach the blind to see? Can such a person who is quite ‘happy’ to induce stress in herself spontaneouely induce a consciousness change or spontaneously exit stressful acting?

What Is Acting & How People Act:

What Is Acting & How People Act:
Acting is what ordinary people do all the time and it is a prison of suffering and hence there are no part time actors but they are all fulltime actors until the day if ever they awake to how they act and put an end to their suffering.
Reflecting that this world is a creation of the consciousness and a prison of the senses trapping sinful beings in which animals are part of a continuum including humans, animals too act like human counterparts. Listen to the loud, insistent harsh calls of birds that stresses themselves and their perverted audience who think it is music. They don't chirp but chirp, chirp, chirp shrilly, loudly mindlessly. Hens don’t ‘squawk’, they “sSSQUAawWkKK, sSSQUAawWkKK, sSSQUAawWkKK” with stretched syllables (a form of acting), dogs do not bark “woof” but they are bark with stretched syllables “wWOOFF, wWOOFF, wWOOFF” Animals engage in sophisticated deception to stalk preys. I have seen on TV a stork like bird collecting leftover bread bits thrown by people, dipping them into the water and then releasing them to imitate dropping bread pieces and then staying (or forcing himself to stay) still to wait for foolish fish to come. A specie of orchid has fabricated a flower so like a female bee that male bees prefer to copulate with it. This is deception of a high order.
Acting is the source of all unnecessary internal stresses. It is false and unnecessarily stresses the actor himself and recipients of his acting. Because acting is harmful (stressful) and false, it is sinful and because people act all the time, they are therefore sinning all the time. Because acting is forceful and harmful, it cumulatively warps and degrades the mind leading inevitably to acute and senile restlessness, mania (madness and violent impulses) and depression. All actors must experience regular bouts of restlessness, mad or violent thoughts or actions and depression which they are able to shrug but when they grow old, they will become uncontrollable.
A Definition Of Acting:
Driven by emotions (anger, hate, greed, fear, lust) and stress (distracts and seizes the mind), actors forcefully go against themselves all the time in a controlled way to exaggerate or fake what and how they say, do, perceive and think in the name of deceiving, impressing, pleasing, intimidating and dominating others. Because acting is going against oneself, it has to be constantly subject to forceful restraint or modulation or it will seriously harm the actor. Without restraint, turning back at the brink, actors will burn themselves out quickly.
Because all acting is false and fabricated, tampering with whatever the person wants to say or do, force must be applied to act. Anything that is done or said forcefully, with excessive force, with excessive acceleration of speed and force (instead of even speed or force) is acted. For example many actors speak in an explosive manner caused by a rapid acceleration of loudness and speed of words followed by sudden deceleration instead of easeful smoothly raising the loudness and maintaining the loudness during speech.

How Emotions & Stress Drives Acting:
It is because of greed(an emotion) that people constantly rush such that they are now forced to rush, no longer forcing themselves to rush. Whenever you rush, you must say or do things with excessive force and speed (loud & fast); you cannot be attentive but doing or saying things approximately by rote or well practiced regurgitation mindlessly and therefore acting.
It is because of fear (an emotion) that people learn to behave in falsely respectful ways (act) to authority figures like rulers, officials and parents. Driven by fear of punishment by authority figures, people learn to act submissive or respectful.
Driven by anger (an emotion) people act by shouting (loud, explosive speech) that stresses themselves and their victims in order to dominate or intimidate them.
Acting generates stress that couples with the stress from the bombardment of harsh acting by others. Stress from one's and others' acting causes the mind to be distracted, filled with ill will and restless, conditions inimical to not acting. Only when a person is calm, clearly thinking and serene will he not go against himself to act because acting will destroy that. Because actors’ minds have their serenity and clear thinking destroyed, they have forgotten or never tasted true calm serenity, they have learnt to accept their harassed mental states as natural and driven by internal and external stress, they continue to act somnolently.

Three types Of Acting & Act Breakdown:
They are voluntary (conscious) intended acting, involuntary (unconscious) intended acting and involuntary unintended or mad acting. There is further act breakdown people call nervous breakdowns.

Although ordinary people are constant actors, they are called upon to learn new acts all the time. For instance, they get married and have to learn how to act like a husband, a child is born and they have to learn how to act like a father. They are elected president and they have to learn how to act presidential according to what they think a president of the USA should act like.
Hence acting is initially conscious and hesitating or difficult as they learn how to act a new role eg playing tennis in a stylish way to impress others. This is called voluntary intended acting. (It is not that you must forcefully act to fulfill the role of husband or parent but because of social expectations and being an actor, they must act husband instead of being passively, let your yes be yes only a husband)
It is the nature of acting that what is well practiced frequently becomes automatic, can be rendered by rote needing little monitoring. Hence if actors make the successful transition (stress and conflict or anxiety that acting out any role creates is a stumbling block, some people can never overcome the stress and anxieties of acting a certain role eg as doctor or father), his new act (eg as president) becomes involuntary (no longer forcing but forced by urge or impulse) intended acting. People smile and stretch their syllables all the time, they are fabricated to please or impress others but they are now done largely unconsciously without realising they are faking and stressful. Easeful not smiling when provoked and not to stretch their syllables are instead difficult if not impossible for actors to do. Though it may be slick and reduces self conscious anxiety, involuntary intended acting is a form of forceful denial, closing one's eyes to falsehood and harm to act, ceding control of oneself to blind forces (emotions, stress, urges, impulses), an act the actor fails to realize will ultimately lead to torment as he will increasingly lose control of his acting to become madly restless, madly violent, madly irrational and sink into irretrievable depression.
Whilst he is still consciously hesitatingly forcing himself to act eg presidential, he still has control and can stop his acting presidential but when he has graduated to become unconscious, automatically rendered acting president, he becomes a sophisticated forceful robot, a slave not master of sin headed for doom as all robots will ultimately disintegrate.

Mad involuntary unintended acting is the final malignant phase of acting getting out of control that initially afflicts actors briefly but will become more severe, prolonged and frequent as the actor's resistance disintegrates either in situational crises or as he ages. Because acting is forcefully going against oneself creating serious stress and conflict, it must generate forceful resentment against self and others that seeks expression but must be forcefully repressed because it would negate acting aimed to deceive, please and impress others if you accidentally scowled as you smiled alluringly. But it is precisely that you force yourself to stressfully smile at others that there must be an urge to be nasty, to emit explosive grunts, spits and violent acts (eg slam your fist on the desk out of the blue). When presidential candidate Howard Dean upset his bid by emitting a scream publicly after his primary defeat, he was manifesting involuntary unintended or mad acting beyond his control to act civilized.
Watch actors talking, eg on TV and you will see many poking their tongues out every now & then reflecting that what they say is faked to gain confidence and they are poking their tongues IMPULSIVELY to express hostility.
There is another type of mad acting as when someone emotionally washes his hands because of a fear of germs. In time to come, this urge or impulse to wash his hands becomes mad and he then keeps going to wash his hands obsessively and cannot help himself not to. Many like to believe their chirpy “Good morning” is genuine but they are all faked to get along. Because it is forcefully automated, not passively rendered by choice it sometimes slips the actor’s control to say ‘good morning’ inappropriately eg it is night or after knowingly having said good morning to the person earlier. When he grows old, he may find himself madly saying “good morning!” to himself. Because acting is forceful going against self, it develops a mind of its own that with the slipping of control by the actor becomes madly rendered beyond the actor's control.
Nervous breakdowns are act breakdowns. If a person never acts, never forcefully goes against himself to present a false alluring image of himself that is maintained mentally and physically at all cost, he will not drive himself to nervous breakdown. It is because people are pretentious, have overly unrealistically images that they want the world to believe in (how macho, seductive, intelligent they are) that when they are exposed or think they have lost face, they become shattered and experience a nervous breakdown.

How People Act:

They exaggerate what they speak:
They say extra words, extra sentences, beat around the bush unnecessarily to exaggerate. Eg they say ‘yes, yes, yes’ or ‘come, come, come’ instead of a single ‘yes’ or ‘come’. Many people do not realize they exaggerate, so used are they to their constant exaggeration.
For instance, this person uttered emotionally, “Nowadays even the nuns are late!” This is a form of exaggeration implying that it is so terrible nowadays; (what more lesser souls) even nuns do not keep their appointments. What is the big deal about nuns being late? Are nuns made of special stuff that they must be on time? How many nuns does he know and has he done a survey to show even nuns are late nowadays compared to the past? They may be late because of a traffic jam, not because they are deliberately being truant. Actually she was not late but the speaker failed to ascertain beforehand when she was supposed to turn up and was impatient for proceedings to start. When I told him (calmly) that there is karma disparaging the nun, he became upset (overreaction or exaggerated reaction). I did not scold him but told him calmly what he said has karma, so why should he become emotionally defiant? (If what I said is false, why get crossed over something that is not true or is he crossed because I besmirched him, i.e he is sensitive?)
Even if all nuns are being miscreant in deliberately arriving late, you are sinning disparaging them. You can say you are annoyed by their late coming but to disparage anyone is to sin and foolishly creates karma for yourself.
Many people utter ‘so’ emphatically without thinking to exaggerate, eg ‘sooo nice’, ‘sooo sweet’, ‘soooo terrible’. It is not enough for them to say it is nice, it is terrible, but they must mindlessly say ‘so terrible’ or ‘lotsa’ fun.
Watch yourself speaking and if you are honest (and discerning), you will find yourself reflexively, emotionally exaggerating far more than you concede. Whatever you might say, if you exaggerate, you will stress yourself and others and depression will be your companion and you will go to perdition.
When you say; “Wow! Look at him go!”, the ‘wow’ is said emotionally, unnecessarily to exaggerate. Suffice to say, “Look at him go. (without exclaiming)”. People say, “Look! I want you to know this” when it suffice to say, “I want you to know this”.
They exaggerate how they speak:
Many ordinary people speak too loud and fast than is necessary because they put too much force into how they speak. Whoever speaks loud and fast stresses himself (therefore goes against himself) and others. Not only do they speak loud and fast, they speak EXPLOSIVELY with exaggerated acceleration (and deceleration afterwards) of the loudness and speed of what they say. When you speak loudly with exaggerated volume (loud) and speed (fast) you are exaggerating how you speak.
Similarly, if you speak excessively softly (whisper) you are speaking with exaggerated volume and hence again exaggerating how you speak. When you whisper to try to seduce, you have to forcefully lower your voice and keep it lowered for an extended period creating stress.
Many people stretch their syllables all the time to be nice, to act concerned, to intimidate (eg Aiie wiilll kkillll youuu!!!) and this is exaggerating how you speak.
Instead of ‘please’ they say, “pplleeaassseee!”. Instead of “John Doe” they say “Jjohnnn Ddooee!”
They fake how they speak:
However earth shaking whatever you want to say, it can be said clearly and calmly without losing the message but you fake how you speak by speaking in an excited or dramatic way (popping eyes, grimacing face) to falsely impress others what you are saying is so interesting, so wonderful when often it is ho hum.
When something is not exciting (nothing will excite a Buddha, if you must be excited, you must suffer) and you say it in an excited way, you are faking how you speak, not exaggerating how you speak.
They fake what they speak:
When you tell a lie, spin a yarn or give an an excuse (eg why you couldn’t attend) you are faking what you speak. When you engage in idle chatter, telling jokes, you are faking what you say. All jokes are false. If it was the truth, it wouldn't be called a joke. So whenever you tell a joke, what you say is faked. Usually when people fake what they say, they also exaggerate it, they fake in an exaggerated way.
They exaggerate how they do things:
If you do something with more force than is necessary (exaggerated force) you are exaggerating how you do something.
They exaggerate what they do:
When you write or sign your signature with flowery loops that are not necessary in order to communicate your thoughts to others, you are exaggerating your writing, exaggerating what you do.
People write with greater force or exaggerated feebleness (fine willowy lines) than necessary. They type with great unnecessary force plus individual style or exaggerated daintiness to impress others (or themselves) how great typists they are.
When someone walks, his intention is to move from one place to another. Anything more is not letting your yes be yes only but comes from evil (according to Jesus) and walking in an acted exaggerated way eg walk with increased force, walking with excessive & forceful swing of legs and arms, unnecessarily puffed up chest or hunched chest, walking like a gunslinger, disrespectful hopping and skipping, walking as if exhausted (no matter how exhausted, a noble person will act out his exhaustion but just walk)
In order to walk sexily, you must not merely walk but you must sway or gyrate your hips (it is simple, watch and imitate fellow female goats everywhere). In order to walk impressively, you learnt to walk briskly with propped up chest, swing your arms and legs with more range (longer) and more force than is necessary.
A golfer exaggerates the length and path of his swing, exaggerates his posture to impress anyone who will care to be impressed (including himself) what an accomplished golfer he is.
In order to smoothen or equilibrate a sand bag he is filling, it may be necessary to only shake it up & down once but the nice guy will shake it forcefully three times reflecting his inability to merely let his yes be yes only.
Actors do not sound the horn ‘toot’ they either sound their horns impatiently thus “tooooot!” or mindlessly, rapidly, “toot, toot, toooot!”
All facial expressions eg smiling, winking, frowning, scowling, rhythmic jerking of head, blinking eyelids, gesticulating with hands in tandem with speech is faked to exaggerate what people say.
They fake what they do:
All smiles and laughter are in truth faked. They can be totally faked (they smile to fake they are not hurt, happy when they are hurt or sad) to be nice or be emotionally triggered by stimuli, eg many cannot resist smiling when someone smile to them, a lustful man cannot help smiling at a pretty girl, a money obsessed man smiling whenever he sees money. These are not natural but they are involuntary well practiced faking that have become impulsive, cannot be resisted driven by greed or delight for gain. Girls giggle when provoked not because it is natural but they are now impulsive slaves to emotions such that they compulsively, pretentiously giggle eg to act bashful when confronted by a man provocatively gyrating mischievously with a bra across his chest.
An actor may swiftly pretend to look at some magazine when he sees someone he does not wish to greet. When asked a question he heard quite well, he may automatically fake, “I beg your pardon???”
Actors routinely cross their legs seated in conversation towards another to fake friendliness or empathy.
They exaggerate how they think:
If actors watch themselves thinking, they never think matter of fact but their thoughts are forceful, rapid, haphazard and filled with emotions. They keep thinking over and over again the same things to exaggerate. They think over and over again their championship victory.
When you think with force, with emotion, with stretched mental syllables, you are exaggerating what you think.
They fake what they think:
When you indulge in fantasies, you are faking. Eg when you fantasize you’ve won a lottery, got a Ferrari, lust after a girl, you are faking your thoughts. Whenever you are not as rich as you make believe tell yourself mentally, you are faking what you think. When what you say or do is false but you tell yourself forcefully it is true, you are faking what you think.
When you indulge in fantasy how you will extract revenge, eg you are spiderman and will stalk him, you are faking. All fantasies are never passive but forceful and emotional, batters the mind and reinforces the mind to become hooked on fantasy and make belief.
You imagine you are a doctor when you are a clerk, you imagine you are a successful man living in an exclusive suburb when you are a nobody living in a slum.
They exaggerate what they perceive:
Actors stare or forcefully keep their eyes open for longer than necessary to intimidate others or falsely convey their sincerity. To apply force and keep your eyes open longer than comfortable is to exaggerate your seeing or perception.
Some actors look permanently through slit like peering eyes perhaps to disguise their dishonesty. They want to see others but they do not want others to see how they are looking or the evil intentions reflected in their eyes. Many people routinely regularly close their eyes as they speak, not to reflect thinking but to close their eyes to the dishonesty of what they speak. They dishonestly look through the corner of their eyes to feign or fake they are not looking or not interested when they are looking and interested. Their eyes dart restlessly reflecting the dishonesty of what they say or to survey if there is anything of gain eg a thief surveys anything around worth stealing.
When you (emotionally) see a girl and think she is the prettiest girl you ever saw when she is only reasonably attractive, your perception of beauty is exaggerated. When the girl is quite drab and you (emotionally) perceive her as out of this world, your perception may be false.
Actors don't just listen passively to everything that impinges on their ears. They only want to hear things they want to hear the way they want it. Some people want to hear only loud music played forcefully not soothing music. Actors eat with force, taste with force (exaggerated taste). Everything they perceive (see, hear, touch, taste) must be forced, forceful or they may refuse to take notice or pretend not to perceive. You must speak loudly, shout before they will pretend to hear you.
Many motorists have exaggerated perceptions of safe maneuvers. For instance, not just women but men sometimes hesitate and do not join traffic when it is clearly safe to do so and sometimes they attempt to merge when it is clearly suicidal. They do not cross the road or overtake when it OK, impeding others behind or they cross or overtake when it is suicidal to do. They have poor judgment or exaggerated judgment of what is OK or not OK that does not reflect reality. Poor judgment is not blameless but reflects an artificial, rigid or mechanical acting person.
They fake what they perceive:
What you see things that aren’t there you are faking. People see a face in a cloud (imagination is fabricated vision, it would be presumptuous to think a Buddha will similarly see a face in a cloud because he does not fabricate and to see a face in a cloud when it is only a cloud is to fabricate because of desire or pretense), they see a figure or ghost or hear noises when they aren’t. People hear virtual or faked music in the head when there isn’t; they hallucinate visually and aurally. Alcoholics see elephants, some people complain of pain or ants crawling over them when there is medically nothing wrong. Amputatees imagine or fake perceive their (phantom) limbs are still there.
All actors must suffer from:
Stress, conflict & restlessness: Because acting is constantly forcefully going against oneself unnecessarily to exaggerate and fake with speech, body, mind and perception, it must create stress and conflict (anyone who is going against himself must experience conflict) and because he keeps acting, the stress and conflict is insoluble and leads to restlessness. Further, the stress and restlessness thus generated by acting keeps the mind distracted and irritable, a condition conducive to continued acting and inimical to the arising of not acting.
Emotions: Emotions drive acting and acting creates emotions that maintain acting. Anyone who is constantly stressfully going against himself to exaggerate and fake must experience anger and hate for himself for going against himself and anger and hate for others he feels obliged to please or impress. Anyone who goes against himself to please or impress others must harbor shame because he is prostituting himself and this shame must be repressed and countered by an inordinate pride. Anyone who acts must be emotionally, irrationally stubborn because acting is harmful and in order to keep harming yourself, you must be stubborn, you must be a goat.
Mad & Violent Thoughts: Anyone who is constantly forcefully going against himself to exaggerate or fake what and how he says, does, thinks or perceives must be at least a bit mad, must harbor silly or violent thoughts and impulses.
Depression: Because acting is unnecessarily going against oneself to produce unnecessary stress and conflict and the actor keeps acting generating insoluble stress and restlessness for himself, he must feel despair and become depressed.
Ultimate Restlessness, Mania and Depression: Because acting is forceful, emotional and stressful, it is constantly battering the mind to slowly warp and degrade it. Whilst he is still young, the actor is able to withstand the abuse he heaps on himself but with age, his resistance weakens and he succumbs to increasingly severe restlessness, madness (mad thoughts and violent impulses) and depression that seem to arise ‘out of the blue’.
Headaches & Dizzy Spells: Headaches and dizzy or giddy spells are not part and parcel of existence but they are part and parcel of sinful, forceful acting. If one is always passive, never applies excessive force in whatever and how one thinks, perceives, says or does, one is never stressed or emotional, one will not subject one’s mind to constant battering that inevitably results in headaches and giddiness which are reflections the mind is being harmed. It is because the mind has reserves and powers of recovery, just as it usually recovers from drunken abuse, it usually recovers from the headaches and giddiness resulting from acting abuse. But this state of affairs will not necessarily remain so and a day will come when the mind is finally permanently shattered by heedless lifelong abuse.
Dazes: Acting itself is a daze that actors put themselves into because most actors are unaware, they are in a daze or mesmerized that they are not acting when they are. Often in a day, an actor may lapse involuntarily in a daze when he is detached from reality, daydreaming. A Buddha does not daydream. Such dazes are involuntary but arise suddenly under provocation (something happen, eg husband killed) and seizes the actor helplessly. Because it is a private reality, does not correspond to physical reality, dazes are false states of minds that that mind lapses into and as he ages, such dazes become more frequent until at death he is swallowed permanently into his private false dazed world to head for perdition. A person who is not attached to his self (self identity views one of three fetters to states of woe) will not fall into dazes but he will be rooted in reality, the present world he is in.
Watch ordinary people speaking and in the midst of speaking or reminiscing, they may suddenly stop and stare vacantly as they lapse into a daze. Such dazes are not voluntary but involuntary, seizing them helplessly and reflects they are not masters but slaves, can be seized and fall into woe.
Mental & Act Blocks: Actors are prone to suffer mental blocks, they forget what they are thinking about, going to say or do. This reflects that what they say or do is going against themselves and complicated and there is forceful internal resistance that sometimes stop them in their tracks. What is not going against self is not forceful and straight forward and there is no mental or act block.

ALL ACTORS ARE DICING WITH AND WILL SUCCUMB IN VARYING DEGREES IN OLD AGE TO MAD RESTLESSNESS, MAD THOUGHTS AND VIOLENCE AND DEPRESSION.

ANYTHING DONE, SAID AND THOUGHT WITH GREATER FORCE THAN IS NECESSARY TO ACCOMPLISH IT IS ACTED. IT IS EMOTIONS THAT IS BEHIND THIS HAMFISTED EXCESSIVE FORCE THAT BESET EVEN DAINTY GIRLS WHO ARE NOT GENTLE BUT FORCEFULLY GENTLE. IT IS THIS EMOTION DRIVEN FORCEFULNESS WHICH HARMS SELF AND RECIPIENTS THAT WILL IN TIME FINALLY OVERPOWER THE TOUGH MIND THAT FORCEFULLY FABRICATES SO THAT IT WOULD GO MAD, GO UNOPPOSED AGAINST ITSELF, DESTROY ITSELF BY ITS OWN EMOTIONAL CONCEIT AND DECEIT.
The occurrence of intermittent bouts of depression is a warning sign the person is acting, emotionally exaggerating and faking all the time. Whilst his vitality is intact, he can suppress and temporarily overcome the enclosing depression to return to his forceful, faked cheerful acting. With time his depressions becomes deeper, more prolonged and harder to shake off and he is headed for doom, even hell. Anyone vulnerable to bouts of depression would be wise to abandon all earthly pursuits, stop smiling, stop stretching his syllables, stop denying he is depressed (by smiling and humming tunes to drive away the blues), stop exaggerating and faking and devote time to meditate to impose calm on his mind until calm is the default state of his mind. Until you are free of emotions, free of acting, you will never be free of depression and you are headed for doom.

THERE IS A SERENE, CLEARLY THINKING CENTERED STATE CALLED NON ACTING AS OPPOSED TO THIS WORLD OF UBIQUITOUS STRESSED, EMOTIONAL AND MENTALLY DISTRACTED OR SCATTERED ACTORS. THESE TWO STATES ARE MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE; YOU CANNOT CHOOSE TO BE BOTH AN ACTOR AND NON ACTOR OCCASIONALLY AT WILL.

BECAUSE ACTING IS WHAT BEINGS IN THIS WORLD INDULGE IN OR ARE MESMERISED IN CLUELESSLY ALL THE TIME, IT IS STRESSFUL & MIND WARPING TO SELF AND OTHERS (STRESS KILLS) & IT IS FALSE (EXAGGERATING AND FAKING) A BEING HAS NO CHOICE BUT TO WAKE UP AND STOP ACTING IF HE IS TO DEPART RESTLESS, MAD, VIOLENT AND DEPRESSING SINFUL ACTING TO BLISSFUL, SERENE, CLEARLY THINKING, SINLESS NON ACTING.
THERE IS NO OTHER WAY BECAUSE IT IS NOT POSSIBLE FOR ONE TO REMAIN IN ACTING AND STILL BE SINLESS, CLEARLY THINKING, SERENE, PASSIVE, FREE FROM RESTLESSNESS, MAD VIOLENT IMPULSES AND DEPRESSION.
What the counselor must do:
Jesus said the counselor will bring you advantage. He will convince the world (not just Christians) regarding sin, righteousness (virtue) and judgment.
If it is true there was a liberating consciousness change in 1977 (that still continues), it is true that beings in this world are all acting all the time when it is possible to not act (let your yes be yes only), when acting is stressful and tormenting to self and others, is false and bad, never good, then the counselor that Jesus described must also cause this liberating consciousness change, dwell on acting and advice against acting.